I'll never be selfish.
I'll never be helpless.
I'll never cry so hard that I feel breathless.
I'll never scream in my dreams,
I'll never be restless.
I'll never be hopeless.
I'll never lose focus.
Out of all of these things I said I'd never be, not one of these things you said I wouldn't be.
If I was everything you said I should be, then would you be proud of me?
If I pushed my shoulders back,
Spoke like this instead of "dat"...
Would you be proud of me?
If I spoke when only spoken to,
Live like you taught me to...
I've tried to be all you wanted me to.
I've tried to ease your pain,
Bear you with less shame.
I try to ease your pain;
The dark circles around your eyes,
The soft tears from hard cries.
But you don't care,
So I won't care,
Carry on a dry conversation,
Carry on a sad situation.
No violets are red, some roses are blue.
Falling in love isn't easy to do,
But I had/has/have fallen for you.
Tell me now, what you're going to do.
I'll give you a hint,
Three words that end in "too".
First things first, I'm so sorry for my lack of activity. I'm not apologetic about my lack of production but more about my lack of interaction with you (my fellow poets, my friends) during my "hiatus". Now that that's been said and done, I'll talk about this piece. Stop measuring yourself worth by other people's expecatations. You may never be worth it in their eyes but what matters most is how you feel about yourself, because only you know you're "cans" and "cannots". To fully enjoy and understand the fruits of what I just said you must also not be the inforcer, you know how it feels to be in that situation so why would you put someone through the exact same struggle. You never know what someone's going though, we are all multidimensional creatures. Give gratitude at every given chance. If you can acknowledge someone else's effort then yours will be soon acknowledged too. Whoever is reading this I want you to know that I sincerely appreciate you.