Fickle mindedness A moment here Another moment there Lands you nowhere Unable to decide What's black What's white What's to do What's not to do Where's to go Where's not to go Frustration fastening Emancipation a day dream Fickle mindedness Threatening An impulse in the mind Make arrow shot In the dark Not bother The consequences Cis-river, trans-river Another impulse In the mind Don't decide For the time In not deciding You decide A decision Alright Better than Arrow shot In the dark Fickle mindedness Lands you nowhere This far nor that far Take deep breath In and out Make resolute mind Dispel fickle mindedness Decide with confidence Landing this far Or that far In best interest As you are If on the horns Of a dilemma Or a multi-lemma Be content to decide Fickle mindedness You avoid
Sleeping on the top bunk I got really good at crying without making a sound. Strong and resolute, is what I aspired and pretended to be. I never learned to fight, let alone to fight fair. There is no room for contention between myself and I, or anyone for that matter. Now I seem to be left defenseless, but can't tell the difference between safety, security and when I need to be defended. Everything is easy, everything is lovely. Sleep instead of thinking, like my mother before.