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Let Go
Let ***
Don’t hold onto
What’s not yours
Stay woke
Move on
& *** will keep
moving on
with you.

I was your anchor
& you left me sinking
I was the current in your
ocean tides
Always pushing you
Motivating you
Building you up
Beyond foundations
& landscapes
Hills and landlakes
& yet you  proved to me
time & time again
of why I kept falling over a cliff
& felt as if I was drowning .

In your sorrows I feared
Even though they were
ever so dear to me.
Tried to be strong for you
But in the end
I have nothing to say to you
You can say what you want but I won’t listen
I’d rather glow than to be glistened
By messy ones that have already been dismissed for my presence
To me your Non existent

Yet I kept you stable
& stern
That way you wouldn’t  
feel like you were tilting
You’ve been unbalancing
My equilibriums
To a point
Where I feel a sense of deliriums
I guess to you I was just a theorem
To practice on giving me a chance
But when I left....
I didn’t look back
Here & then I give you glares
But not a glance .
Be glad I didn’t  physically attack

I revealed to you most of myself
& I don’t do  that with many
But in the end
thanks to you
I felt rather empty

Sowed back all the stitches you cut open inside of me
You know because
I was always found away out
Saw the light in the darkness you kept driving towards me

As your fixer
I Saw the picture
& read the between the lines
Of the illustrations
& authorization formed by all of our altercations combined

Cried & wept
But now I  dry my own tears
Kept you company
When you wanted at least 1 good friend
& yet you failed
so I chose to disappear
So that’s why I came at you hard
& left at your wits end.

You let those that get mad when I hung around you
When they want you for  personal motives & possessions
instead of your heart
& yet you’re scarred
By the one that left you sprung
yet foul
Vs a Person that could have given you their all  
& cherished you
But now
the tables have turned

But now I’m done with you
& I’m glad you’re done with me .
No more tears left to cry
No more pain that’s inside
Because I’ve said what I’ve had to say

Yet sometimes
I occasionally reminisce
I realized I could change
people’s lives
People need me
for the right reasons
But not In the same sense
& text you put it  as “ only in a season”

So I wiped the devil out of my head
& washed away of you clean.

My poems  & perceptions
strengths & exceptions
remedies & reflections
has all dispersed to the
public eye now.
It will spread yes indeed
And then when I’m done
I will be done entirely .

I’m still working on my master piece
But you  will never be my master
I don’t bow nor plead
To critical &   entitled peasants
That think their supposed to  be
& sanctified
Bowed down to
& glorified
Yet they say their body is their temple
But you let demons that move too fast for you in
Than the ones that were patient & helpful
& yet you push them
away even further
Did that ever cross your
temple ?

Now I’m not your *****
Not  in roots nor weeds
You & your
Benevolent sovereignty  can flee.


But as my lord & savior Jesus Christ
I have to forgive you
I forgive you for all the pain
I endured & the confusion you were conflicted with
I forgive you for the sabotages
Manipulation & hurt that we both endured yet I tried to fix & heal both of our bandages .
I apologize for the flaws
Of those that missed seeing the *** in me .
I’m sorry I lost that spark that used to live & run deep  inside of me
*** has helped me in ways that I will never fully understand
His hand was stretched out to me but I left him hanging
Over a **** boy that was not even close enough  to being a man

I wont commit my time again to him to even in my darkest days.

Although I’m sorry I came hard at you like I am right now
All Angry & aggressive
Emotional & expressive
But I only care about those I really care about
I’m still working on forgiving the fact
You used my kindness & compassion corresponded
& compared  to my love that I shared with you & then on to another peasant that doesn’t want anything to do with you nor  me but in the public eye he can’t confess it
So he acts nebulous
from the foul foolishness
he created on his own .

But I have to forgive you .
I have to move on
But don’t test me
Stay away from bottles & chairs
Stay away from being on the steps & stairs
Stay from hallways in my vicinity
Don’t dare try to test me cuz
I can
I am
an angel but can also be
a deceitful devil
when I don’t take
nor put up
with manipulation
& consistent slip ups
from those that can’t grow
the **** up when
they fail to
realize & analyze
they needed to step away
from a foul situation that might forever change their life .
But they chose to fight it
So I chose to flight from it  after refusals & dismals  
& now it looks like you’re on your own .

So it’s time for me to

Let Go
Let ***
Don’t hold onto
What’s not yours
Stay woke
Move on
& *** will keep
moving on
with you  

I’m not sorry for my truth
Although I’m sorry for you
But only my forgiveness from *** got me through this **** .
I’m no longer under your control
Nor spell .
Though I wish you well
This will be  the last time  
I will ever kiss & tell .

I went on tangents
While being people’s fixer
When they needed special treatment
But now that I have forgiven them
Of how they treated me
I’ve transitioned into a Builder
& Healer
For me myself & I
For them good goes the goodbye
& boy
that triple dose is a killer.

~Jordan Munchenburg ~
For the next one
that I hope to call my lover ,

Will you be able to read deeper into people more than I can ?

Will you pray with me
in ways that are beyond me
& seek out signs more quickly
in those I speculate more
than I can ?
Can we pray over situations
whether it’s tedious or crucial ?

If not a saved Christian nor Christian at all ,
will you be able to respect my religion & sexuality
whether it’s confusing
nor unbelievable to you ?

If not confusing,
are you willing
to attempt & try
to come along & walk
that line ,
that journey
with me ?

Will you be willing
to admire my faults
& yet check my ways
of cockiness & aggressions ?

Even when I feel disrespected
& yet disrespectful ,
will you be my
conscience & guide
like I would do for you
at anytime ?

Will you be man enough
to put me in my place
& yet still be by my side  most of all my days ?

When you’re far away
will you be able to earn the right
for me to feel your presence. Knowing I will be okay

will you lead me on
after I’ve been told by you
to get to know you
& yet you’ve
made up your mind by
blocking  me on every
social media network
within 2 to 4 Days ?

Will you be mature enough to handle my ways
of thoughts & actions
& still be mature ?

Will you love me in time
& be able to develop a stable relationship & not go too fast?

I will not settle
for a person being their trophy you brag about on social media
& idolized to the public eye like my old pastor did at his Church
with his wife & then swindled
people’s money
Their motto is to
“Love ***• Love People”
& yet instead it was more so
“Preach ***•Swindle People “
(Even when
my family asked about
the pastor to pray for our dying father they said no)
But Anyways
I will not be
sabotaged & manipulated
like my old friend’s first lover
did  to him
over again and again.

I will not be
tormented & used !
Scapegoated by a person that’s been ******* around with others
& then gets mad when another is not attracted nor attached to him.

If you are nebulous and unaccountable
of your actions
It will all lead me back to this.

Back to places where I cut you off .
When the connection dies off
The cold cases of love goes shut
All there will be left
is bad reception .

I will not settle
for being someone’s vulnerability when wanting pleasure while trying to escape from thinking about their past lover
by getting under somebody else literally .

I will not settle
for dancing in the devils shoes when *** does not like ****
& he ain’t to fond of cute.
I will not step into a light
that is dim & mellow

Mind;  conflicted by a fellow .
I refuse to pleasantly  worship a peasant that is considered
3rd party based on their actions
but a name of High Nobility & Quality when their conflicted emotions & first lovers action demonstrate a production of a foul practice from people they use as toy to ******* & ******* with then it multiplies into more quantities .

I know my worth
Will you be able to
see the purity of it ?
Will you  dance with me
& Match my optimism & energy
& feel united as one ?
If we conquer the world
Through rough times
Will you still stay ?

Or will you run
Run out the doors that were welcoming you in with open
arms & go into other doors
That were unnecessary to open .

Will you not be greedy when it comes to pleasure
Will you actually appreciate me
How I carry myself
My intelligence & heart ?
Not just  words that I am
Poetically speaking .
Will you not use me because you like or you can tolerate
my poems ?
I don’t want you if you just
want my words
I don’t want you if
You continue
To make people hurt .
I don’t want you if you don’t care about anyone but yourself .
But if you are all those things I am
Looking for in a man ,
are willing to be my refinement
& cleanse my heart & soul ?
Take me as I am because there’s one thing I’m really great at doing :
Making you bloom
&  feel whole .

~Jordan Munchenburg ~
This is what freedom
told me :
You are wise!
Wiser than most
You are magnificent
You are caring & compassionate
You are calm yet aggressive
Only to those
that have used you
Lie to you
Over & over again ; repetitive
But out of all the hurt ,
Pain, & suffrage you endured ,
You still stand strong
& continue to move mountains .

Once was a seed
Now has been sprouting
& multiplying your growth
Into the multiplicity
of your own heart felt words .

You have a gift
You are unique
You see beyond things that you should & should not see .
Though you know who you are
& you know what you want .
It’s easier said than done .

You know
yet still practice it
& it will be done .

You are not lonely anymore
There is no sadness
Love is not an open door
But it can be
Yet choose to be cautious .

You are an angel
You have the sauce
Whether it’s spicy or too hot
You have the flames to burn all the witchcraft & propaganda
Into pieces whether it needs to be cut or died off close by or from afar

Transforming each day
Getting better in every way
It takes work
But hardwork is your middle name .
& there is no sadness
&there is no emptiness
You are no longer a boy
There is no hunger
There is no thirst
Your are no longer the puppet master’s toy

You have daddy issues
You recognized your flaws
You said goodbye
to those couldn’t accept you
& hello
to those that welcomed you
& there they are .

You ; a whole book
The pages get thicker & thicker
No longer hard
to turn the page though .

Maybe  hard to read
Though you still read into people
Even if they or you can’t read in between the lines of what that they may or may not understand completely .

You are love
You are honor
Skin ; chocolate
You are brave
You are famished & full
From the abundance of ***’s love
You are everything
your mother wanted you to be .

The peasants that are here
sit & scold
But you are bold
You can’t hear them
 If *** can do great things with
Helen Keller ,
Ray Charles,
Stevie Wonder,
then you’ll be alright to
Ignore nor here
Nor see their presence
Their non-existent .
So it doesn’t matter if they walk out right now or still listen !

You are optimistic
You are fine as ****
Little do straight men know
Some girls want a bite of you
But since you’re a
*** and flamboyant
You might as well let them know !

You are beautiful
You are honest
And there is no depression
And there is no depression
And there is no depression
You have ***
& there is Forgiveness
& there is forgiveness
& there is forgiveness
You are almighty
powerful & wonderful
**** & plentiful
Blessed & humble
Loved & capable
*** is so Good !!!
You will be great
You didn’t know you had this in you
Until you let *** into your heart
& start to work inside & heal you
& create more gifts & talents
So you can showcase them on other stages & this stage .
You’ve accepted this stage of life

He is almighty
The way
Of my ways
My truth
My life
The healer of my pain
My ghosts
My days
My lies .
He is mine
He is mine
He is mine  
& can also be yours .

If he can help change a Munchenburg
so he can  help others,
Imagine what *** could do for the rest of world.

This was indeed his creation
I’m just using my words he spoke through me as a tool
For new innovations
to come soon
While speaking it into existence .

Ode to the fixing
I feel complete within myself
If I hadn’t stop to help people
I would have never thought to
restore my inner fixing & healing .

Ode to the *****
That used to run deep inside of me
I’ve gotten better with my control of tongue knowing I don’t need to cuss to prove my  point though I just used it as an ode

Ode to me
To me & what I’ve become
I’m undone from the pain
Free from the strain
Negativity poured down the drain
Took a drink of deliverance
Then came acceptance
Swallowed some
Self  appreciation
Then came
Respectable acquaintances

Ode to the fake foolery
I was blinded  by your falsity
Saw the heavy truth
But the weight is off my shoulders
You’re the one that’s
now carrying it boo .

Ode to freedom
Freedom has been key
& since *** has been challenging
my mind & what I think of everyday ,
I thank him because now I can say

I am at peace with myself
& now home at last

Mentally in his arms
while being on this earth
until I can see him at last on
Judgment Day .
When he calls my name
& I’m welcomed into his
heavenly place
I’ll be to hug him
& say

“*** I love you !
looking  back at my time on Earth
You have made feel even more full
& happy to be your son that was able to finish the race with you in my heart & steering me until it was time to come up here & stare you directly in the face .”

My spirit up above is filled with
Freedom in his Kingdom

While my body on Earth
Disintegrate along with
Forgiven sin that has also decayed.

& there is no sadness
& there is no sadness
& there is no sadness

Cuz I
I may or may not have made a name for myself on Earth
But the lord may know my name
Because when I’m done on this Earth
I know I’ve made an extra space
In his heavenly place
& I am welcomed home .

However on Earth,
I think I found my calling
& that calling will remain
in my words.

~Jordan Munchenburg~
There is poet that inspired me to write

That poet is Tonya Ingram

Check out her poem
“ Here is what Loneliness/Love tells you “

She has been the inspiration for this poem & the reason why we all should find self love
& feeling wanted .

All my poem that I write & share is because I went through all of the doubts pains & suffrage .
I found love
& feeling wanted.
I hope you all can find it as well ❤️.
Silenced as if the world had nobody else on this Earth .
Nobody wrapped around his finger
Nobody trying to force him  to do things he would never do
Nor try to linger
behind him
very far away but always trying to hide from him .
If this was a game of  hide & seek
it would rather feel more like
fight or flight
because in the end
he still felt weak ;
Weak to the knee
Asking for forgiveness
but didn’t even realize the chaos
he was creating.
But silence is more powerful!
Better than wasting your time
Your breath,
Your words on what’s already going to be left
& gone .

The cycle keeps on continuing
but each victim has their turn
You would think they were related & yet one lacks
how the other acts
& the other acts
like what the other lacks
which is really confusing .

You can’t help those
that can
but won’t ,
but then don’t.
Don’t come to the conclusion
that they need help
when they have people to make
them feel at home .

Refuge is here
But instead their refusal
is  **** near
But I guess people do crazy things
when it comes to toxic love .
brush up on them even more
get closer to them
but that just closes doors in front of him that he can’t see
Because the figure that’s in front
will do anything
to sabotage
the mind ,
the body,
& soul
with a smiling face
strutting towards
& away
creating no more empty space
until he is satisfied
& consumes his soul ; whole.

**** near could
use a glass of Hennessy
But won’t .
I don’t drink
Nor drown nor  suffocate in people’s sorrows & refusals.
Don’t get involve
Nor get  around to help others
because everything’s
so envious & crucial .

The road you take
comes from the decision you make
The promise you make
depends on which one
you will break
The endless cycle that is still partaken in,
will eventually be laid to rest
the sooner you realize
it was kept ,
you restrain
so you need
to break the chains .

I won’t watch you struggle,
nor help you up ,
nor give pep talks
advise you,
nor surprise you.

Like castaway I was
But I finally broke away
I feel free and undone
No restraint,
Nor complaint ,
No need to stifle,
No need to speak  in vain,
I’ve flown ,
I’ve dived,
I’ve sunk ,
But came out alive,
I’ve fallen ,
I’ve cried,
I’ve done the impossible,
As if it is still
do or die !

My dismissal from your presence
has given me more strength
than the strength I gave to you when you needed me.

Nor fixer,
Not builder,
Not nurturer,
Finally a healer
I can move on from this place
But occasionally will come back
on different days
knowing you won’t be here .

In the blink of an eye everyone one will be gone
at different times of their lives
But if I’m still on this earth
I still have a calling
that nobody
will understand.
That lets me know
that *** is still
working on me ,
still pushing me,
in that direction :
Who I will see in the future?
Where do I need to go ?
*** show me the way !
*** can you open this door ?

I’m the Messenger
Spread & share your story
It’s more interesting than the perceptions & assumptions
people create about you
not knowing a **** thing at all about what you do

Until you do it for a living .
That will make you feel whole .

~Jordan Munchenburg~
I was sixteen when my father died
so I started to follow Christ
Though I knew
that there would come a time
when my faith would be tested .
I was living this tragic  double life
by faking the funk
while trying to be alright
I guess you can say I never expected the unexpected.

I’m known as the fixer,
the healer,
Be motivating for those that need a motivator,
the hugger,
the seeker,
Believe in those that need a believer
But there’s one thing
One thing
I’ve always wanted .

When I was fourteen
you caught my eye
But later on down the road
you didn’t treat me right
so I had to stop ,
take a breather ,
& then realize
what I wanted in my life .

I can love hard
but I won’t be *******
I can be strong for others
but I won’t be used
by ****** needs of others
with their outbursts & attitudes
in their life
because that’s what they
like to use to substitute.

I was 17 when you first came out
So I thought I had a shot with you
But that idea burnt out
But before  I turned 18 you started acting flirtatious towards me .
I told you what I’m all about  
& how much your heart plays big part in mine some how .
I’m not like the rest of these folks that lack the action of being a committed boy friend
But I realized you heart was broken by your first  love
that came to an end.
& yet you still choose
to “mess” with him

I can be the healer,
the nurturer
Be inspiring to those that need an inspirer,
the decision maker,
the provider,
Be the guide to those that need a guider,
But there’s one thing,
one thing
that I’ve always wanted .

Now I am 18 soon to be 19
& all of this stuff is not so surprising
Because every year,
every day,
every moment,
Has someone or something
snatched away from me
as if I had owned it .
But I can’t seem to figure out why
All my life
it’s been filled with
We’ll see’s
& eventually’s
& I hope that  people
can relate &
Understand to what I’m saying .

But out off all of those
maybes & possibilities
I pray to *** that one day
he’ll bless
& grant me
the wish I’ve always wanted
treasured & needed .

My mind ,
& soul
has been blessed with capabilities & things I never knew
I once had & now told
But my heart is weakening
as I’m still thinking
because  the one thing I keep saying & needing ,
no one in my life
can do for me.

I WANT TO BE .... loved

But I know my time will come
I want to be able to say
That every **** day
I am
truly ,
& unconditionally
loved .

& then it found me ....

~ Jordan Munchenburg ~
He was once weak
Scarred by what was not
meant from him to see
Every time a chain
he wanted to break
There was always
a board ,
block ,
A barrier in his way
to let someone see the beauty
In this case,
“ handsomeness-within”
that was a better than what was outward on display .

A face has so many expressions,
intentions ,
Point of views
That lead to assumptions & perceptions .
But what he felt inside is unexplainable to the human eye
& it’s nothing any other person
can ever truly feel .
True feelings can be expressed
yet people can say things are okay
But when a person
drifts one day to the next
Keep pushing
Keep thriving
Excel the bull
Because that’s not worth fighting ,
It becomes tiresome
So he fell apart
& couldn’t get back to where he was before
& just like a painting
You have to take time
To pay close attention
to every detail.
Don’t rush
The strokes
The faded colors
Be woke
Inside like as if this was your last time
mastering the art
But that’s different from
a person’s heart .

Yet he  kept getting  closer
& as he  kept getting older
His  heart could no longer take
Being apart of another person’s troublesome heart
if that person can’t
let him in all the way .

He was once free
But in reality
People see him as their animal spirit
Or just beautiful human
But their blinded by the outward appearance because he failed to tell them how he’s truly feeling

So he puts up walls to block out the reality .
Uses the stage to tell the story of people he portrays
But in his mind
The characters he portrays
are always somewhat relatable
in a way .

He used art
when he feels broken
Though he falls
apart mentally
But parts of him are revealed in ways that might be surprisingly beautiful
to the viewers watching ,
audience members observing ,
But inside the vulnerability
Expressed in a magnificent ways
comes to life.

Loves the theater
But can’t stand the drama
If it’s not on the script
on paper written
He wants nothing to do with it because will lead to traumas.

But he knows that in reality you’re going to come across people
That always talk their talk
Still knowing he’ll walk that walk.
Like walking on water
Parting the sea
like *** did with Moses
Feeling free
Sprouting like plants
that are plentiful
& beautiful like daisies & roses
But will never be ****** down
Hanging onto the tight rope .
He will climb & move mountains
In order to get to ***’s
next challenge
& obstacle somehow .

If you can’t handle what people throw at you’ll break like a twig
If you let your inner demons get the best of you,  you won’t live
If you overthink things that
will only affect you for minutes
Instead of thinking about other stuff that will affect you for your lifetime for the better not for the worse ,
you won’t enliven
You’ll just be weakened

But all it takes is strength
To break apart what wasn’t
yours  to hold on .
You were never made the fall in line for anybody
You are you !!
Don’t let people change you  because you want to make a difference for only them & not you
Take this as a life lesson seriously.
When there’s weakness
there’s also strength
When there is darkness
there is light
Others might not see the light because they are blinded.
And if they’re blinded
that means that they’re
not ready for the light
& yet it came to you
  so step into it .
They will linger
being motionless
unseen ; invisible
wanting some of your light
you have been given .
People make more
dirt for themselves
when their still looking
for nourishment
& nutrients
when their just a ****
& your flower that
blossoms & grows .

~Jordan Munchenburg ~
Before ,
His heart was weakened  
afraid he would die from the vessels of a damaged heart
that was always tainted.
Before ,
He felt uneasy and
due to the abundance of tough love
& lack of there of
that he wasn’t used to ,
There was an
of obstinate
erosion of
love within
that was

He changed
from this happy soul
to this hellish unwanted Ghoul.
Even the devil would be so shocked !
So proud that all his little work
had payed off
& has  been the start of
the next level of what he could do
to his predator that was still too
at a  mental state
of delusional manipulation
& pain .
He was about to be a ticking bomb
ready to explode!

He was a snake
The boy was Steve
The closer the snake got.
The more damage the devil could do to this boy’s feelings .
Don’t you see ?

When you’re immune to pain
The devil can work
in mysterious ways .
You can have a sense of acrimony .
Once your heart
has been betrayed
by those that still walk around acting like they
didn’t cause the pain ,
It drove him insane .  

So why do good things happen to people that make poor choices
& have filthy hearts
while bad things happen to people that make  somewhat good choices
& tries to love others
& yet at the end of the day
have a broken heart ?

What’s surprising is that
the boy was once wise
Like the 3 wise men .
Had a heart of purity
but was no match
to ***’s son Jesus
Had the walk of a defined confident human being
but yet inside
His mental state
that was no longer the same
as the outward appearance
he very well displayed,
well he’s here to say
that looks can be deceiving !!

Jesus wept
So did Steve
Forgave those that wronged him
Cried out to *** saying
“*** why have you forsaken me ?”
Well Lord why have you forsaken Steve ?

Why is he still hurting ,
Emoting ,
Depressed ,
Exploding ,
going crazy ,
Eroding .

How ?
How can he pick up the pieces
Of someone else’s dark secrets
& yet they
get to walk way
free and
He still has no one to love
nor to believe in?

Tell me where ?
Where are you now ?
When Steve needs some comfort
Away out .
Where ?

Lastly , when ?
When will Steve be able to let
Someone in
Love him unconditionally
Instead of dealing with a different person but doing same thing over & over to him .
When ?

Being broken
was not the way for him
nor was it the token
to get to a place
and state of healing.
Little chunks of his heart
was swollen from the pieces that kept falling apart
From expressing love
but not receiving it.
It was in his blood
& yet fondled & played with.
But now he has awoken
from the devil’s manipulative spiritual hellish hypocrisy .

He realized
just because he was bent
doesn’t mean he was broken.
That magnificent art
he stills creates
From his tainted - broken heart
has worked .
What a blessing how *** can work in mysterious ways .

Even if the devil still lingers
Beneath or Above the Earth.
The boy has now had enough
& now knows it won’t work .
Because Jesus has him now .

He brings & leaves
his pain at the cross
Prays each day  
like his life depends on it .
& when he dies one day ,
he hopes the people
that he tried to love
knew that he was
the abundance of
it all .
When he meets ***
on Judgement Day ,
he hopes he will be let in
because of the pure heart he still has buried underneath
& beneath  
the acrimony
he once had before
died .

He wants to lie
the acrimonious ways
of thinking to rest.
Be Healed
& Transformed .

Where there’s no pain
or suffering .
No antagonist
No tricks for those that felt treated.
Nor protagonist
No place for the wicked ways
of the wicked .
No temptation
that leads to damnation .
Just a beautiful place
where he can awake
& be free
from what the world
& society once was
when he
was living.
To him
living eternally
in ***’s Kingdom ,
will probably
be more welcoming
than he tried to do for others that treated him
like he
was nothing.

He put up all those walls
that were bound to fall
in time .
Little did he know
Jesus was with him
with those walls he created
& now he’s a free man and
Satan has been rebuked
No longer comes to weakened  
Nor to steal
Nor destroy
the boy .
No longer his puppet
Nor toy .
Because now the boy
is a man in the making
now enjoys
the glory
the company
the abundance of
***’s love indeed
& is now in the hands
[No longer in rainy mental states ]
& is now in the hands
[ Because he found ***
in his darkest days]
& is now in the hands of ***.

Steve wanted a
personal king to love
But the irony of it all
Is that the king he wanted was far from the almighty king
that was with him all long
throughout his acrimony
Standing by his side
Being the conscience
for him as a guide
While watching from above .
He realized that Steve isn’t so supposed to like Adam
He was taught Adam & Eve
Not Adam & Steve
And that Steve ,
that went through all that acrimony
That’s now out of his system
& in the hands of ***
was me .

~ Jordan Munchenburg ~
He tried
to heal the wounds that were bound to hurt again .
Put bandages over the cuts that cut so deep into a person’s heart & soul that eventually
the bandages suddenly
peeled and popped  off again.

Every lie
that was once told is now kept
top secret
in group chats
which is no match
for how he responded
to the wicked ways
of  this so called
“Be respectful ,
Be responsible ,
& Be safe  place .”
Yet he chose to see the real
in people’s  heart & eyes.
Boy, was he blind !

He recognized
that he , himself
has flaws just like everyone else  .  Took those flaws into consideration    just like taking his broken heart
& creating it into magnificent art.
Yet to this day,
people still don’t quite get
the picture!

People hide behind the keyboards  texting ,
behind stage curtains
talking ****.
Stirring up trouble just like playing Chinese Telephone.
As a result, things that were not initially said and done
are now twisted,
& can never be undone !

However, he managed to see past “he said -she said” **** .
Looked beyond the assumption of what people told him .
Deciphered the harsh reality of spurious and counterfeit people
& yet he chose
to **** those
people with kindness.
But there’s no change
to the content
of some people portraying
their ugliness within
outwards for all their “clique” to see
knowing **** well that’s not who they are within,
nor who they want to be.

Pleasing the pleasers
aren’t so pleasing especially
when there is no meaning:
If you ease in
too quickly  
into a person to comfort,
guide & advise,
they automatically are envious & assume you want something from them .
If you put
your pride aside
& focus on the heart of the situation of a broken hearted person & what they are going through ,people assume  you’re using them at their weakest point to get close to them for the wrong reasons .
If a person is crying out for help & yet only a few
come to the rescue,
people assume
that they are there to just feed off of the drama so they can make it their own personal business
& then later on ,
contradict themselves by
conflicting feelings
towards other individuals.

So he wrapped
all of that
into one knot,
threw it out his sight ,
& left it there.
He didn’t want to be
apart of those knots
because people would try
to connect those dots:
By swirling him
back in,
tangled & confused ,
part of their topic
mislead & used.
of the nebulous apprehensions!
with condescending cockiness of  people
creating critical confusion towards nurturing
loving individuals
Instead of
Little creatures.

Yet he still called himself the fixer . Because he tried to fix
broken hearts but in the end
the only heart that was broken,
was his.
Tried to patch the wounds that needed healing for others.
he still went
through the healing process within.
Gathered a  new individual  in the  spotlight  to be more welcoming for others that don’t feel welcomed  in and at the end of the day ,
people that were nobody before & unforgettable now,
forget where they started
& who got them to a place
&  state
of belonging of some sort where everyone now knows their name.

But the unseen is mysterious which is unclear to the human eye .
Too many shadows that follow a dark path .
Too many chiefs but not enough Indians.
Too many leaders that get lost in themselves & when others get lost they can’t reach out a single helping hand to help .

But a fixer could have  fixed
some of these issues if
you would have let them in .
But no , you didn’t so
instead, he took a step back
& did him .
But when you needed fixing,
it’s sad to say that no one that the fixer helped, especially you , didn’t come to comfort,
rush ,
nor sprinted
to help the fixer that put in
all that effort to make you feel good within.
Gave you that motivation to talk to your crush over & over .
Boy what  repetition!
Advised  the situations that you could have thought about & done  for yourself without  him.
& now only *** & the people he brings forth to the next her or him ,
we’ll be more than
enough to keep them
stable when
they felt like they’ve done all they can
for others that  don’t deserve their happiness.
So let me tell you something!
He’s gonna do all that he can
for himself .

He’s  no longer a fixer for those  that almost thought they destroyed him.
He’s now a builder ,
creating a pathway for his own happiness !
now has a story for all of those who feels or has felt ,
deals with or has dealt ,
With the outcome of pain , betrayal & agony of  fixing
other people even by the way you treated people in your life that was so damaging ,
is that they do now have a voice
& shouldn’t be a afraid to  exploit
the truth .
When they do ,
they too,
can be builders for themselves  when going through ****,
letting go of toxic people
& their **** truths .
So I have a question for you .
Now ain’t that a fixer ?!?!
Yeah I thought so too!

~ Jordan Munchenburg ~
A wise guy once said nothing ,
but when he reminisced,his eyes went for a swim ; drowning in the current of your own plotted disaster .....

If the current is supposed to be a disaster but the light that leads the path way out of darkness helps , how come *** managed to remove  an obstacle he did place  but not within in the current you stirred up & yet he found a way to split the sea & shine a light that's brighter  & purer than your cold soul will ever be ?

*** spoke to him saying,
"The waves aren't welcoming when it comes to the whip of the wind sometimes.
Depending on the direction, it could be misleading & hazardous
The path of which road you could take can be confusing ; dangerous but I am with you ."

A title read
But a trophy never held
A bold soul spoke & stood his ground
& because of that, friends come & go
yet he's still moving up levels  that's beyond the reach of disrespectful human beings

He remembered that a leader can lead themselves  
Because following the leader
that didn’t lead can be misleading

So to him resilience is key to things that he  shouldn't hold onto.
He knew in the end it wouldn't  matter .
So he never gave up .
Never assumed those that are quiet were considered weak & those that are loud were strong  because  he - himself, is unpredictable & full of surprises

In the end, you lost him
You mistook kindness as weakness,
so you played him
like a fiddle.

You changed
into a different Individual
& yet he figured out your game as if it was a riddle.

He helped you get comfortable to this place .
Made you feel welcome when others barely knew who you were.
Gave you advice  
that was worth needing
yet did the reciprocal  treating me & others worthless when you needed to feel worthy.

So, he came to his senses,
grew even stronger in his faith ;
trusting in ***
like the song
“Amazing Grace“.

Lost himself
Found his father again
Was blinded by your falsity,
but then saw the heavy truth....

You were the destruction of your own masterpiece......
Trying to escape the drowning current  of your own stirred waves while he's whipping through life like the direction of the wind onto better days of enjoyment .

Knowing the next time he meets a new face, in the back of his mind
it will not be yours
because the memories ,
the pain you
“didn't mean to cause”,
the agony he went through all those days
will all be erased
in silence .

Thank you ,
because of you his spirit within
was never crushed
it still lives on .

~Jordan Munchenburg~
Slipped off the wagon and went on tangents in my mind what could've happened.

How can a person be so cold but yet so warm?
So loving yet so condescending?

I open the door that *** was telling me to close.
Went around John's barn to see how my love would play out.
..... in the end
I was victorious without you.
No wonder the open door *** was telling me to close was freedom from your ways.

Out of all the ones you claim to be yours was actually incorrect
  because you beat around the bush and try to hide yourself from those who you tried to ignore.

And yet you still couldn't approach the essence of my human being; the truth of all the lies you tried to cover underneath-
with all the damage that I had to convey and store away.

For some reason I managed to be strong as steel
but is that even real ?
You envied my intelligence and yet you chose to test my patience
yet you knew I could put you in your place without cussing or intervening in your lustful ways.

To this day , I stand high & proud telling you off as I did then and now
and now and then , you lacked to show your truth within

The walls cracked the gap of the love that I had.

But instead all I got was manipulation and yet the funny thing is that misled your ways.

A person can be known for being the happiest  person in the world you can ever meet .

However they have fire inside to turn down all there enemies plans in order for them to not to succeed.

We all don't start off as flowers whether it's  a seed or **** that grows
whether or not we empower or rather sink than float

Bless your soul and bless others

Never let the gaping walls ***** or the ocean sea swallow you whole.
You have a life to live
Grow from the dirt
Learn from the pain,

Seize the heartache,

Endure the reign
Live to the fullest
But never be too full to gain

They are the audience,

you are the performer

They're in the cheap seats for a reason

The only difference is you control how you want your life to be played.

Not portrayed

~ Jordan Munchenburg ~

— The End —