#abjecthorror
// Internal System Log: CORRUPTED
// Status: [St@bil!ty = ]
// Emotional Containment Protocol: UNSUCCESSFUL
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BEGIN REPORT:
Input()Input()Input()Input()Input()Input()Input—
[[TooMu.ch//Prcssing]]
[[Intake>Breathe>Breathe>STOP]]
[[Overload threshold breached: 147%]]
[[SILENCE REQUESTED—but no mute function exists.]]
:: Ceiling fan = bl@des.
:: Light = thorns behind the eyes.
:: Voice (x3) = collision.
Smell-of-metal
Sound-of-thought
Feel-of-cloth
= same weight
!!!
Every thread = a scream.
Every hum = a map of somewhere I cannot go.
I f e e l t o o m u c h
B@ckgr()und noise reclassified: Hostile
Texture = LANGUAGE
Light = WEAPON
Breath = HEAVY::LOUD::VISIBLE
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MEMORY ATTEMPT: BLOCKED
Recall = corrupted.
Syntax folding in on self.
:: error_rpt ::
“it’s_too_loud”
“it’s_too_now”
“i_was_built_wrong”
[[Containment sequence failed.]]
[[Masking loop frozen mid-loop.]]
:: Body = too connected
:: Skin = antenna
:: Thoughts = UNIVERSE EXPERIENCING ITSELF
Request:
—s h u t d o w n—
—p a u s e—
—decre@se awareness—
ERROR. No exits.
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Voice modulation: SILENCED
Eye contact: NO ACCESS
Tongue: SYSTEM JAMMED
Hands: mimic comfort sequence [looping…looping…]
Body: offline
Presence: simulated
Pain: everywhere
Witness: no one
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:: Let them call this dramatic
:: Let them call this a phase
:: Let them call this poetry
:: They are not inside this moment.
—
! s o m u c h i n h e r e
…still…
i do not want to leave.
i just want it all
to
slow
d o w
n
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[TRANSMISSION: TERMINATED]
Final ping: [[I_am_still_here]]
Recovery window: unknown
System will reboot once internal volume falls below threat levels.
Aug 1, 2025
Aug 1, 2025 at 8:30 PM UTC
(Object exhibits signs of failed assimilation.)
Status: Contained
Linguistic Output: Coherent, irregular
Affective Display: Incongruent
Recommended Handling: Minimal stimulation. Avoid mirrors.
The subject presents as humanoid,
though not reliably.
Eye contact flickers
like corrupted footage.
Speech arrives in fragments—
intonation unaligned with emotional content.
Dissection reveals a nervous system
braided too tightly with memory.
Repetitive behaviors observed:
rocking, muttering, hands folding themselves into familiar shapes.
(Suspected ritual. Possibly maintenance.)
Internal monologue transmits without consent.
Rooms echo with words never said aloud.
Fluorescent lights elicit panic.
Soft voices do not soothe.
When touched, the subject stiffens—
not out of fear,
but anticipation.
It has learned that affection
is often the prelude to calibration.
Attempts to socialize the unit
resulted in increased corruption of the core files.
Subject now mimics human response
with impressive accuracy—
until asked why it feels.
(Subject does not answer.
Subject cannot answer.
Emotion was mapped to motor function and never returned.)
MRI shows dense clusters in the empathy regions—
but no signal reaches them without distortion.
The static is ancestral.
Passed down like brittle teeth
and sleeplessness.
Diet: Low on metaphor, high on survival.
Vocal tone: Polished, practiced, passively pleading.
Favorite phrase:
“I’m fine.”
Always said too quickly.
Always accompanied by the twitch of a jaw
trying not to scream.
Touch triggers feedback loops.
Silence is tolerated, then weaponized.
Intimacy met with suspicion—
not due to paranoia,
but pattern recognition.
You may observe it,
but do not mistake this for consent.
The subject learned visibility.
It was never offered belonging.
End-stage masking leaves the organism
hollowed.
Dissociative hum in place of thought.
Apathy mistaken for stability.
Last recorded statement before regression:
“If I act human long enough,
does that mean I was?”
It is not currently speaking.
It watches.
Jul 31, 2025
Jul 31, 2025 at 2:21 PM UTC