Some of the most judgmental and unkind People I ever met were on church pews Every Sunday with a Hymnal And a Bible in their hands
I didn’t know how some people Were able to disassociate their own Shortcomings and cruelty From their religious Obligations and convictions But many were able to do just that
But as a child I couldn’t reconcile The child abusers The pedophiles The rapists The drug traffickers The thieves The alcoholics The cheaters The liars
From the people that stood at the pulpits. The ones I was told to emulate. The minister The reverends The deacons
The word minister embodies Loving protection
The word reverend invokes Reverence and inspiration
I was a young adult Before I realized Church is for sinners By that time organized religion For me? Was black and soiled. Repulsive
Here I am now. I fling mantras out into the world Of love, hope, compassion, Good health
I recently walked into A cathedral in Ireland and cried. I felt the weight of time and Countless generations of believers.
Working in the medical field And specializing in pediatrics Holding a one pound baby In my hands Months before even The parents were allowed to touch them I sincerely believe in miracles I see them almost every day
My church is in my head Buddhism is in my heart And in the actions of my hands The words in my mouth What my ears hear The soothing of my soul
The meals I help serve the homeless The blankets I spread on their cots
I bow my head and listen to prayers Wherever they are offered I quietly whisper My wishes Into an unknown ear
I don’t judge many people anymore My childhood is past I learned valuable lessons And peace is mine at last
That doesn’t mean I trust Easily or broadly It just means I am an adult And am responsible
There is some good In almost everyone I don’t say that out of naivety I have danced with monsters
A life free of suffering exists In a world where I have once suffered.
I have recently embarked on a life-changing journey and along the way have redefined my focus, my goals and my outlook on things. For the first time I have developed a truth that I can accept and live by, one that I feel within my very soul.