You say it yes, But you mean it no. We talk, But you make me speak only, I express freely, While you hesitate. I ask, "Can we be we?" You just nod... If I approach to demystify your complexity, You restrain.. Then still am I a stranger to you?
Today, like all days before You, I awoke to the sound of deafening silence; To the solitude and emptiness of my home, my prison; my crumbling cage. The shackles of hopelessness keep me chained to my bed as I beg my body to sleep and allow me to feel at peace. With eyes closed I let a gentle breeze carry me out my open window and set me adrift in the dark ocean of space. I mock gravity as the stars melt to dust and dance and swirl around me. Gentle beams of moonlight caress my face as I wade waist deep in the Milky Way. Vega’s passing brought your dazzling soul into my galaxy; and with arms outstretched you asked me to dance and we waltzed with the moon and sun. No words could describe the serene euphoria I felt as I laid my head against your chest and we danced to the sound of your heart beating. I held your hand as we tip-toed through Saturn’s rings and bathed in Neptune’s frozen waters. I watched in awe as the pigment of your skin changed with all the bouncing colors of Jupiter’s northern lights. But I could feel the universe begin to melt beneath us as the sun reared its ugly head. “I don’t want to wake up.” I whispered to you as we sank deeper into the fading abyss. I study your face with every fibre of my being so that I could engrave its’ likeness onto every cell in my body. I close my eyes and breathe deeply in an attempt to imprint your aroma onto my lungs. I reach out to touch your body so I could memorize your every curve and edge. But my hands could not feel you My eyes could not make out your shape And my lungs felt as empty as the void inside my heart. My soul weeps for the love I’ve yet to meet but miss so dearly.
The universe dissolves beneath us as rapidly as the harsh sunlight pours into my bedroom and I awake, once more, to the sound of deafening silence.
I hate that I care so much I hate how much you affect my day How when you text me I feel alive but when you are ignoring me the next day I die a little bit inside
Why would you paint such a beautiful picture in my head When you know you can't love me back Your thoughts are still going to a different girl but mine keep holding onto you How do I do this? We are both hurting but for different lovers
I wish we could work I wish you would realize that I would give you my world but no you don't care as much as I do I am just a rebound for all you knew And you know what I hate the most? I hate that after all you put me through I am still in love with you