Maybe I wrote too much about it and that’s why I can’t ever forget now. I looked back at old pictures yesterday and noticed that she squints her eyes in pictures the same way I do. Like we both want to shut out the world when we smile, close our eyes to seal in that happiness of a moment.
I believe that some of our parts were probably made of the same substance, or at least at the same time.
Sometimes I feel like a seagull in a shopping center parking lot – so far from the place I was made to inhabit. They gather in droves and shriek and it sounds so loud without the ocean waves to drown their voices. Maybe I’m just too noisy for West Virginia and one day I’ll be somewhere that makes sense – where I’m the right volume, like starlings in Europe, like kudzu in Japan.
Inheriting independence Intruding boundaries You let your actions stem from insecurity and jealousy You want to protect me But now I feel, I need protection from you.
You’re taking my life and air; Choking Caging Suffocating And Stifling me.
Love me Don’t own me. Protect me, But don’t bound me.
You’re being possessive That it turns out obsessive And sometimes situations get aggressive.
Fire burns in your love But your intentions become impure. In becoming possessive You became invasive.
You try to move my blood to your accord. Try to be the nerve to my muscle. But you’re blinding my eyes with tears And leaving myself internally screaming. It is like a curse that brings problems without a cause.
I want to b r e a t h e I want to s c r e a m I want to f l e e
I wonder, Where did all the happiness go? Because I just find myself lamenting over the days that pass by.
thrown into new understandings given earth beneath my feet taking what love I encounter falling harder never faster I grow from unbridled, invasive flowers seeking uncontrollable laughter escaping the soulless sorrow I am wild, free but still broken
a philosophical pondering of mine and my concerns about how WE(humans) are being destructive in our own world & nature itself or sometimes we are too blind to notice the destructive path we walk upon, realizing too late.
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Chum floats the pool encircled by sharks and piranha a pity, nature's fool as fearful teeth do their work. Could they be as bad as I? Apex predator, Invasive species where it means to die as a means to live. Growth from a spineless cherub to a spiteful formless entity possessing a cunning golden scarab controlling wheels of fortune. Slaves to our own demands aren't we antagonists to someone else? With machinations of wicked plans to justify righteous intentions. Hypocrites line the tank tapping their fingers in rumination Abandoning morals, faces left blank.