I met a girl who I believed to be
Beautiful, trustworthy, and compatible with me
We took long walks, poured out our hearts
Every step was a step closer, until we were barely apart
I'd pull her toward me
and ensnare her in a long embrace
On sight of her a smile would shine upon my face
From the time I made her mine
we laughed and toyed with love
We held each other, and I felt happiness undreamed of
I treated her the way I should
like a princess, faithful, kind, and caring, like a prince would
I thought this happiness could last
That for nothing more, could I ask
But hindsight and wary eyes alike are tightly shut until,
the moments' passed, and your ignorant heart's been killed
She spent our nights apart with other men
She abandoned our relationship in secret, time and time again
I did not know she was unfaithful
I didn't know she was so cruel
I gave her all she'd ever wanted
But for her, respect had no appeal
Her true desires were for men dishonest
the kind much like herself, who broke a promise
I did not know what she was hiding below
Until she gave me mono.
For the next month of my life
I knew nothing but strife
My bed was my unsought-after companion
Holding me through fevers and sweat
Pain and hopelessness
While I sat alone, hoping to recover
The girl who got me there
Found a way to disappear
She bypassed most of the symptoms
And knowingly made me her victim.

I have known real torture.
Not inflicted by weapons or machines;
Not a drop of blood drawn.
Real torture is when you tell me
From a thousand miles away
That your nose is in my hair
That your arms and legs are intertwined with mine
And that your lips press my shoulders in the dark.

But in turn
I have also known great happiness.
And fullness.
And warmth.

Because I have truly experienced you.

Dark of skin
Tall and beautiful
Looking is impossible
Stop staring as well

Such a silent method
Such a cruel thing
Just a glimpse is heaven
A word is paradise as well

Brown sugar she smells like
Brown honey she tastes like

And mine, just mine.

Zoning out,
with indie music dancing in the air,
sitting alone on a couch,
my mind can't help but stray towards you.

I wonder what you are doing,
and if you ever remember me,
for my head is clogged of thoughts containing,
only you.

I'm brought back to your driveway,
90' degrees of sun beaming down on our faces,
starting to sweat but I can't let go,
saying good-bye always brings a tear to my eye.

I can still feel your strong, tight arms,
forcing pressure and intense emotion into my body,
enforcing me that you want only me...
those are the best hugs.

Then I get the thought to write my heart out,
but it's overwhelming me,
hearts pumping rapidly now,
and Im filled with so much love.

I can't wait to let it all out,
share our happiness together,
push our egos aside,
so our souls can become one.

-Kayla Cory to my love Gabriel Velasquez <3