At this point I am again taken back to that time when all I could do was pray intently and ask for serenity.

I never realized what it meant to hold onto something that is both a blessing and a curse until I walked on the same winding road as you.

At the end of the day, there is always you.

M is for a love so magical,
Blossomed beneath the cool summer air.
I, you captivated by your beauty,
An enticing charm barely one can bear.
Now I wonder what is it that got me,
How possibly I've come enthralled by thee.
Is it that clever face of a child's,
Your sweetest smile, could it be?
Held me high with melody so fly,
Or such lovely stance, maybe?
Unravelling all these now I proclaim:
This love affair is a no easy game.
I lend you my heart, it can only flutter.
Kiss me goodbye, just do not leave it ever.

vi.xxviii.mmxiv

She doesn't want to hear those voices once again. They were convincing, blunt and agonizing. The way it whispered to her splintered soul, it was harrowing.

She wanted to speak to the silver Moon, high and far as it wander to the sky with blistering stars that became its companions.

"O, dearest and beloved orb of night, how far am I going to sail this wrecked vessel across the sea of mayhem?"

To her dismay, the silver Moon did not respond to her unfulfilled questions.

It was always like that.

She left the forsaken room as the silence followed her trails.

today i bought a journal
so i could pen my thoughts on paper

today i bought a journal
not only to write my thoughts
but to keep my life in order
today i bought a journal

today i bought a journal
to hold myself accountable
for my actions
today i bought a journal

today i bought a journal
so i could write down lines
that might fit some rhyme
somewhere, sometime
today i bought a journal

today i bought a journal
maybe as a tangible reminder of how far i will go?
maybe just as a physical place to keep my writing?
today i bought a journal

Sewn-up into not caring
Modelled dispassionate
Roused into fantasy;
This one time would be
different
Oh naive optimism

His sight grows absent from reality when
he sees her
Leaving me unconsidered
he trades grins with her
With no forewarning
he trails off to her
Consinging to oblivon my presence when
he's with her
Nothing assuredly matters when
he's conversing with her

I'll bid farewell
to those so called feelings
Friends can fracture your
Sole heart
If you keep confiding
You will bruise nonstop
So let me advice you this one time
Become cold as ice

she locks herself in her room,
closing all the curtains and
whispering to herself,

"why did you have to leave?"

she walks toward her desk
and opens the bottom drawer
and it reveals a
                           razor

she carefully lifts it
and whispers into
darkness


                       *"only for you, my love"

Double edged sword
You gave them your word
Not a necessity
But a possessive desire
Got burnt by the fire
But it felt so good

Doing new things you’ve never done before
Inhibitions released and spirits soar
New trails being blazed and opened doors
Then the question come up, what you really here for?

When they’re happy it’s because they love you
When they’re ***** it’s because they wanna *******
When they’re mad all they wanna do is diss you
And when they’re sorry it’s because you got a shoulder to cry on and sympathetic tissues

And the situations can be reciprocal
As you put each other on that pedestal
You try to fit in each other’s schedule
And be together in the time residual

Sometimes you wanna **** them
Then you look back at the times when
You used to think they might have been heaven sent
And made changes and sacrifices as if every day was Lent

The break up
The make up
The forgiveness ****
All that nonsense for what?

To get your blood boiling
Just part of everyday mortal coiling
Suffer in the pain just toiling
Just forget about it blow it off its just annoying

You talk about kids, a house and a family
During a late night-early morning talk over some coffee
Thinking about the future is interesting
But you can’t predict so just wait and see

Then you got that real drama
Like a ******* soap opera
Know when it’s coming it ain’t ever a shocker
Just keep your mouth shut to keep good karma

Double edged sword
You gave them your word
Not a necessity
But a possessive desire
Got burnt by the fire
But it felt so good

Thinking they’re gonna be the death of you
But it doesn’t matter when it’s just them and you
In bed getting close making moves
Not caring letting loose with nothing to prove

Because you both know about that ***
That it’s just the best
When you ain’t gotta worry what comes next
And all the dramatic and arguments can be put to rest

All the jealousy
Emotionally
Devotionally
Taking its toll you see

Misunderstandings
Demanding
Reprimandings
Seeing where you’re both standing

This whole time I’ve been talking about you and I
You’re the only thing take makes me aware that I’m alive
The reason I survive
Every day with you on my side

So stop with the opposition
I got one mission
No compromising positions
So look me in the eye and listen

I love you
I hate you
I need you
I want you

I don’t know what’ll happen today
And tomorrow’s too far away
We're way past yesterday
I guess what I’m trying to say is

All that matters is you and me
And all that we can ever be
Is loyal and honest to the highest degree
And try to take it one step at a time rationally
And walk hand in hand through our clandestine destiny

Double edge sword
I gave you my word
She got the best of me
I’m no liar
So cut me, slash me
I’d die for her