#6am
it's 5am
the moon is still awake
the birds sings
and the cold wind blows
over the silence
the rooster crows
and i smell
the sweet fragrance
of grasses
and i don't mind
if it's dark or cold
i have to see you
before you go home
to tell you goodbye
before i'll miss
your lips
your hugs
and your eyes
i hope by 6am
when you go
when we separate
our ways
you'll miss me too
Mar 26, 2014
Mar 26, 2014 at 7:02 PM UTC
2am
I'm addicted to heartache
The kind that rips you apart inside
Leaves you shaking
Tears streaming down your face
3am
The moon bright in your eyes
Sparkling behind the moisture
Sobs wrack my body
The stars seem to be falling from the sky
This feeling is what I know best
4am
All is quiet
The night doesn't make a sound
Theres nothing left to come out
Tears have dried
And my mind is numb
I feel nothing
Hollow and empty
This feeling is all too hauntingly familiar
5am
The morning approaches
And I am still awake
Staring at the wall
Nothing left
6am
Time to get up
Plaster a smile on my face
Smear concealer under my eyes
And pretend like those dark circles aren't there
9am
Everyone is oblivious
But I know
That tonight
I'm going to go through it all again
Nov 22, 2014
Nov 22, 2014 at 10:20 PM UTC
If the car hadn't braked
Who knows where I'd be now
2 minutes of excruciating pain
And then its over
Now this is when I truly wonder how could anyone truly become suicidal
How could she get to the point
Where others don't matter
I guess its true when they say
"Like mother, like daughter"
Because I thought the same today
Im not suicidal but we share the same thoughts, looks, ideas
If this bus hits me im dead
I didn't stop to think about the driver
Or the other cars in the street
Or my parents and brother
How would they feel
If I threw it all away just to catch the bus on time
Its funny really
At one point you're wishing you wouldn't have to wake up
And then the next, you're contemplating life
But how selfish could you be to not think of others
How they would feel
How much their insurance would rocket
The trauma and grief
How would that affect their memories?
Its all fun and games until you realize
That ending your life is practically the same
As ending theirs
Dec 6, 2025
Dec 6, 2025 at 7:28 PM UTC