I see you in the halls, I cower behind the nearest door
When you walk by me i feel my heart withering
I begin to disappear into myself
When our eyes meet, you glare in hatred
Is there any remorse? Love? Regret?
I miss you
Is there any joy? Happiness? Laughter?
I remember it clearly: It was a warm Summer day. I lied to my parents and came to meet you at the market. We walked and talked for hours. We went to the playground. You broke my heart. You never knew, though. I never told you.
I remember it clearly: We sat underneath that tree and stared at the funny truck with cats. We layed there and talked about school and colleges and the life you want to live.. Then you left. I cried.
I remember it clearly: Whenever I tried to be with you, you walked away without a word. I asked if we could meet. We did. You were afraid, legs tucked into your body. Never making eye contact. Visibly shaking as you talked, and I listened. I listened. Then you left. I cried. I fell into a dark pit where nothing would ever feel the same again.
I meant it to be A beautiful moment Now punctuated By wet apostrophes. My possessive nature hangs on high Claiming accountability For the balance of these events. The credit of her salted raindrops Deposited in my heart’s ocean Is a debit of worry In our joint account of emotion.
But I know… The morning was still But my blood raced. I placed kisses On her window sills As she opens the gates of her face. To meet her gaze For accepted entrance To the garden of Eden. Though her rivers were flowing My ark was a rubber tree So we forced the dam open Which caused a flood of memories To rush her veins. She turned Eve recalling Adam’s selfish lust In my eyes And locked up. Never expecting that I’d cause The chains of her past to bind her so painfully I stopped.
But I know… How she blankets herself In the wounds He inflicted. Like a burn victim Feigning strength When every move hurts. I offered to be a brick house Wherein she can be glass. A fragile rainstorm With cries of thunder. Though she’s the one apologizing I’m the one that feels at fault As I wipe the tears that threaten to stain her pillow. I wash the burning desire for her cavity Out of my soul. This sweet tooth Has crumbled our rites of passion. So in my love, I’ll abstain From hurting her again To soothe the pain She holds firm in her brain.
"The Connection" (separating each song I'm talking about) "Shades of Blue by Nick Lachey" All the music I have listen to lately I form this connection from the pain inside the pain I hide when you and me try to decide if you will come back to me but until then I sit in my shades of blue waiting for you
"What Left Of Me by Nick Lachey" I fill when you left me you took apart of me I have the pain from that piece me that is missing from inside I wish you would just take the rest of me because the pain just drives me crazy I'm going off of my mind please come back and take what's left of me
"On Your Own by Nick Lachey" You are a good distance away from but if your world ever falls apart around you you know I will do anything for you because I can't forget that only girl that I ever loved I will carry you back home
"Bring Me To Life by Evanescence" Without you I feel like I'm dead inside I'm not myself anymore I just need you to wake me up inside to bring me back to life
"Stay by Florida Georgia Line" I wish I could have stop you from leaving but I couldn't help it but I didn't say anything to you when you told me you where leaving but baby what if I told you I loved would it have made you want to stay?
"Headphones by Florida Georgia Line" I can't stop thinking about you everyday I work on my music but in my headphones I hear you I can't get you off of my head your here stuck in my head going back in forward
"Take It Out On Me by Florida Georgia Line" You said your going to try and move on but you know you always got me to take it out on you don't have to call just come on in Let me make his wrong a right
"Trying Not To Love You by Nickelback" I have been trying not to love you but I can't get you out my head man I wish there was a pill to make me forget because with the memories inside me my love will never end for you that special someone that I care for without a thought