This feeling's paralyzing, I can barely get the words out. Please reach out to me, because I feel like my time's running out. I want to live in love and spread happiness, but I feel it slowly running out. I get into a place in my head where I feel so scared and vulnerable.
If it makes any sense, I'd wish I could be with you. At least then I wouldn't be alone, at least then I wouldn't have to feel this alone. I'm calling out, I'm calling out to you. If I have to go on like this, then I'll only grow in my doubts. I can't feel like I used to because I'm too different. I'm in such constant desperation, I can't even get the right words out to accurately describe myself and it's so frustrating. This feeling's paralyzing.
And this is what I told him: "Then you're just subjecting yourself to something that has little or no value. Rejection is nothing but a notion. A norm. Just a word. But we are afraid of it because we give it power. Power to scare us witless. We become fools. Afraid of our own illusions. Only we can break it. Break the illusion, break the fear, break the norm, break rejection."
I just want to help him realize that fear won't do you any good. It will just paralyze you and make you numb. I don't want that. I want him and other people to see beyond fear and look at something far more beautiful.
The sky bleeds into my hair Sunset leaks into my eyes In this moment I look changed He asked me to stay in this Moment with so many words Where my hair is more gold My eyes are caramel not black And my smile shines bright But I let the sun slip down past The horizon because I was Afraid so he left for his future While I stayed drowning in Our past now I don't want to let It slip away this time, *into the snow...
Your twentieth birthday is soon and I'm no longer your favorite one to lie to.