#actuallyautistic
Sometimes I hope that someone might notice my difference,
Might intuit that the first approach,
The handshake, the "Can I join you?"
Is simply more difficult
And make the first move.
Sometimes I hope that people will realize the hand motions,
Foot tapping, slight rock of the body or toes
Are not merely a restless fidget,
Not impatience, nor disrespect.
Sometimes I want to be invisible,
Normal,
Neurotypical,
To be just another human being,
But mostly I wish to be accepted,
Autistic, quirky, kind, creative,
ME.
Sep 24, 2019
Sep 24, 2019 at 11:34 PM UTC
Acceptance, not awareness
Red, not blue
Infinity, not a puzzle piece
An autistic person, not a person with autism
A cue
I missed
A clue
I never gave you
Literate
In literature readings, yes,
Literate
In social readings, no,
I misunderstood
I was not rude
You misunderstood
I try not to be rude
I am sorry
I am so sorry
I try not to cry
But your words hurt
...I shouldn't be sorry
This is who I am
A strangely wired brain
Please understand better next time
I swear I will try better next time
Apr 6, 2018
Apr 6, 2018 at 2:08 AM UTC