#29years
Turned 29 yesterday,
Celebrating on my own
For the very first time
I made arrangements
for myself
With balloons, songs
and a yummy cake!
And with all these,
I realized,
I can love myself too!
Despite the
love-hate relationship
with my own self,
I owe my body and soul!
They have been through a lot
From the self harm
in every possible way
To the
low phases
and pitfalls.
And I feel grateful
that I am still alive
With so much more of wisdom
Through the journey of life
Every changing as a whole
From happiness,
joyfulness, escasty,
And love -
To the
trauma's, loss,
heartbreaks, failures
Loneliness and depression!
I am now learning
to be on my own
From distraction and noises
all around
To shifting focus to oneself!
And with all of these,
Now Murphy's law
makes much more sense!
And now
With a the shifts of focus
I know that somehow
I can contribute
to this vast world too!
Jul 16, 2019
Jul 16, 2019 at 4:59 AM UTC
~Christi Michaels~January 2015~
painful to sleep next to your beloved
unaware that you are there
restless do I slumber
so close to one
seems not to care
wide space exists between
years stiched together loosely now
memories the only treasure
I dare hold close and how...
time once filled with wonder
precious lives did we create
joy and sadness
in all that we have made
vows binding and forever
sacred words embewed with trust
committments from so long ago
amidst powerful love n' lust
holding space together
believing in return
of all that was held sacred
legacy rightly earned
Oh, my heart it wanders through
our years of time and space
how I miss your flush of smile...
loving gaze upon my face
Copyright © 2015 Christi Michaels.
All Rights Reserved.
Jan 23, 2015
Jan 23, 2015 at 4:04 PM UTC