#3rdpoem
Ang pag silay ng araw
Ay siya ring paglisan
Ng mga bituin at ng buwan.
Hindi alintana ang sakit
Maramdaman mo lamang ang sikat ng araw
Kahit gabi-gabi
Akong tinutulugan
Ni hindi nga ako kayang pagmasdan
Mula sa kalangitan
Sa bawat pagning ning ko
Ikaw ang dahilan nito.
Ngunit sa umaga ka lamang mulat
Gumigising ng maagap
Handang magparaya
Makita mo lamang ang mundo
t'wing umaga
Ang buwan na nagbibigay liwanag
sa kalawakan
Ay piniling lumisan
Ako ang bituin at ang buwan
Jul 17, 2019
Jul 17, 2019 at 10:45 PM UTC
You don't notice the new scars on my arm... They've been there for a while now... I made some new ones today... I just feel so alone in this world... Like no one really cares... I just think my mental illness is getting the better of me... And honestly I'm not going to fight it any more... So one day you'll probably come home and see me lying on the floor, cold, lifeless... But know that I'm at peace...I'm happier now... I cant make you happy anymore... And that's totally okay. I'm content with that... But the fact that you're still staying with me... It puzzles me... Why stay with a suicidal maniac... A crazy
person... I need to be in a mental hospital... Locked away... In a straight jacket... Where I cant cause anymore harm... To you or to myself... But you don't notice the scars, you ignore the signs... I cry... A lot... You don't notice the fake smile... That I'm wearing this mask... I'm taking it off tonight... Maybe you'll realize before its too late... Then again you probably wont... Its not your fault... I'm just really good at acting... You don't realize
the pain... The constant struggle i have with myself... To be... Perfect... You don't realize the hurt.. When my tears hit the pillow and you're not there... But its okay. I forgive you... Just hope you can forgive me... One day... You don't realize the sadness... But you'll realize it... That day... That day that I'm gone...
Mar 5, 2019
Mar 5, 2019 at 9:12 PM UTC