Make believe
I'm a mess
If you so choose
If doing so makes you feel better.
Weightless,
Don't get me started.
There's nothing
That keeps me grounded,
Quite like him.
Down to Earth,
Honey no,
I've got my head in the clouds,
And my feet are running on stars.
(Rewrapping old scars)
And reality doesn't come crashing down,
When I go tumbling back to our atmosphere,
Because my reality
Is in the clear.
'Cause it's not like
I regret my choices
That lead me to here.
Whether it's left me with scars or fear,
I would say
I turned out okay.
Listen up,
If you would find it pleasing to hear,
Or even if not.
I'm a pistol
With the safety on.
My smile melts
The ligaments in your knees,
And my knuckles are scarred
From fights with things that also bleed,
So you're no different,
In all honesty.
But he kisses me
And it leaves me breathless,
And suddenly the violence,
And swift movement
Of the fight
And grace on my feet
Comes crashing down,
I'm burning in the atmosphere.
I'm left as a
Fragile thing,
A bird with buzzing wings.
Dust off scorched skin
And soot covered feathers,
I'm stained in ash
And the pale raised skin
Of scars I probably somehow deserved.
Who I used to be,
And who I am now
Are no longer the same.
I used to fight to survive,
In more ways than one
And today I have to bite my lip to keep
From smiling
At seemingly nothing.
And I kept trying
To keep flying back to the stars,
And I kept getting burned,
But I don't need heavenly bodies,
No,
I needed another bird to fly with.
Scramble the iridescent reds and purples,
With the greens and yellows,
Fluttering and flying,
I'll fly with him,
My Bluebird.
At peace with a life,
I never intended to live.
I never intended anything
Until now.
I fully intend
On sticking around
And staying with him
For as long
As he'll have me.
And I'll fight like the hell I've seen
To stay longer.
Giving up is for cowardly children,
They throw away what's broken
In order to get a new one.
Breaking it further so no one judges them
For throwing it away.
I am no child,
And I am now coward.
I want a life with my Bluebird.
And **** it all to hell
If I let petty displays of power
Rip that from my hands.
So let me inform you, kindly,
Of my intentions.
As a demisexual synesthete who writes too much and pays attention too little, I fully intend on staying here, hand in hand, wing by wing, with the bird that taught me (most likely subconsciously) that falling in love is the wrong way to do it. Fly, don't fall. All it takes is enough determination and desire to keep going in efforts for a life with another.
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