How to find an absent parent:
Step one: mention it to family,
Listen to them tell you how ****** up that person is.
The third step is: believe them.
Four: you get through your childhood and into being a teenager,
Also classified as a troubled youth,
Because, come on, no one gets to eighteen having escaped being mentally *******.
Step five, this is where it gets messy.
This day was always going to come,
It's the day you considered looking, you make a start of it too.
The sixth comes slowly,
Maybe a year later after things have finally calmed down
In this complex situation,
You get some kind of response.
Number seven, you start to question things.
Eight: now you question everything.
You officially realise almost everyone is a liar.
Nine, someone else comes along to make you confused,
You conflict yourself so much as if it's good news.
Ten is where you welcome back the mixed emotions you've had the whole way through,
Except now they're amplified by tenfold,
Have fun getting through!
Eleven: you get some answers that half work to your advantage,
Yet still tell you absolutely nothing,
And now you're back to how you felt before;
Longing for the opposite outcome;
To have someone that cares.
Step twelve is where you're at right now,
You're absolutely horrified,
Do you look once more,
Open your soul up to people,
So that they can tear it up again?
Ask if you can become their slave,
So that you get the chance to feel their mass rejection of you?
This whole way through,
You question, do you want to know who made you?
Are you really sure that you want to find out what disgusting genes exist within you?