You’re gone and not here
by God that was my worst fear
as I sob my heart hurts the worst here
worse than anything since my birth year.

They say you had a good run
they say you had good fun
I want to buy a good gun
to **** someone for saying something so dumb
I guess it’s better than saying so what
but this pain is driving me nuts
but it’s all I have left of a tie that was severed
all these moments I remember
are my ties to the nether
at least I was telling the truth
when I said our ties would last forever.

Is death as peaceful as I have imagined?
Will give long-awaited relief
Knives in back to the wall have me pinned
Wounds heal
Not the greif

Attacks from demons leave throbbing scars
Love will stop the pain
Soothe the tissue burning like cigars
Adding life to happiness slain

More cuts appear quickly as stitched
In my skin like engravings
Stuck into flesh
Cannot be switched
To tattoos like clocks at daylight savings

Now time passes with zero meaning
Might just stop altogether
Waiting for the instant I'm sent careening
As I die
Descend into the nether