I remember just how the bottle tasted, with every swig the room got louder but my mind got quieter, never before has my bath felt as much like a coffin as it did that day, I remember gripping the side with one hand as the other clutched at the pills. I've never been good at taking tablets but they seemed to just go down a treat, I don't know if it was because of the ***** or the fact I thought it would be the last time.
I cried like id never cried before it was a silent cry though it felt as if I was screaming. The room was spinning now and I was struggling to swallow what seemed like the 100th pill I felt a sharp pain in my chest and wondered if this was it, I didn't feel regret or sadness for once I felt weightless, my head bobbing up and down in the water now it felt like id been placed in the middle of the ocean and the waves were getting bigger washing me under, but I didn't mind I just laid there now dropping in and out of consciousness, with blurry wet eyes I see a face of what I thought was an angel ready to take me out of this cruel life I had been living, but I couldn't of been more wrong. Her arms round my waist felt like rope pulling me to the shore but I wasn't ready to get out yet I want to stay out at sea I screamed please just let me go, The water seemed to be disappearing now, swirling for what seemed like a lifetime I wasn't sure if it was my distorted vision of if the water was really going down but I didn't care anymore I felt the tear from her eyes fall onto my shoulder and I knew I had to try and swim.
