#acrophobia
I'm acrophobic
But I ain't afraid of heights.
Instead, what I'm really afraid of
is the fall.
Jul 23, 2020
Jul 23, 2020 at 4:00 AM UTC
I could never be a skyscraper,
never an airplane.
I could never be the Space Needle,
never the Eiffel Tower.
I could never, ever be Mount Everest,
never a California redwood.
I've a fear of heights, you see,
space and motion not my thing.
"Confront your fear," they say.
But let's face it, I just can't face it.
"Do it for me," she said.
Well, if it takes climbing the sky
to prove my love for you,
I guess I'll die trying.
Literally.
So long as we don't talk about
my even bigger fear of widths...
Feb 19, 2020
Feb 19, 2020 at 7:11 AM UTC
In the end, I never really climbed-
Them, they gave me panic attacks,
Razors loped my flesh and I ran in
Circles over a reverse nightmare,
Spiral staircase, awful storeys,
They all scooted to 1999.
I want to climb down my 1999, burn
And not be smolder in an ashtray.
I hope to fall asleep, away from
The city, away from my guava trees.
I have my history of walking,
Suddenly lost without postage stamps.
Will you take me to Ferris wheel?
Push me down the spiral staircase,
And sleep next to my 1999? Will you?
Will you take me to Ferris wheel?
Push me down the spiral staircase,
And sleep next to my 1999? Will you?
“Some other day”
Apr 23, 2016
Apr 23, 2016 at 10:26 AM UTC
I wanted to face a fear.
So I scooted myself closer to the railing of this 420 foot high bridge
& forced myself to look over the edge
Telling myself that this fear was irrational,
But the longer I sat there the more the anticipation grew in my chest, the more I could feel my body betraying my mind, images flashed of me being thrown over the edge by my sadistic thoughts.
Some part of me wanted to free fall into the rushing water & the sharp jagged rocks below
A part of me I don't like to hear
"This is real."
All the years of telling myself I was scared of heights,
When really I am only scared of myself.
Aug 13, 2014
Aug 13, 2014 at 8:19 PM UTC