#problems poems on Hello Poetry

Skylar Keith Oct 2017

You speak
You yell
You slam

These are the things I remember

The times of fear
The trembling of my hands
The streams of tears

These are the things I remember

The times of hatred
The fire burning
Yet I hid it
In fear
You slam
Remember?
That's what I remember

Do you remember?
I don't believe you
The hugs you gave
That drove me insane
You said it was fine
You never asked me
You asked yourself
Is it okay?
Yes
That's not what I said

Tears
I hope I left a stain
I recall all that

The times when you raised the hand
I don't recall if I felt it
The time I stared at the number on the screen
Debating
I took to long
The door opened and you were there
I never made that call
That day is when my Fear burned bright
My instincts told me to run
I was frozen
Had I run
What would you have done?
Raised your voice or your hand
Or something else
I hope I'll never know

I want to know

Are my fears justified
I can only know if I break out of my silence
Silence that screams
Run
Leave
Forget

Forgetting is what I've done so far
Repress
Suppress
Forget the times
I forget the times that would lessen my fear
Do those times even exist
I don't know
I don't care

I have to break free
A cage I've built for protection
You used it against me
To keep me where you want me
Vulnerable

Silence is screaming
All the times
I curled up
Fear
Hurt
Pain
I don't want to feel that way
Yet here I am
Silent
Staying put in fear
I can't speak
Tongue tied
Screaming Inside
Caught up in my own words
That you will never hear

Shut up
I don't care
...
Silence

Continuation of Empty Memories

#family #problems #tears #fear #silence #screaming #pain #hurt #vulnerable #repress

Skylar Keith Oct 2017

Empty Memories

Years of Lost Memory
You tell me stories
I can't recall
You laugh at moments
That I don't remember
I don't think I want to either
I see no value in you
Your words
Your stories

I don't care

I nod and smile
I'm not listening
I look right through you
Imagining times of other people
I don't think of you
You smile at me
I'm smiling as I remember a joke
It wasn't yours

Empty Memories
You ask if I remember
I laugh and say that I do
I don't
I laugh at how easily you fall for what I say
Your eyes try to find mine
Connections
I don't see you
I see the times that I do remember

Times I wished didn't exist

I look in the mirror
Asking myself how much I am like you
Hoping that I am me and not parts of you
Yet I know
You run through my veins
No matter how much I do against it
Doesn't mean I like it

I've told you
I don't see you as what blood and papers may say

#family #problems #denial #renouncing #memories #silence

Lara Oct 2017

smile

When the ocean waves are flooding the shore

When the stars and the moon collide

My love, you still would be adored

I'll always be by your side

when the sky is falling down

When it haunts you at night

I'll be there till dawn

Together we can win the fight

I'll wipe your tears

swipe away your fears

And

Smile

'cause you and me

are made from irony.

l.t.

#smile #love #problems #trust #together #relationship

Jazeera Oct 2017

That One Brave Girl

She said don't
But he didn't mind
He walked right at her
With a devil's intention.

She wanted to scream
And call her parents.
But he threatened her.
Her silent tears shed.

By each step he took
Her heart beat rapidly
As if she ran a thousand miles
To get away from here
She just closed her eyes
And took the torture.

She always wore a mask then
A happy one for the world.

She never uttered a word to anyone
Until now,
She opened herself to me
I was shocked
Couldn't do anything to fight
Just the prayers
To keep her strong.

I've seen several brave girls
But none of them replaced her.

Keep fighting, my friend.

Girls are not toys. Society needs to respect every girls.

#girls #problems #bravery #respect #threats #strong

Harin Oct 2017

Your face

I told you I didn't like your present
Your face harden
On your face I sort of get a hint of a resent
And then it all started

Took your present, my face still dull
You looked sad?
Closed your present that was wrapped in many skulls
Maybe you were mad?

Later I explained
I didn't hate your gift, I just didnt like the fact
You knew I couldn't be surprised, and you were hoping for me to act
As if you pulled a blanket from the emotions I had stacked
Maybe by now you were enraged

I have faced many of these situations
And every single one of them
Because of this silly condition
My emotions are like a stem

Missing it's beautiful and colourful flower petals
Lacking emotions is the only thing I am entitled

When I can't read what you show, and for that I apologize

#relationship #problems #alexithymia #harin

Lady Grey Sep 2017

Just Your Fixer Upper Friend

I wish i hadn’t thought about you
      Quite so much
             The way you listened
           And made me feel important
    And talked to me
For all the wrong reasons

When you lost interest
     In me
              For being me
Not the shell of who i used to be
    I was crushed
          And angry
              With you
              And myself
              And her

I felt i had to hurt
    For you to talk to me
               To look at me
               To be my friend
The way you used to be
         When i was broken and hurting inside

A paragraph of thought would invoke a single worded reply
                 Or two
       Because you was always busy
Busy with your school
Busy with your girlfriend
      And had no time for me,
                                    Your fixer upper friend

And when you left
        And stopped caring
                Lost interest,
                         I suppose

I was devastated
        That my anchor had left me
To be with more sunny skies
                     Rather than these howling bitter winds

So i wish i hadn’t thought about you
          Quite so much
                     The way you listened
                And made me feel important
         And talked to me
For all the wrong reasons
            After you left

I just wish i hadn’t wasted precious moments of my life
                                           Over you

#friend #lonely #abandoned #problems #depression

Lady Grey Sep 2017

White Noise

My head is filled with noise and thoughts
I’m just a daydreamer
and i just cant seem to concentrate
On anything at all

What’d he say?
Im trying to pay attention,
I really am
But its hard for me

I dont know why
I cant get around the white noise in my head
I get lost in translation so easily
I just zone out

Until they ask if im alright (of course i am)
Im just lost in space
Staring at the lovely images behind my eyes
And listening to the music in my mind

My head’s in the clouds
And i cant get down from here
For some reason
Everyone else seems fine

But when he asks
“Any questions?”
Im left wondering
What the **** he was even talking about

#school #problems #addprobably #daydreaming

50RR0W Sep 2017

Friend

Hello my good friend, Darkness!
How have you been?
Me? Oh I've just been a mess.
Going back there time and time again.

Where you ask?
Oh I'm glad you did!
Its the bottom of a flask!
I know I know, God forbid.

I come here from time to time.
Just trying to find somewhere to put my mind.
It beats the pain and agony that puts me in a bind.
But its a better than being left behind.

Now I drink to forget the old!
To make way to new and better!
No this does not make me cold.
But it also does not put me off kilter.

Oh no, is it time for you to go?!
I'm sorry that you couldn't stay long.
Now don't be a stranger, you can always come say hello!
Because you'll always be there if something goes wrong.

I have been drinking a lot more lately. Mostly to help me sleep due to anxiety driven insomnia. Just a beer or two before bed mostly but a few weeks ago I was going to the bar after work four, sometimes five times a week. Spending money I didn't have or having my coworkers buy me drinks. I know I must not become reliant on it but right now its the only thing that is working. Hopefully it'll change.

#drinking #darkness #friends #anxiety #sorrow #loneliness #depression #problems #alcohol #abuse

Nica Monet Sep 2017

internal confliction

Wish i could find the words without saying another bad word
to explain all the voices that my soul and brain have heard
some are a lie that caused me to cry
dealing with my problems, oh i sigh.
Built my walls too high, for no one can enter
that even i can’t reach in and fly in my main center
dealing with my demons, either if i am awake or dreamin’
i shouldn’t have believe them for they were very deceivin’
people think i’m flying through my life without feeling dying
they were all wrong for i have been trying

i see mirror here, mirror there, which one can i look at and stare
they’ve been my enemy lately, that i can’t love myself completely
i look at her, and it’s such a blur
i know it’s just a reflection but my mind sees all imperfection. compliments of perfection doesn’t help me find my direction.

in my eyes i see my true complexion
but i choose to believe my beauty is base on perception.
i still have to learn that i am worth
every living cell on this earth
that outside appearance doesn’t matter
but what’s inside is so much better.

nov. 29, 2016; something i wrote last year:) and i would like to share

#selfrealization #society #problems #appearance #beauty #battle #internal #selflove #deceiving #demons