I hate myself

so please dont try to convince me

I'm worth it

Because no matter what

I'm my worst enemy

And I'd never lie to myself by saying

I shouldnt have self hatred

So I promise you that I will always remember

That I'm the epitome of my mistakes

And nothing you say will make me think

I still deserve a happy life

Because no matter what

I'm not good enough for people

And I will never believe that

I'm good enough for anyone

Because whenever I look at my reflection I think

Have I ever deserved a happy life?

They said rap didn't want me
My light skin and this bottle of gin
thats whats gon help me win
my life full its of sin  my kin are full of doubt
that aint gonna help me out
**** screaming and shouting
lyrics are what im about
expressing my feelings through words
depressing rhymes
those are my crimes
sentence me to death
let me get some **** off my chest
my dad we laid to rest
he was the ******* best

life it closes in exposing me for my sin
wishing i was thin
life hits you like a slug to the heart
the rap game im now apart
im not in this for fame
or the money
lets not be funny but
in my past i used to cut
i was stuck in a rut
i had one foot in hell
the other was in a cell

x in a coffin
there ain't nothing worse that loosing an idol
soon ill be in a hearse
listen to my verse take it in
don't just throw me to the bin
thats it im finished