Today
I hang
I hang myself
I hang myself onto
I hang myself onto the branches
of this old tree
just to go, to flee
of too much probability

Tonight
I shoot
I shoot myself
I shoot myself a picture
I shoot myself a picture of me
in front of my favorite old tree
so I can remember thee
so there can be another me
so in this picture I can also be

Yesterday
I killed
I killed myself
I killed myself in a picture
I killed myself in a picture that shows
another me
in memory
but if she's dead
who's sitting on this chair
a me in disguise
I think I killed myself twice
or how many times?

It was the likeness of her
replaced
with maps
forests
shine
cold sheets in summer
vanilla ice cream
sunlight on wooden floors
flight of fairies
childhood unearthed
a generous heart and lungs
a magic of my own.
When I finally dreamt
without her
it was
renewing.

I sit on a shore and await my lover.
He of the golden hair,
He of the ocean's eyes.
A clear and lucid blue.

I walked on the shore towards my lover.
She with the laughter of bells,
She of an angel's face.
A soft and smiling face.

I turned towards my lover,
And kissed him sweetly.
I took him by the hand,
And led him along the beach.

I walked with my lover,
'Til at last we could walk no more.
And then we sat,
Sat upon the shore's soft sand.

Upon the soft sand I whispered secrets into my lover's ear,
I told him secrets,
Gave him pledges.
How little I did know.

I listened to my lover,
And believed her every word.
I vowed to follow her,
Through hell and beyond.

I led my lover astray,
Planted doubts and evils within his mind.
I watched his soul decay,
Until I could watch no more.

My lover ruined me,
Until I could stand life no longer.
The one I had entrusted with everything,
Had betrayed me.

I watched my lover die.
And for him shed not a tear.
But for the memories,
For these I cried.

I awaited my lover in heaven,
Waited as long as I could bear.
And then upon her,
My back I did turn.

I missed my lover,
Unduly so.
I had encountered,
A shocking chasm within me.

I felt something shift in the cosmos,
I felt a change of heart,
A heart I knew so well.
I turned my head over my shoulder.

I walked toward my lover that day.
Many a year later.
I begged his forgiveness,
For him had I wronged.

I watched my lover walk towards me,
Watched as she outpoured her soul.
I experienced a moment of fleeting doubt,
This I quickly suppressed.

I told my lover of life on earth without him,
Expressed my feelings of sorrow.
I told him I regretted my actions,
And prayed for understanding.

I listened to my lover's words,
And knew she spoke the truth.
So I said the words that had always been true,
"Now and forever, I love you."