Under the moonlight I speak with a shaky voice

And my breath is hallow as if it doesn’t exist

Why did this had to happen?

I’m crying, but in this part no one will hear me

No one will see me

I am enveloped in loneliness

That is disguised by the darkness surrounding me

And I cannot breathe and even if I wanted to

I couldn’t

Why did you stop breathing?

Because I wanted the easy way out

Running away seemed so easy

That’s why I did

Always choosing not to fight

That’s me

The person I am is a coward

Weak and scared of life itself

But I'm still  wanting to be saved

Am I selfish?

Yes you are

I know

I’m sorry

But this sorry, is only because I feel obligated to say

I don’t know who I am and I’m scared

I’m writing but my thoughts are hollow

I want to live , but I am afraid

And I  honestly don’t understand