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The new freestyle "Ivan Is Awesome" is out name on my YouTube!!!!
They heard the name before they heard the sound,
“IVAN IS AWESOME” shaking underground.
No filter, no safety, no soft disguise,
just raw-ass truth in every bar it rides.
Built from nothing, dirt in the veins,
laughing through pressure, ignoring the pain.
City lights flicker when the bassline hits,
whole world watching but they still don’t get it.
This ain’t polished, this ain’t tame,
it’s late-night chaos with a burning flame.
Brotherhood loud in every line,
BTLB carved in every sign.
So press play if you really wanna feel,
something too real to ever conceal—
but warning stays in the echo it sends:
this track is explicit… no pretending it bends. 💥
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May 19
May 19, 2026 at 4:17 PM UTC
hey!
you
there
in the dark
come into the light
i cannot see you
is that you
baring your teeth at me
or are you grinning
at my
unknowingness
that's it
don't be shy
it's just the glare
cascading off the reflection
of the wading pool
shining back
at you
at me
at us
together
in this
darkness
but
if we come into the light
we can dance
ripple the water
& change the tide
until it
no longer knows
where you begin
& i end
May 19
May 19, 2026 at 11:57 AM UTC
at my semi-annual check down,
(to wait a year in between,
is to invite invasive festering cicadas)
and he inquires,
how goes the writing?
sighing, replying,
“oh doc, trying real hard
to limit myself to a poem,
on a one-a day-regimen,
but it just ain’t happening”
sighing, replying,
de doc he say;
“I feel you, how I
wish I could see
but one patient a day;
investigate their every pore,
scan the body fulsome,
even tween their toes,
their follicles and nose,
and feel and sleep assuredly,
I’ve done my best for them!”
and spontaneous we reply
to each other:
“but it just can’t be done!”
he rights me twice a year,
I, thank him daily, even,
enscripting a write
just for him,
de minimus!
no fewer than
twice a day
~~~
7:30am
Tuesday
3-10-26
Mar 10
Mar 10, 2026 at 7:29 AM UTC
Black ink keeps moving across a white page,
concealing colors and stories within it.
Hidden between the lines,
I call his name a hundred times
in different forms.
I hope that one day he will recognize himself in it—
even if it feels like searching for sugar among salt,
like foam dissolving into the sea.
I write about him to remember,
for a moment—
or for forever.
Seasons change, filled with blooming flowers,
hoping to be welcomed by that smile.
For forever, not just for a while.
Can my gaze reach him?
Be present in every passing second,
the way he exists, subtly,
within all my forms—
there,
in the curve of a cheek
shaped into a smile.
Feb 4
Feb 4, 2026 at 8:53 PM UTC
Never, never thought!
A thought struck my mind, seated by the tree.
Under the moonlight, in the shower of the beams
A trip down memory lane, a familiar face laughed
Though in sadness he smiled, alone with his thought
Never to be seen in public.
I spoke with an uneasy voice, one I barely recognised
'D-Dad'?
Why are tears streaming down your cheeks?
As though he could hear me, he smiled and waved off!
The weight we carried, you’d understand someday!
Today, I sat by the old tree, under the moonlight,
I couldnt helped but smiled
I softly said, now I understand.
Jan 8
Jan 8, 2026 at 5:17 PM UTC
A subtle whisper in wind.
“Welcome back to reality”
A rare and longed for promise.
“Freedom, is that you?”
I asked as the wind swiftly
blew through my hair.
Trusting my intuition,
I proceeded to take it as an omen.
Oct 16, 2025
Oct 16, 2025 at 12:31 AM UTC
Airborne Muse #2: Once I wrote: (1)
if it cannot be said
in ten words, it cannot
(but now, older wiser, more intuitive)
I be~leave five is plentiful
and I'm still
working on
the three of:
thee and me
&
and one day,
I"ll get to maybe, and
reveal a bare skin
of brotherly love,
and speak of the
trinity of two;
but I'm open to your suggestions,
re that too:
note tho,
must be superior superlative than:
*above beyond
just merely
we two*
11/26/24
12:27pm
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7:07am
9/28/25
Sep 19, 2025
Sep 19, 2025 at 10:33 AM UTC
the rhythm of the title inspires
for I bathe, cherish my amorphous
anonymity here
here, I am just words and nothing but;
free of judgment bias, I am both white
of background and black of letters,
my ****** orientation is of no consequence,
only my written portrait portrays the pencil
sketch of my being
it is as if I can breathe the freshest air on the
planet, plain and pure, for the very first time,
it defines me, as I, it; we merge celebrating
being plain and being pure
together
Feb 1, 2025
Feb 1, 2025 at 6:46 AM UTC
Airborne Muse #2: Once I wrote: (1)
if it cannot be said
in ten words, it cannot
(but now, older wiser, more intuitive)
I believe five is plentiful
11/26/24
12:27pm
Nov 27, 2024
Nov 27, 2024 at 1:13 PM UTC
Gods right
Gods path
Gods plan
God ****
God an man
God said
Gods great
God the father
Gods son
God on earth
God the creation
Gods reconciliation
Gods confession
God be the witness
God the business
God willing
God knowing
Gods all
Gods king
Gods me
God be
God shows
Gods seen
God the righteous
God the almighty
God Z
Gods Creed
God commanding
Godly voice
Godly vision
Godly reasons
Pray to God
Dear Lord
Forgive my sins
God your word is bond
God i believe in you
God hear me grieve
God you make me send
The End AMEN
Jan 11, 2024
Jan 11, 2024 at 10:33 AM UTC
February 22nd 2022 (2/22/2022) falls on a Tuesday so we'll be able to call it 2's day and that's really the only thing keeping me going.
Feb 15, 2022
Feb 15, 2022 at 8:10 AM UTC
After gazing at my mother’s serene face,
I asked her about the secret of prayer.
She glanced up at me, and a look of sheer joy appeared on her face as she Began to answer.
“My dear son,
Prayer is the gateway to an assured heart.
It is the bridge to reaching deep into your soul, and the key to eternal Happiness.
You see son,
Prayer is the key of balance in this unsteady life.
It is a guaranteed hope no matter how low you are.
It is about giving of yourself without being asked.
It is the promise to bless one life at a time.
It is giving thanks for your blessings.
Every prayer is a renewed pledge to touch one soul at a time.
It is for the times you're contemplating the beauty that is nature, and all of it’s creations.
It is a beacon of kindness and compassion.
It is the priceless gift of sending good thoughts and wishes to those Around you;
The ability to bring happiness to another soul.
It is a warm greeting.
It is planting a tree of hope and inspiration deep in the hearts of lost souls.
It is shedding tears of remorse in the middle of the night when the moon is hidden deep behind the clouds.
Prayer is about living, practicing, and loudly singing life’s happy song.
It is about radiating with so much hope and having it reach those Around you.
Prayer is the instrument which you play daily in this life.”
Hussein Dekmak
Mar 12, 2017
Mar 12, 2017 at 1:56 PM UTC
My kingdom is where extraordinary ideas dwell and kindness blossoms.
It is where laughter blooms and poetry rules.
It is where the beauty of nature, minds, and souls unite,
And together they become one, like one song, one prayer!
It is where acts of blessings glow,
Faces radiate with wholehearted smiles,
Resounding cries of souls are heard,
Beautiful hearts are welcomed,
Dreams slumber on the sun’s lap,
And minds are always thinking about the next innovative idea!
My Kingdom is my refuge and my fortress when life gets tough!
It is my happy song and my eternal dream!
May 6, 2017
May 6, 2017 at 10:53 AM UTC
Take me away, back to my first love.
Take me far away to the promised land.
Take me away, across the seven seas, back to my home that I have left behind!
Take me away, to a place where my body feels no pain.
Take me to a place where I carry no number or name.
Take me to the land where I will feel free from my worries and chains!
Take me away, to a new magnitude of dreams.
Take me away, to a place where ideas radiate.
Take me away, to a place where soft hearts blossom!
Take me away, high in the sky above the clouds.
Take me away, make me a neighbor to the beautiful night stars.
Take me to a place where I can sip an eternal drink of bliss.
Take me away, to a place where I can hide from my shadow until I find my way,
Take me away, from myself, so I can find my lost soul
Take me away, I long to go far away!
Hussein Dekmak
Jul 23, 2017
Jul 23, 2017 at 12:40 PM UTC
Everyday, I write a new chapter of my life with my smiles, laughter, sorrows, and tears.
Hussein Dekmak
Jan 24, 2018
Jan 24, 2018 at 5:39 PM UTC
I closed my mouth:
And spoke to you in the language of the rain drops,
Whispered to you in the language of the flowers,
Chanted 'I love you' in the language of the melodious birds.
I closed my mouth:
And voiced my feelings to you in the language of the ocean's waves,
Delivered my message to you in the language of the gentle breeze,
Conveyed my feelings to you in the language of the twinkling stars.
I closed my mouth:
And spoke to you in the language of eye contact,
Expressed myself to you in the language of smiles,
Shouted to you in my sacred language of tears.
I closed my mouth:
And whispered to you in the language of the heart,
Recited to you all of nature's implicit language,
Spoke to you, softly, in God's silent language.
Hussein Dekmak
Aug 15, 2018
Aug 15, 2018 at 9:58 PM UTC
You experience love:
When you treat everything that you do in life, from
Carefully drafting your thoughts and sketching your
Rainbow dreams, to breathing and carrying out kind
Deeds, like sweet prayers you whisper to a beloved!
You feel love:
When all of the letters, all of the words
Become muted from hollow meaning and strange characters.
It is when your five senses become speechless
In the presence of the thousand tongues of your heart!
You become one with love:
When you run your business with your beloved, prepared for loss,
You let the scars of love dance inside your chest,
Protect the perfect pieces of your heart that are left,
Guard them with hope and wash them with your tears.
Hussein Dekmak
Jan 20, 2019
Jan 20, 2019 at 11:03 AM UTC
I hope you know, I cherish our fond memories together, preserving them in my heart.
All that I shared with you about my childhood dreams, my first love,
The songs I serenaded you with melodies celebrating nature,
Our endless nights together admiring the stars dancing around the full moon!
I remember how tall you stood. You were so strong,
Like Lebanon’s mountains, amidst our land’s ancient ruins.
Facing the Israeli occupation, you stood with so much pride.
I remember how we rejoiced with family and neighbors during the sweet liberation!
My Dad planted you with his hands, he nurtured you with his love and sweat.
He was so strong and now times have changed him:
He’s grown older, thinner, more fragile, his speech is slurred.
The eyes that once held thousands of untold stories are now dim!
You are part of God’s oath, Noah’s mission with the Ark.
You are a sacred plant, a symbol of love, life, peace, friendship,
And generations of culture passed down.
Your roots run so deep in my Dad’s heart and mind.
I implore you old friend, lighten up my Dad’s golden age with your kind heart,
Lend him support in taking more steps towards life,
Keep his spirit alive so he can continue singing the song of a new life, and
Give him the strength to swing on the porch, to admire you again for each new day and pristine sunrise.
Hussein Dekmak
Jul 10, 2019
Jul 10, 2019 at 6:07 AM UTC
Plant a tree,
Water a flower,
Preserve nature.
Have a purpose!
Feed a bird,
Cuddle a pet,
Be humane to animals.
Have a purpose!
Save a life,
Nurture an orphan,
Stand up with the oppressed.
Have a purpose!
Count your blessings,
Recite your prayers,
Contemplate the universe.
Have a purpose!
Nurture your mind with ideas,
Fill your heart with the wine of love,
Dress your soul with the garment of kindness.
Have a purpose!
Hussein Dekmak
Aug 9, 2019
Aug 9, 2019 at 10:27 AM UTC
Always Remember:
Hope comes after despair!
Cure after pain!
Smiles after tears!
Laughter after cries!
Health after sickness!
Love after hate!
Joy after sorrow!
Healing after forgiveness!
A newborn life after labor!
Eternal life after death!
Light after darkness!
Dawn after night!
Blue skies after storm!
Spring after winter!
Beautiful landscape after rain!
Hussein Dekmak
Sep 12, 2019
Sep 12, 2019 at 6:05 AM UTC
My favorite music is the tune that I hear playing off at the hospital, when a COVID 19 patient is off the ventilator!
This music is:
A song of a new dawn,
A journey to the future,
A melody of new life,
A symphony of hope, and
The rebirth of the universe!
Hussein Dekmak
Oct 8, 2020
Oct 8, 2020 at 9:12 PM UTC
Gazing at you this morning, your face was pale and your body appeared Fragile;
This brought tears to my heart!
Not long ago, you were full of energy, looking vibrant with life; so Beautiful!
Your smile was soft, your scent was delightful.
Without you,
Life won't be the same;
Fall will be long, winters will be cold and empty!
You are my beacon of peace, love, and inspiration!
I will miss you,
Yet, I will be waiting for you
At the corner of love and hope, to see you bloom once again with such life.
Enchanting me with the joy and beauty you bring.
The chance to admire you will be absolute bliss!
Hussein Dekmak
Oct 11, 2020
Oct 11, 2020 at 9:08 PM UTC
After gazing at my father’s serene face,
I asked him about soul searching.
He answered me with a warm smile,
My precious child,
You will find your soul in the simplest of things.
You will find your soul in giving charity to a homeless on the street Corner.
You can find your soul in the daily services that you render to people;
Services that you pour your heart into.
You can find your soul by losing yourself in doing things that you enjoy:
In being always surrounded by people whom you love,
By sharing a smile with a stranger,
By being the messenger of kindness,
In helping people overcome their pain.
You will find it in always doing your best to inspire and uplift people, and by planting the seeds of hope and happiness in their hearts.
You can find your soul in the tears you shed in the middle of night, asking God for forgiveness for your misfortune and mistakes.
You can find your soul in purging your heart from greed, arrogance, and hatred.
And instead, replacing them with love, generosity, and humility.
Hussein Dekmak
May 2, 2021
May 2, 2021 at 11:05 PM UTC