Afiqah 2h

I remember coming
into a deep contemplation one night
after a hard, drainy day of work
we sat along the bank of clouds    
pulling our skin to one another’s heat,
and I recall asking,
“Do you think the stars will adore us?”

you said,
“The stars will,
for they love the lovers,
the deranged, the misfits, the fighters,”


“And which of them all you think is us?”

subsequently,
the night softly stirred, sinking us in
and we found the click
as soon as our lips settle

-a.

Afiqah 2d

it wasn’t until that very night,
my wounds and scars finally learned
how to sit in comfort,
pressed against your skin
like dry, cold petals
and just watching the chaosity
from the melancholic stars,
passing through the dead of night
to such euphonious melody
has swept our hearts completely
to settle for more of nights like this

-a.

Afiqah 2d

we picked out certain ill truths
that we could never speak enough of
we looked for better ways
to undo what we are not
we sort of became
the sick, godawful version of ourselves amidst
all other demons that,
more often than not
the same trigger they try to pull from us
made our waking constantly seems
a little dead

-a.

Afiqah 3d

sometime or other,
all these young savages
will soon be told
to choose their war buddies very wisely
either their head or their heart,
we’ll never know
till the harshest truth sets in
the gut, the mind,
will be triggered then,
shaking one’s soul into oblivion
on who’ll set the other on fire headfirst

-a.

Afiqah 4d

they say,
“you were put on this planet to feel
every feeling you could”,

so please stay,
the past has probably taken
the finest or bitter part of your becoming
the present
could still be your next closet full of enemies,
triggering past your shadows
but the future, God,
even the future begs nobody
to question the look of heaven

so, inhale this gift, they call life
and strike those
who dare disturb your universe
with absolute nerves,
fully drawing all their weapons in
then create them into your favorite kind of warfare

-a.

Afiqah 6d

she could love and settle
with the damned despite the universe’s
depleting signs falling off,
clutching against her
and yet,
they may still not know
how such gravity could pull her under
between the wounded clouds
just to fall, to fade
and consciously sink with the
sullen-looking stars

-a.

Afiqah Aug 10

we live by
every other night later,
melting our worn out souls by the moon
where I always imagined
you,
humming along to Afire Love by Ed,
as I watched our fingers
slowly make its silent trails,
sighing for a touch from the other

and just by looking at how
we abandoned such triggers,
feeding our vessels to new beginnings,

we were centered right into a spotlight
in between the pool of stars
lusting after our desires

-a.

Afiqah Aug 8

I lose little bits of myself  
in every war
I stumbled upon
and it seems like
every becoming of me is anxiously
inviting more and more
of the unpleasant sight
I swore
that if I had to break much harder,
not a soul would want to try
and fucking breathe on my goddamned space

-a.

Afiqah Aug 8

I don't know
what life wants out of me
but I do know
that my demons are now quick
at setting new fires,
reconciling every bated breath
I've lost
to the wars that have yet
to come against me

-a.

Afiqah Aug 6

beginnings
has always tasted
sinfully sweet
look at how the angels rise and stutter
as we slowly learn to waltz through,
breathing in soft fires
into the darkest part of the night

every flawed piece of us
seems to collide
in all its wild, desirous ways

-a.

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