#3years
I looked at my cousins profile today
It was full of happy birthday
Prayers and wishes
Greatness and I love you’s
I miss you’s and please come home
But I can’t help but scream
And cry and pray that he never sees the light of day.
That he rots away behind the only bars that are keeping me safe.
I pray his sentence was life,
But the justice system doesn’t care.
They don’t care my will was pinned down
My voice was kept silent
And a magical experience ripped away.
I looked at his sons profile today.
Drawing and anime all the way.
Updated pictures free will to walk.
Free will to go harm another person who’s lost.
No punishment granted.
And smiles he may
Stealing the smiles he wiped from my face.
He plays little games with cards always winning never losing just like how he won that day.
His Facebook reveals all
No regret in his eyes.
No apologies given
So here I lye
I looked at my rapists profiles today
And the the justice system failing
To keep me safe.
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 9:04 PM UTC
here you and i are again,
nothing is the same from the last time.
your presence feels as though it is a mirage.
surely this is because i thought that i finally found the strength to leave you behind.
**** it; how come you always make your way back into my life?
can't help but fail weak for allowing you to make amends with me.
you appear to be a changed person which is refreshing yet irritating.
the truth is, you can't change the hurt you caused me in the past.
you can say "sorry" til you're blue in the face, yet that takes nothing back.
hate to let you down or ruin your pride parade, i just need to do what's best for me once and for all. running back to your arms for the first time ever feels lethal.
Jan 7, 2016
Jan 7, 2016 at 1:02 AM UTC
It started 3 years ago
I was instantly hooked
Just the littlest bit and i needed more
It's true what they say about drugs
They are addictive
And Jess i cant get enough of your love
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 24, 2014 at 11:49 PM UTC
Pain,
The stabbing feeling
That I experience
Day in day out.
Knowing that for
Three years
The issue has been
This the pain is unneeded
To stop the pain
These tablets, Painkillers
Cause more pain
Than they solve
The daily tears
The throbbing
Like a knife
Unexplainable
Unthinkable
A dance career
Wanted
No longer possible
Ended before begun
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 1:42 PM UTC