#2021
When the flashes fades,
And the barraging noise stops
Cometh the sunrise.
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 2:02 AM UTC
I was never one to take
hot showers, but now
the waters scalding.
Hope to numb the pain —
to burn the scent, scar the skin.
The water keeps getting hotter
and hotter,
my bones are growing colder
and colder.
Jul 11, 2025
Jul 11, 2025 at 2:03 AM UTC
I’m not a writer,
so I’ll give it to you straight—
without fancy words
or the metaphors I hate.
I’m a nobody
that’s never been a somebody,
that will never amount to anything—
and I’m just like you.
Admit it, it stings.
It’s not Go-thee,
it’s Goethe, I swear—
I’ve read every page,
just never learned where
the right sounds live
in a mouth like mine.
But make no mistake I’m not far behind.
And it might make you sad,
but it’s the sad truth.
When will you see
I didn’t waste my mind or my youth?
Time is a tightly closing fist
that has us all by the throats,
and we won’t escape the clock—
so hold me close.
I think and I dream,
and then I plant those thoughts
like deep-rooted flowers
in hand-painted pots.
I’ll never win a Pulitzer
or get an honorable mention,
but that doesn’t mean
I don’t live my life with intention.
And it might make you sad,
but it’s the sad truth.
When will you see
I didn’t waste my mind or my youth?
Time is a tightly closing fist
that has us all by the throats,
and we won’t escape the clock—
so hold me close.
Apr 11, 2025
Apr 11, 2025 at 4:05 PM UTC
I want to vanish like a bobby pin,
dissipate into the smoke that fills your lungs,
hide between the words of every lie you’ve ever told,
in the crevices of this fractured foundation.
I just want to disappear for a little while.
Oct 8, 2024
Oct 8, 2024 at 9:06 PM UTC
Atop the ladder twenty-twenty,
I was enjoying the view.
Care Home visits a plenty,
Faces old and new.
Singing songs to raise a smile,
And vacant minds re-awoken,
Music to boost morale,
Mending souls once broken.
Frail voices murmured approval,
For favourite singers of their day.
“That was lovely! - Just wonderful!
Have a tea! - Please stay!”
Then, we talked all afternoon,
For little did we know,
What was around the corner,
The invisible foe.
And just like that, we were separated.
Back down the ladder I’d go.
Down there at the bottom,
The flowers would not grow.
The rays that kissed my cheek,
Were hidden from my gaze,
A tortured isolation,
As we entered a new phase.
Yet in your darkest hour,
I wished to shine a light,
So I worked to find new ways,
Tirelessly through the night.
Springtime and summer,
Brought with it a new hope:
Outdoor shows, joy and laughter,
(Needed to help us cope.)
My feet were on the ladder,
And life was on the up,
But slipping on the rain,
I fell back in the muck.
Atop the ladder twenty-twenty,
Now that seems long ago,
Through all the loss and tears,
I did the only thing I know.
Which was to carry on,
With a stiff upper lip.
I’d see you all again,
Once I regained my grip.
Twenty-twenty one flew by,
Just like the year before.
With notes of heartfelt lyrics,
Hidden in my drawer.
What awaits atop the ladder
For twenty-two, who knows?
But I’ll never forget,
When I helped them through their woes.
Feb 5, 2022
Feb 5, 2022 at 10:58 AM UTC
First footing towards
what could be bridge or precipice,
hard to tell in the usual mists
of another spin round the sun
The groundhog sting
has left us wary of what’s to come:
with an alphabet begun
how many masks need to be worn
before omega calls?
But the sun is shining
and it’s abnormally warm,
so that’s good,
isn’t it?
Dec 31, 2021
Dec 31, 2021 at 7:26 AM UTC
Well.,
It's another
mundane assignment
as I feel I'm being trapped
In
In the Asylum
Cause everyday, I feel I'm on an
I -- land
and I'm drift'n
With nothing but consciousness
on my mind
Seeing many visions now
many a times
A thousand times?
Yeah, the feeling is
Time -- less
But then again?
I thought it was just another case
of my mind just being mind -
less
( Smh )
How thoughtless
As I feel I'm getting reacquainted with
the darkness
that's trapped under my Eye -
lids
For all I've ever seen under the skies is
in disguises and nothing but vio -
lence
While still sitting still in the stillness inside
as I sigh
in si -- lence
I'm left with the question of
Who am I?
Undecided but
No Suicide
Cause on the other side of you and I
is nothing but illness and a stag -
Nation
that's..
Still divided and
too stationary
Vision blurry.. in a hurry
But..
No worries
Cause I'm already invested
Battle tested
Here
In my latter - Days
And even though I can't see that
clearly the paths or the plans laid
before me
My plate is empty and my stomach is
rumbling while feeling kinda hungry
which is kinda annoying
But at the same time?
Re- a-ssuring
As the tempters continue to
Tempt me
Dec 10, 2021
Dec 10, 2021 at 3:46 AM UTC
short thread long line very hard to tie tiny knot
being sentient, breathing, waraware, give begiven
for of by you,
UR us Toyz, told as legendary trips, and bags, and scenes.
Testify if I kept my head when all-just-if-ity if one little bit
that'd been me, see, lost theirs, at the crossed roads,
any legend needs a choice, freedom, for free, or
duty due on demand, wanna
bet better off dead, or alone, tossed in historical
legends far vetted,
oft from the deepest pits questional able ibility
I'll go rythms's interpretation as how
to make up interesting times to be experienced
in phrases.
Bubble-wise, by now, you know, all bubbles pop.
At the top.
Free at last, past all ever wasery ifery weifery weight
height, arching
angels, Golden Archesmcdondald boyett,
linking bio-six-pointer, aim, related to you
by the legendary kevin bacon matter of fact
AI knows, I know, we all know, this is that a
we state, as we read, awe, full
we o bey ance dam dam da, dam did we ever
imagine freedom of the press,
blowing bubbles in the milch of humes kindness,
kissed with a wish as well as a wonder ifery why
not?
Dec 5, 2021
Dec 5, 2021 at 5:09 PM UTC
This year is passing so fast!
Why time is flying?
Will the span
of the earth's life
terminate
soon?
This is November!
Can you believe it?!
This year has been
dull and devoid of variety
Nov 20, 2021
Nov 20, 2021 at 9:24 AM UTC
ring ring (A Facetime call)
Mom: “Hey *** what’s up?”
Me: “Well, let’s see..
“We have an armed law enforcement that’s scared of the civilians they police.
One political party so corrupt it’s no longer interested in serving the people.
Half the population ignores the one real power mankind has - science.
Hackers shutting down pipelines, schools, hospitals and companies.
News networks that are allowed to just make up lies as “news”.
Half the population that’s determined to be uninformed.
Social media is destroying the minds of our children.
A political party that encourages its followers to die.
A world that’s quickly poisoning itself to extinction.
Religions that endorse obvious liars and guns.
An economy that depends on our self doubt.
Foreign enemies manipulating our elections.
A supply system on the verge of collapse.
A party encouraging resurgent racism.
A badly neglected infrastructure.
Inflation starting to heat up.
A near endless pandemic.
And a **** culture.”
Mom: after a moment of silence
“Have you been reading the news again? You KNOW you tend to obsess.”
Oct 28, 2021
Oct 28, 2021 at 9:10 PM UTC
COVID19- n 2021 when quarantine forced you to be one with/in your entire self. I started to honor the love that was best and to hell with the rest. This was very much my Journey toward completing my second book. Searching within for my earnest truth that in PAIN, with life I’d rejoice with you my gift of pain volume two.
Sep 17, 2021
Sep 17, 2021 at 4:45 AM UTC
I wanted you
To love
To care for
To show you
How it felt.
I wanted to feel it with you.
And as I stare at everyone else,
I remember you.
Spent too much time figuring out
What I did wrong,
I forgot to move on.
Sep 13, 2021
Sep 13, 2021 at 9:44 PM UTC
The waves of these oceans
Crash upon my drowning body.
Seeing patterns in the sun,
Slowly slipping from the reality
I've been placed in.
As water fills my lungs, I dig for open land
But water fills my open hands,
And I know what to expect.
Let's dissect this thought process.
I understand now that my slowly slipping mind will leave me drowning in the fear
Of peers fearing for me.
I'll begin to Forget things they said,
And things I love as this insanity consumes me.
Aug 26, 2021
Aug 26, 2021 at 10:44 PM UTC
After the day is over
And the thrush begins lullabies.
I need to escape from this tiredness
By going into sweet delight.
Softly like heaven's fleece
Those eyelids close in thought.
I'm in a state so easily forgettable
Yet one that I like the most.
Aug 6, 2021
Aug 6, 2021 at 9:43 AM UTC
he spends money like its an ocean tide
as soon as it's gone more takes its places
he knows that it won't stop coming
i save money like rain in a desrt
it comes rarely and when it does its small
im grateful for my rain but sometimes i look at his ocean
and compared to him the water in my cupped hands seem so small
Jul 26, 2021
Jul 26, 2021 at 12:59 PM UTC
it's so late out there
when I am sitting on the roof
sky cries over my head
and this rain makes me feel like a fool.
I wish that you were real
we'd run all night long
and this tear of sky
would be happy tears of seeing us together.
but you live in my dreams
this black rose that I still keep
was given in a moment
that felt so real even it was a trick.
It's a night out there
this night seems it lasts forever
where are you, where?
when I am looking for you
this moon is touching my tears
that came from my sadness
every day I get more fear
that changes in phobias and leaves me full of loneliness.
I will wait for you forever if I have to
I will hit this loneliness and all my fears
my dreams will come true one day
and this rain will be not sad but happy tears.
Jul 21, 2021
Jul 21, 2021 at 2:30 PM UTC
I wish my wishes were more possible or at least more tangible
my wish for happiness is impossible to fulfill
happiness doesn't come in bottles I can drink or pills I can swallow
it comes in waves and never stays long
my wish for people to change is also a difficult one
there is no one that you can change except yourself
I wish that they were realistic so instead when I fall I have something to reach for, a goal or a dream that could be accomplished, instead of grasping at air
Jul 19, 2021
Jul 19, 2021 at 12:14 AM UTC