Here I am again
Another lost prayer from Solace
Hands folded, but trembling
Lips shaking and eyes closed

Muttering to myself
A list of regrets
At my bedside
Paying off my debts

The longer I speak
To that wall in front of me
The more I feel
My elbows sink into the sheets

And with each passing statement
The heavier my arms are
With the guilt of knowing
How I came so far

Fingers now intertwined
Gripping tightly at my skin
Biting my lips, trying not to scream
Blood dripping down, splashing on my knuckles

As the tears roll down my cheeks
And my hands collect my blood
My mind goes almost completely blank
My blood turns dark like mud

Arms now limp at my side
Face down in the sheets
My eyes snap shut
and my heart skips

I feel it against the bedside
The metronome of my chest
But sadly it won't last much longer
It's time for me to rest

Because in the world we've created
When your heart stops you haven't died
But when your faith is crumbling away
This hypocritical world turns

If you're not sitting in those pews
Every Sunday morning
I'm here to beckon a call
Maybe just a forewarning

I've witness firsthand
How people turn evil
The kindest preacher you'll ever meet
Has the sharpest knife

And as my heart finally stops
I feel a wave of solace
A light and gentle smile appears
This black void is flawless

...I LOVE YOU

the way you make me smile is the greatest
You are my sunny days amongst the greyest
You make me laugh like no other
I am the happiest when we're together

...I LOVE YOU NOT

You are a ****, ******* and a selfish guy
you say I don't change, at least I try
There are days I don't ever stop crying
My sanity slowly dying

...I LOVE YOU

My dear to other couples they cant  compare  
We live our lives without a care
They can only wish and dream to be like us
Power couple like Bonnie and Clyde  once was

...I LOVE YOU NOT

I am sick and tired of this ******* and fighting
you say you tell me the truth, I know you're lying
You love me one day an then you don't
leaves me wondering should I leave you alone

...I LOVE YOU

...I LOVE YOU NOT

...I LOVE YOU

...I LOVE YOU NOT

......

Conditioned into silence, out of fear of violence we shut our mouths to avoid the pain, the pain that won't and can't go away.
We are divided, our beliefs undecided, our true thoughts in hiding, we are like puppets miming.

It is strange. Life is strange.

To think that you are this person.
This amazing, gifted person.
That you are able to see the light through darkness.
That you are able to see stars when the clouds have wrecked their havoc upon this ground.

The belief that you are something more.
The belief that your pieces create more than just a pretty picture.

But in reality you're not.

Because all you ever were was sorry.

And it's still not good enough.

Left or right? Where will I go?
Up or down? Where will I be?
Living with a limited timeline,
When will I grow?

I've found myself lost,
Drifting around in a
Series of complex caverns,
Spinning from one dead end
To another inside the
Terrible length of tunnels
In which I've found myself.
This maze of which I can't escape,
I cannot decide which way to go
I do not know
Which way is out,
And how do I choose,
What way to cruise,
Left or right?
I cannot tell,
Wouldn't someone ring the bell?
Break this spell,
That keeps me dazed,
Unfazed inside my jail,
Which is my mind.
I'm trapped in a bind,
It is now time,
I've not gotten ready,
I'm not prepared,
My legs aren't steady,
My heart is scared.
Where do I want to go or be?
Here or there?

It was a very long time before I was with her awhile ago.
I missed her a lot like, I don't want to let her go.
But we separated and it's a thing.
Yet, I feel differently happy like undefined something.

She was just my best-friend for you to know.
But, I feel different for her and I don't know.
This feeling strange that I can't show.
I feel like she's something I don't wanna let go.

I couldn't make a move even make a sound about it.
I was too shy, too nervous to admit it.
This feeling never lost ever since so long.
Every-time I get in touched with her my heart beats so strong.

She's the one I've been waiting for.
She's the one I adore.
She's means a lot me.
She's the one I want to be forever with me.

Am I in love with my best-friend?

people like you drive me away
to a heaven and hell of a place
a burning feeling that I'm in heaven
yet sometimes I mistake that feelin'
just tell me what you think
of me and you
is that a possibility
we both are thinking I know I know
well I want to know that I really do
but what the way I'm thinking
is we need to talk
what's this turning into
I could just stop and let you decide
but there's this mighty wind inside
don't listen to society
"you take charge" they say
but when I do it folds everything in place
for a while
I don't see smiles from you
and I. was smiling while you were blue
I had no worries but when they came
I realized how I am such a shame