#sigh poems on Hello Poetry

bukowski May 2014

drinking

I could stay drunk for days,
I love the way I can't feel
my legs
or my head
and I can't see
what's in front of me;
I love how I can punch anything
and everything
and not feel it,
and I absolutely love
stumbling home
with ****** knuckles
and laughing at my own
stupidity;
I see inside of myself
when I'm drinking,
I see it all;
all the anger
and the pain,
we don't talk,
just look,
and that is enough,
to know that when I
inform people that there
is so much more to me
than what they see,
and they tell me I'm being
silly,
I know,
I know,
that you exist

#drunk #anger #pain #stupid #me #drinking #high #idek #stupidity #sigh

bukowski May 2014

nerves

I shake and I tremble
just trying to get my thoughts
in an order that works;
trying to get them
to assemble
in a way that makes
them easier
to understand;
left, right, centre,
nothing is fixed;

so,
the only thing left
is to
leave the thoughts,
make them go away
for a while;
drink,
****,
smoke,
thinking is painful,
numb the ******* pain
for a while

#pain #scared #thoughts #**** #smoke #drink #numb #nerves #restless #idek #anxious #sigh #shaking

Genevieve May 2014

The moon is still out

This morning I woke up
03:27am;
Outside it had been raining
The leaves on the trees were still wet
I was cold.
The window was open and
A gust of wind
Blows through into my bedroom,

I had had a restless night.

Kicked the covers
half on to the floor but,
My pillow
I held onto tightly;
Not under my head
But in my arms. 
I dreamt about you
again,
I can’t get you out of my head. 
My mind is so loud;
The voices shout and scream,
They never leave me alone;
Wanting my attention
Every waking moment
Grabbing me by the throat,
Stopping my breathing.
I cannot speak
Only a hoarse whisper
Proceeds,
their hold is too tight
To break free.

#sleep #waking #dreaming #nights #voices #early #long #sigh

Mrs Ashley Somebody May 2014

Doubts

Don't you miss it? A little?
when we didn't worry if it was right
and we could talk a lot
and it was if we'd never be apart
time kind of flew by, and we grew up
we wondered about things we used to know for sure
and all we used to know didn't make sense
I don't think we can get that back
We'll always wonder if any of our decisions were right in the end
if what drove us to those decisions was worth any of the difficulty

We'll always have our doubts.

#sorry #missyou #sigh #itwasworthitwhileitlasted #copyofachat #monologue

Daylight 4U2C May 2014

Death, The Reaper

The iron drips from my fingers.
The man gives out a yell.
The child launches, she launches at me.
Sadly her launch had failed.
I chuckled at her, with no pity.
Her frightened face, what a laugh.
The person she’s crying for isn't worth dying for.
After all,
he was a bad man.
It’s funny, so funny, funny the fact.
The fact, she thought if she grabbed my neck then,
maybe, just maybe, maybe I’d die.
I laughed again and finally, I gave out a sigh.
“Poor child,” I said my voice left unchanged.
“You misunderstood. I shouldn't be ashamed.
Your idol has done so many bad things,
now he’ll pay for his sins of adultery,
in a place which this blind man cannot see.
She fell to the ground befalling her tears.
This was the end of her happy years.
What? Did she think it was a fairy tale life?
Reality is sharp, just like a knife.
I laughed at the fact I took his life,
with just one swing of my most dull scythe.

#hell #man #dying #life #death #end #tears #die #sadly #misunderstood #happy #isnt #crying #in #be #funny #of #reality #bad #if #i #had #the #fairy #tale #has #sins #and #her #what #this #his #fingers #pity #you #thought #me #one #*** #think #my #no #blind #was #it #she #he #shes #maybe #its #for #poor #to #left #out #like #now #voice #is #laugh #face #years #person #fell #idol #worth #fact #done #all #so #just #reaper #did #child #at #failed #adultery #see #from #things #with #then #scythe #finally #ground #place #knife #again #neck #gives #many #took #ashamed #gave #your #sharp #said #yell #cannot #sigh #pay #which #id #after #shouldnt #iron #laughed #frightened #launch #swing #drips #launches #chuckled #grabbed #unchanged #befalling

bukowski May 2014

drunk

stumbling home
in the evening
with my breath
smelling of cheap beer
and cigarettes;
people worry,
I tell them not to;
I do this for me,
not for attention
or sympathy,
I do this to feel
more alive,
because I feel so
dead inside
and my thoughts
are racing;
drinking shuts them up
for a couple of hours
and I feel better;
I feel sick,
but I also feel
great,
like I can do anything;
like nothing can hurt me;
is this what death
tastes like?
god,
I hope so

#drunk #death #alive #angry #drinking #******* #sigh #****** #worrying

Mrs Ashley Somebody May 2014

Million

I look back on those things that we said;
When I told you, it was the truth:
I was willing to let you mess up a million times
I just wanted to be here to forgive you.

I wanted to make things work between us, and I probably would have dragged it out until we fought every day and were miserable.... I still doubt in my mind if we were right to just give up. Could we have fixed our big mistakes? =/ I was willing to. I'm sorry.

#imsorry #missyou #forgive #messup #sigh #million #explainingday #copyofachat

Mrs Ashley Somebody May 2014

This Room

There's something about this room
That I've decorated recently
I'm saddened by all walls blue
And reminded by curtains green.

#ugh #baddreams #sigh #movedyesterday #newhouse #newroom

yen Apr 2014

1:23am

but maybe
it is at times like this
  when you feel the most desolated
   and alone

you think of how it would be like
to be loved
  or to love
   someone you can call your own

not everyone is that lucky
to have that somebody
  they either have their thoughts
   or nobody

and it is at 1:23am when you feel most
lonely;
  desperately
   wishing for love

#love #sad #lonely #hate #alone #late #tired #midnight #sigh