when i look into your eyes, i can see the big bang. i can see stars being born and the world’s first sounds fill my ears supernovas reflect from your eyes and black holes pull me into your arms there is no escape from my feelings for you
the last i heard of you you weren’t even trying to get sober. last you heard of me i’m in college now pursuing my career. i still contemplate your empty promises, but now i scoff. how could i have been so blind? you’ll never change for me and you’ll never change even for yourself. as your body breaks mine grows a new form - one that no longer requires you. i used to cry, thinking i missed out on true love and now i lay in the arms of someone who loves me more while you lay in a box. i’ve broken out and you’ve been nailed in
she looks in the mirror and she disgusts herself she digs her own grave and she puts herself out she puts up a story and paints her own mask she sits and wonders how she got so off track she was on her way all the way to the top now she can’t do anything but beg herself to stop she sits all alone in a room she painted black she cried for independence but she’s always brought back she can’t be on her own and she can’t be by herself she sits on her knees and contemplates hell we all make our own and she creates the worst because she sits on her own and pushes it down her own throat
i keep seeing hawks or maybe it’s really you swooping down to tell me what’s new maybe they’re buzzards and they can tell how i feel lost without you, a useless spinning wheel maybe they’re birds but maybe they’re planes and i’m looking for meaning in nothing in this digital age
i know you were so happy to feel my bare insides i hope it brought you closer but i was like the tide i never felt connected i cried because it hurt but you teared up because you felt just like your heart would burst i wish i felt the way you did but sometimes i’m glad i don’t because we made love like the moon and the sun on totally opposite poles
i never saw you shed a single salty tear. id weep at the thought of loss but even as it threatened you were stone. i hope that you are crying so i know that it was real the only thing i want to see is see you ******* feel.
why are you so sad, my love, i’m always here for you whether it’s dogs that seethe or babies that teeth i’m right here next to you. i’ve walked through a forest in the middle of the night because i was going to fight your fright. but you got scared, you ran away. there was nothing i could say. you left long ago, a husk left with me, i was left among the trees.