#2o11
I settled in
And I settled with it
I had logic when I drifted off
But an entirely different shadow casts its cruel light this morning
As I rise and realize
The Silence
The Unknown
The taste of limerent panic
Devours everything in its path
And in its wake
Like a flood
I had logic when I drifted off
Logic when we last spoke
Logic when we kissed with hope
And now
My mind is crawling
with the worst possibilities
Triggered
and riddled with evil trickery
My eyes are open too wide
Searching in this vicious darkness
For you
Like wind through the trees
I'm left breathless in the breeze
Unsettled and sleepless
Weak in the knees
It's always this way on nights like these
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:21 PM UTC
The light leaves my eyes
in the wake of silence
Yet, the noise in my ears
is deafening
The pounding of my heavy heart
Defiant
Covert punishment
Tired of being tested
of being tempted
of being bested
So tired
But sleep won't come tonight
Not without a fight
I'll watch the hours pass instead
with unfeeling eyes
from an empty bed
while my need for resolve is slowly swept beneath forced phrases
Empty gazes
Frozen faces
Like thousands of silent, crawling insects
My mind and my body are restless
This is the sound of
refusal to accept
the denial
and the disconnect
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:18 PM UTC
I cannot help but channel you when we are apart, as this Love has become my very energy
I bide my time and visualize the movements we make, the way our bodies embrace and entwine with such fluidity
I cannot imagine a break in our ever growing bonds, our sameness, our connection, our continuity
I see you now in moments captured, in tiny time capsules, held in precious hands like fragile shells of destiny
I long for every moment in which we plan and build and give ourselves over to our bliss, our own Heaven
Our Eternity
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:15 PM UTC
There are ways in which the world
can turn things into distant memories
Broken hearts
Dreams torn apart
Worn out pages from weary stories
But our connection continues to deepen
even as the world outside tries to seep in
We don't just go through the paces
Instead we visit all new places
Bathed in this Love
in this light
even on the darkest, coldest night
I stay warm in your arms
In your embrace
and wait for the next moment
when my eyes will adore your face
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:14 PM UTC
The darkest eyes and darker hours
Kisses from your lips devoured
You grant me the glow from your crimson light
and name me your Goddess every night
I find myself dreaming and drowning in you
pillows still warm from your body and blankets scented by two
The feeling of your arms and sweet affection
In this room,
Surrounded by you in every direction
This unmade bed where we share our desires
Where our passion burns and our love aspires
Dimmed lights and candles because my lover remembers,
My hair across your pillow,
where my dreams are smoldering embers
This is no longer a foreign place
Your bed feels like home in a different space
Delicate breathing, ambient songs
Your bed is a haven where I feel I belong
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:12 PM UTC
My Love lies restless
Fevered in his bed
His essence removed
Replaced with illness instead
As I rested beside him
So reluctant to part
The warmth of his face
Stilled my beating heart
Such longing and devotion
His words caress my mind
I'll wish upon the stars tonight
That he will wake
and feel just fine
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:09 PM UTC
Conscious and unconscious
Dreamily disjointed
Bedtime storytelling
Insomnia takes me
for another walk in the park
Sleepless ramblings in the dark
Lonely for company
She collects me
My slumber-starved mind summons
He wakes and I wait
Feeling him close, as he lives within
Sensing his presence
I can almost see the glow
of his bedroom light
Something stirring in the distant night
My heart beats faster
as my Lover writes
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:09 PM UTC
Your desire is fierce
Fiery
Pulling at clothes and messy hair
Honey mouths and writhing tongues
Exposing my private, smoldering need
Impatient lips to spread and feed
Your desire is languid
Romantic
Gentle eyes and admiration
Warm caresses and butterfly lashes
Taking me slowly down with you
Tasting, inhaling and enjoying the view
Your desire is cruel
Unapologetic
Dominant and demanding
Force feeding flesh and flogging fists
Unrelenting commands for pleasure
Pure and raw, ******* without measure
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:07 PM UTC
This love I feel for you
Designed by what we do
How deeply we believe
The way we give and receive
Speaking in romantic phrases
Passionate tongues in intimate places
Touched by things from memories past
Knowing we were made to last
And as we devour another year
All I can think of is
"I wish you were here."
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:04 PM UTC
Your absence leaves me vulnerable
Missing you until the ache becomes palpable
My heart and my mind feel left behind
Because my need for you is a constant struggle
Distance is something we've changed
As our lives have become rearranged
When you're so very close
My heart sighs in repose
But when you're away it all feels so strange
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 4:03 PM UTC
Distance and longing
Tempered by a sense of belonging
We express such affection
Tempered by love and connection
Dreams like these come but once in a lifetime, if ever
Penned forever
Black paper and inked in silver, line by line
Each precious rhyme
Showing our feverish devotion to one another
As we share millions of kisses and caresses
And count the moments
on the delicate fingertips
of the hands of time
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 3:57 PM UTC
I.
There are places in you
I love most to explore
Not your body but a journey
Into so much more
Your mind, winding like a labyrinth
Your heart, warm like your embrace
Your eyes, deep green like absinthe
and the beautiful way your love shows on your face
II.
The exquisite feeling
The perfect way we fit
There is no way
to ever replace it
The taste of you lingering on my lips
The wanton lust from deep inside
The way you move between my hips
The way you make it impossible for me to hide
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 3:57 PM UTC
You've written stories with your blood on the walls
So many scars reveal how far you'd fall
And now it's different, it's like heaven instead
Descending deeper into love and in bed
We say we want to die together
To be as one forever and ever
I realize this dream is going to come true
Just **** me first before I **** you
I looked down and saw my blood on your hands
And in that moment I could understand
You'd have me naked and writhing under your touch
I won't protest because I love you too much
Your scars are like reminders of pain and pride
And mine is a reason for me to want to hide
But you don't let me cover what you think I should show
The less I wear the more you want me to know
Burn it into me that I belong to you
Remind me, always, that we'll never be through
But let's play games where I can try to run
So you can hold me down and make me come
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 3:56 PM UTC
When you feel like crumbling
Let me help you put the pieces into place
Just remember I'm also stumbling
But it's all better when I see your face
When I'm hurting and cannot speak
You draw me out and talk me down
And when you get to feeling weak
I'll remind you of your strength and straighten your crown
Your passion lies within this tattered heart
My only hope is that we continue to fall
I have belonged to you from the very start
My forever is yours and I'll die with you after it all
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 3:48 PM UTC
**** them all
The doubts
The nightmares
Make them go away
To give way
For hopes
Dreams
Sensual scenes of play
My love
You are the breath of me
Living inside
Deep in the breast of me
Forever my destiny
Shudder to think
One could ever destroy
Something so beautiful
Built on words
On chance
And now we passionately dance
Consumed by one another
What was never meant to last
Is all in the past
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 3:46 PM UTC
Your eyes speak to mine
as does your beautiful mind
No one else could ever know
the depth of our dreams
Or the passionate means
by which they were designed
Our future lies ahead
But for now,
we live in precious moments
Treasures like a child might find
Held safe but no longer secret
No longer captive
Because our love is not blind
This present tense feeling
All butterflies and kisses so kind
Has been a long time coming
Our connection remains
a fascinating mystery
Created by a history
that we will never leave behind
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 3:43 PM UTC
Waking with a careful start
Mindful of your anxious heart
You speak of things I also feel
I share in your desire
for the dreams to be real
So many thoughts
while confined to my bed
A love never lost
to the pain in my head
So I wake and I rise
Defiant against the pain
Wanting only to feel
Your arms around me again
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 3:42 PM UTC
Once upon a time in a magical place
Not a single tear ever touched your face
There was no pain or suffering
No broken promises or fears
Only dreams and wishes
and the sound of laughter in your ears
But heartbreak comes unexpectedly
I try hiding it away until it breaks free
Filled to bursting
My tears come through
With regret from the disappointment
I have created in you
There is no one on Earth
Who touches my heart like you can
The way you hold me
The way you help me
The way you care and understand
My home in your arms is the only saving grace
I may not be perfect, but my heart
is in the right place
Just try to remember to give sadness equal space
And I'll try to brush these angry tears from my face
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 3:40 PM UTC
Dearest love of mine
How I cherish the hours
You open me like a flower
Touching and tasting
Bodies naked and entwined
Each moment spent
Kisses leading to ecstasy
Writhing beneath your deviant need
Coming in floods
That will not relent
My body is but an altar
to your sensuality
As we live and breathe
Inside one another
I cannot imagine another lover
That could ever do what you do to me
Dearest love of mine
I want you to know
I will never let go
The ache would be my death
My heart is yours by design
And I will be yours
Until the end of time
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 3:38 PM UTC
The way that we wake
A warmth like no other
Disquieting the silence
The voice of my lover
He speaks in soft whispers
Low moans in my ear
Bestowing the sweet words
I so long to hear
"Open your legs"
As he teases and moves
And touches my wetness
That serves only as proof
"Come for me, Kitten"
His *** rising to meet mine
Such penetrating heat
As we ignore the time
Soft, slow and deep
And he melts into me
Morning washes over us
And we fall back to sleep
Jun 24, 2015
Jun 24, 2015 at 3:36 PM UTC