My hands,
So thin and frail,
Shudder.

My mind,
So full of fury,
Shakes.

My heart,
So broken and lost,
Trembles.

Sharp claws,
Dripping with hate and anger,
Rip free from skin,
A whisper in the darkness.

Fanged teeth,
Promising pain and vengeance,
Spring free from gums,
A slither in the darkness.

Dark fur,
Roaring of a beast,
Grow free of pores,
A hiss in the darkness.

My hands clench,
My mind crumbles,
My heart thunders,
Because the darkness..is me.

At last,
After years of battling that shadow,
I have succumbed...
To that monster within.

Who am I
But the shadow
Of who I want to be
And the people
I've left
Behind.

I'll never walk in your footsteps.
                         because you walked

that path and it was personal to you.

I may shadow you, as I take wonderment
          in the delicate breath of each moment

you trod upon the soil.

Showing that for some, we will never tread
               upon others imprints.

But we will not look above, but always
                     below to see that some paths
are worth following,
      stepping side by side to others life.

Make a path anew, follow the footsteps
                of others you look down too.

But every path is unique, no path trodden
                   is ever the same in life.

Don’t leave the light on for me
I’ll be home late tonight
I need some time in shadow
A moment away from the light

I need to walk among the trees
Beneath the pinprick stars
I need to smell the quiet air
And watch the passing cars

Just please give me a minute
I swear that  I’ll be back
back to deafening brightness
returned from peaceful black

It's just,

My eyes are always sore
My head it always pounds
It's all so loud and busy
and I can’t drown out the sounds

I can’t hear myself thinking
and I cannot sleep at night
But at least it isn't dark in here
That’d be so awful right?

You’re all so scared of blackness
So afraid of what you’ll find
But I promise real fear comes
After light has left you blind

“Only evil dwells in shadow,” they say.
“Only roaches hate the light”
Then call me roach, and evil too
'Cause the world is much too bright.

these words
as
powerful as an enemy
as loving as
no woman
no woman
no woman
no woman
no explanation
no arms
no legs
no lips
no hands
no one
now just
one beer and a hit
is all i need
to forget about my
walls
to forget about my
blundering , blubbering past self
weak and desperate for
affection/attention
embarrassment shadow

She is the light with undefeated brightness
Where it’s warm and contains happiness
But I rather stay in the darkness
For it’s misguide to the path that wasn’t chosen

Tempting and I never want to avoid
The lights calling my name wants me to stay below it
But I rather be here shove my ears and close it
In the cold darkness let my blood be frozen

So I buried myself in the shadow
Where it’s just cold and hollow
Because if I follow
It will only ends with disappointment