In my life, people see me and hear me but never understand me. For my mind is like the tide, Ever changing. One moment i may be a... a force of rage, roaring with contentious determination to override what has ben brought before me. invincible with nothing to hide. I am rushing, hurling toward my goals.
Suddenly out of the blue water, I unintentionally encounter my own self doubt. In that instant i am over come by unnerving shaking and stand in shock. In that in that moment my persistence changes into unnatural scattering.... Until it fades into into nothing at all. a void of unexplainable emptiness. panic! I force myself to speak, i must to force my thoughts back out! i scream in my head.
but it is gone before it has the chance to utter a whisper. What is left for the world to hear is a yelp.
I oftentimes realize my inability To speak outright about my personality I oftentimes don't know where to start Which leads to a brain **** Of catastrophic proportions And unable to contort my words into sentences I simply give up, the subject unfinished
Because of this tragic disability in my speech I feel that my way of expression is weak And the many things I want to say About anything in general comes back to stay In my mind, in my brain, in my train of thought And entails to derail from the tracks The entrails staining the grass
But when I get behind a keyboard My ideas become fluently versed Almost rehearsed And I search for a chat That'll cover a vat Of subjects at the bat The words flow from my brain Through my veins To my heart To my arms And out of my fingers and onto the screen Where, for once, I can clearly read What I wanted to say And smile with glee As I finally make My testimony