for the first time i can see
how it was all about me
my needs, my wants, my fears, my insecurities
a constantly questioning mind
throwing up reasons why our love couldn't sustain
fear driven, faulty programming that couldn't trust
couldn't allow love to deepen and unfold
heart break and loss have cracked me
tears on top of tears have washed me clean
i now see through myself
how it was ego needs and wants
killing the love and possibility of the present moment
fear driven
instead of love driven
my manipulating grasping ego has been shattered
leaving love, no more fear, no more defenses

i love you
without a need to be with you
i love you

regardless of outcome
i love you