Not once have I ever questioned
Why Humpty Dumpty sat on
A wall.
Not once did I ever question
The size of his hat.
Time is just one of those things
Easily hard working,
No matter how many times you
Yell out wait,
It just walks on.
No matter how much you care,
No matter how much you crave
It’s touch.
If you’re not careful, it’ll pass you by.
Not once have I thought about
The answers to any of these questions.
It’s quite painful,
To love someone risking the chance
They might not love you back.
It’s quite painful,
To teeter totter on a wall.
Even more fearful knowing
That you might fall.
But anything is better than
Walking on eggshells

I thought I mattered to you
That there still was something left to save
Scared of life without your presence
Have no choice but be brave

You've made pretty evident
I am no longer what you desire
Wish I knew how you did it
So I also extinguish my fire

You do seem happier
What I want the most
Even if meaning you can only exist
In world as a translucent ghost

Bleeding out until heart's out of blood
Hoping you see
How I care and love you so
Everything you once loved about me

What we had was messy
The one thing I know is that it was true
When I look into your eyes today
Glimpse a sliver of the person I knew

But know things have changed since then
I have made a lot of mistakes
Wish I could take some of it back
No such thing as double takes

Starting to realize our time
Finally has drawn to an end
A portion of me would rather say no
Instead just play pretend

We only get so many chances
Never sure which one is last
Until it is too late and everything you need
Becomes part of the past

The scars left on my feelings
Cause me pain to this day
No matter how long spent apart
Damage determined to stay

We blame ourselves for struggles
Maybe that isn't fair
It is destiny's fault
Creating this nightmare

It seems real this time
You never are coming back
Try to hide my sorrow
I am always wearing black

Within the purple walls
of my dorm room
a quiet heart began to flutter.
Perhaps it started when you wrote:
"Artemis, happy not valentines day"
on the day after fourteenth
and made it much more special
with an overused brown paper bag
and a Chuck Palahniuk.

Now at home, even within the white walls
of my own room--
I'm missing you.
my quiet heart has just been silenced
but you're there
in every The Flash episode I watch
in every taro drink I get
and in every text message I receive
hoping
for the slightest chance
of you being there.
Because, after all, you are
the Orion I could only ache for from afar.

light my fuse on fire and set me aflame
watch as you singlehandedly set me ablaze

what is it like to watch me burn, baby?
I'm no better than cinder, ashes in an urn.

lately I feel just like charcoal residue,
remember when I was sweet and wet like honeydew?
do you remember when I was good to you?

how much longer can we pretend?
that we know when this war will end,
I can't express how badly I miss my best friend.

charging towards each other from opposing ends of a battlefield,
no matter how much I beg,
your sword you will not yield.

pull out your guitar and play a chord
I don’t know how much longer I can afford
to run around on this chessboard

moving pawns and rooks
when we should be swimming in ponds,
and reading books.

thoroughly covered in brambles
I‘ll wait as you amble

who knew we could get so tangled in something we thought we could handle?

we’re filled with pride and jealousy,
resentment and envy too

how can we come back from this?

what did we lose?

Paradise can be torture
When so far out of reach
Like drowning in the ocean
In sight is a beautiful beach

You ogle her like a goddess
Doesn't come as a surprise
You don't have the decency
To look me straight in the eyes

I suppose I am not accustomed to
Such strict segregation
Without one insult hurled my way
Feel a victim of degredation

Your courteous attitude a change
From relaxed behavior I'm used to
To anybody else seem polite as can be
Being treated like a stranger to me is new

The wound within bleeds more
Every time I'm grazed by the sound of your laughter
It's music to my ears
Taunted by the silence after

Leave no details to imagination
Emotions are shown loud and clear
In less than 45 minutes you've managed to remove
Any sliver of doubt still under skin here

But aching heart inside my chest
Beats for solely your name
Fractures worsening in presence
Yours not reacting the same

Because it bangs harder against my ribs
Whenever you come around
As if already wasn't broken enough
Battered more with each excited pound

Your happiness ruins hope
I am glad to see you smile
Devastating to accept the thought
You walking somebody else down the aisle

You said we would marry someday
That you would have already gotten down on one knee
Except wanted to get me the ring I deserved
Must love her a lot more than me

Were those years to you a waste?
Now you've found what you truly desire
Don't understand how you no longer feel a spark
Inside I contain a raging fire

I wish I saw what about her is more special
Than magic we created before
In front of my face is all I ever wanted
It's not mine anymore