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of every day of my life
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Feb 27
Feb 27, 2026 at 6:05 AM UTC
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Feb 6, 2024
Feb 6, 2024 at 11:40 PM UTC
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, in the middle the summer:]
one day
the twentieth of June knows no shame
comes back every year to call your name
breathes winds repressed in lungs forever
spits storms and yes in the middle the summer
seasons gloom
ashes are doomed
tears are pooled
in silence to float me the fool
dreams to a mercury's foot crumble
to awaken dark on a frowning stumble
a symphonious long
when hands twirl a touch
not you and me
in the song
ever alone crimed
that thing I called a one time
a sixth when parted lines
-------ravenfeels
Jun 22, 2021
Jun 22, 2021 at 11:41 AM UTC
_Withered and within
a dying breath
and yarns of endless ephemerae,
like thunder, like lightning,
igniting ages of delusion;_
__A fear.__
_Astral and adrift,
I bloom in adventures,
yet amble in ink of hundred hues,
like a bubble, like a feather,
lazing in prismatic pastels;_
__A vagabond.__
_Etched and enshrouded ,
a fiery trail of my footprints
I have yet to reach,
like a fantasy, like a nightmare,
calling, in dusk-soaked whispers;_
__A journey.__
A life ahead.
Oct 8, 2020
Oct 8, 2020 at 11:12 AM UTC
to those who not born an aristocrat,
what it means to be a human-being?
a terrible exhaustion - result of attrition
soulless slave - six days a week
is there any other alternative, though
I cannot outstare the bill faces
rent will due soon
endless presentations
pointless meetings
118,000 unread emails
week long business trips
"bare minimum to get by" prohibited
I have lunch delivered
snacks delivered
dinner delivered
I have all the food inside my office
and a beautiful apartment facing the sea
with the sun rays peeking in through the blinds each morning
but I'm just too busy
hopelessly hoarding pennies
hopefully saving enough joy for the future
they say your hardwork will come into frution
repeating cycles of entire career till retirement?
Jul 5, 2020
Jul 5, 2020 at 3:41 AM UTC
let me tell you what 20 feels like;
I don't know
just like 19
scared
and lost
only a year older
Jun 29, 2020
Jun 29, 2020 at 6:05 PM UTC
dear quinn,
you made it
to twenty
even though
you never thought
you would.
that's Something.
you're Something.
love,
quinn
Mar 23, 2020
Mar 23, 2020 at 2:26 PM UTC
1. FIND YOUR HAPPY PLACE.
2. COMPLIMENT SOMEONE EVERY DAY.
3. NO ONE CARES ABOUT HOW YOU LOOK
4. SWEAR ONLY WHEN YOU MEAN IT.
5. EAT ICE CREAM OFTEN.
6. SKIPPING CLASS IS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD.
7. IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO CHANGE.
8. READ A LOT OF BOOKS.
9. ALWAYS SAY THANK YOU.
10. TAKE MORE PICTURES.
11. TREAT YOURSELF.
12. DON'T LIVE IN THE PAST.
13. MENTAL HEALTH DAYS ARE ALWAYS ACCEPTABLE.
14. SPEND TIME WITH YOUR FAMILY.
15. HANDWRITE YOUR NOTES.
16. DON'T FEAR FAILURES.
17. DON'T RUSH.
18. QUALITY NOT QUANTITY.
19 MAGIS.
20. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. YOU ARE SMART.
Mar 23, 2020
Mar 23, 2020 at 10:34 AM UTC
I'm happily wandering into a new reflection,
The conception that I might feel succession.
Temptations will come, and potentially regression,
but it'll never sting like my previous impression.
As blunt as a bat, as hollow as a vase,
As cold as the dark, as complex as a face,
It comes and it goes, sometimes it reappears,
The dance in my mind, the past, memories trailed with tears.
A leveling adventure, a hike through the jungle,
It's captivating, for sure, all is falling through a funnel,
Grip out at the light, seizing every opportunity,
I may fall, I might, but if I get back up...
This reflection can be revolutionary.
Aug 27, 2019
Aug 27, 2019 at 2:27 PM UTC
I had no idea at the age of 17 where we would be 3 years from now.
Not once did I think I would find someone so young who would love me for 3 years and not leave me.
And I know I'm lucky.
Lucky to not be dropped after high school,
Lucky to not have be left for someone from your university,
Lucky to not have been cheated on on a night out.
Because thats not always the case for people in love.
I'm 20 now, and not only am I lucky enough to find my one person for life,
But I'm lucky enough to call them my best friend.
Jun 11, 2019
Jun 11, 2019 at 11:16 PM UTC
Im now 20,
and sympathize those in the same age category as me
----
The painful
insanely, mechanical yet dizzying push to be
--something --
titles, names, high status nothingness
Yet, we search
every corner we turn to
say
Is this it?
Security, Purpose, a treasure trove of possibility
find me - you - me - you see?
Did you land here on my lap, perfectly?
Today this is it
But, then Tomorrow blows up
Like an a unpredictable field mine.
In my precious heart, that thought it knew
it was right, right?
And this pressure crushes me
And somedays I feel so lonely
Yet, this insane pressure
To be this mold
And hold this space to be a list
And the uncertainty
Unfamiliarity
It literally crushes me
In it's silence, yet ferocious noise that pounds in my skull
The wild voice,
It drives us insane,
And drains me with this internal pain
That 'I will never be enough'
That....
--money, not enough
-- my schooling, not enough
-- my experience, not enough
-- my materials, not enough
-- my social circle, not enough
And this pain of enoughness is stuffing me with fear
So I try to turn every direction
Scattered, and seared with this
Deep insanity to grab it all
Yet, we sometimes fill ourselves with doubt
that pushes us to a dangerous, unforgiving - edgde
Yet, after being broken down by the day
vulnerablity blossoms
Honestly, I say - where do I go?
Now?
I search, plea, beg..
I grip tightly,
asking - pleading for guidance
Apr 2, 2019
Apr 2, 2019 at 9:43 PM UTC
Look.
Can you see it? The blood.
The blood.
The blood.
dripping through
the white
halls
drip
drip
drip
drip
DRIP
drip
DRIP
D
R
I
P
.
I'm running through the bleeding ****** blood.
running
running
running
Can I leave?
I don't want to get in the way.
the way of you.
living your lifetime
you don't need me.
you don't need me to keep living your lifetime.
so
just
leave
me
alone.
And live your lifetime.
I'm at the end of my **** lifeline.
Yeah.
Mar 29, 2019
Mar 29, 2019 at 12:56 PM UTC
I'm done.
I'm done with lying friends, I'm tired of making amends.
I'm done with every wrong choice, I choose just to have some kind of voice.
I'm done with due dates and roommates and "too late"s and all the useless new hate.
I'm leaving, I'm never coming back.
to a world were, fake smiles are nothing but a useless attack.
so goodbye,
farewell,
I hope things are better in hell.
Mar 26, 2019
Mar 26, 2019 at 11:03 AM UTC
Hello there.
Same sentence,
Different voice.
But I want to hear yours.
I dreamed about you last night.
Not really a surprise.
Just desire.
What?
Apr 2, 2019
Apr 2, 2019 at 1:11 AM UTC
I’m 20 with a bachelor’s degree
My dad’s the proudest of me
My sisters are smiling from ear to ear
Finished first, but why wasn’t I happy?
I’m 21 and I passed the exam
It was ruthless, getting to where I am
I was alone in the water but I still swam
Got all the awards and accolades, but ****
I’m 22, no work, no dream
All those times I was rowing on the wrong stream
Forgot who I was and where I’ve been
Now I’m lost and they all think I’m mean
Friends and family said I’ve changed
They said I’d turned emptier and strange
But they don’t understand, I’m not deranged
For a long time, from myself I was just estranged
I’m 23 and still trying to find myself
Lost some people and honestly, I’m okay
Still no job but I know I’m on the right way
I’m finally doing what I love and I don’t care what they say
Jan 16, 2019
Jan 16, 2019 at 7:45 AM UTC
twenty is looming over me as a shadow does the field
i feel its chill on the tips of my
hairs
my brain keeps thinking
aheadfuturetomorrowwherewillibein5years?
and my heart keeps telling it to calm down.
f ocus on t o da y.
my brain won’t let go so my heart
speedsupandupandup
with all the thoughts occurring at once.
i can’t keep up.
Jan 2, 2019
Jan 2, 2019 at 10:32 AM UTC
It's been 10 days now
since I turned 20.
There are 3640 days
till I'm 30.
The truth is I
could die before then.
What an honour to live out
2 lots of 10.
However many days
I have on this ball,
I'm excited to make
the most of them all.
Aug 29, 2018
Aug 29, 2018 at 9:11 PM UTC
Cuteness wasn't this adorable,
"Buy1 get 1free"
Never one to let bargains growl at me..
I brought the pack!!
"Smitten"
Aug 10, 2018
Aug 10, 2018 at 6:17 PM UTC
in today´s virtual worlds we take our avatars
to meet with others of their kind
in that cute coffee shop in neverland
hoping that one of many current superheroes
shows up for a quick drink before another dangerous task
like fighting dragons threatening fair damsels
killing the blinded one-eyed giant
defeating hordes of wild insurgents
saving our planet from superior but evil aliens
old fairy tales and myths
it seems
have donned contemporary virtual garbs
changed names and weapons
to happily exude their fascination
on yet another generation
hungry for adventures
that take them far away
from their quotidian battles for survival
Apr 26, 2018
Apr 26, 2018 at 5:05 PM UTC
Your eyes
Full of sadness
Mirrors the cruel world
How can it still be so beautiful?
Your hands
Full of scars
Reminder of struggles and pain
How can it still be so soothing?
Isn't it unfair?
How can you be so you?
How do you do it?
How can it be?
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 8:24 PM UTC