I don't know anymore .
Who to believe who to not .
I just don't feel like me anymore .
I don't .
- Adaa Sayed

People keep telling me I am working a lot but only I know if I stop doing what I do I am gonna keep falling for her all over again.

So I do, what I do.

it was a cold night.
    i have no shelter.
    cold, tired, and hungry.

you were so down.
    heart's been thrown,
    looking from afar,
    wishing on the stars.

it's already late.
    you, walking around,
    found me on the Nile.
    too blue,
    but happy to be found.

"are sad?"
always

"why are you quiet?"
because I want you to notice me

"are you okay?"
NEVER

"yeah, I'm fine :)"

"promises are meant to be broken"
it is not meant to be broken
it has BEEN broken

it has been broken because you weren't honest
it has been broken, because you didn't cared
didn't care enough to fulfill it
don't you know how that's really unfair?

People make excuses for the promises they cant keep
so they decided to blame it on fate
when really, they're the ones who we have to hate

promises aren't meant to be broken
we aren't suppose to forget
because someone out there is waiting...is hoping for it...
so....




promises are meant to be kept...

Sadness is drowning me
and it seems that you don’t care.
I tried reaching out for your hand
but you turned your back at me.
Things I would do for you are the
things you would never do for me.
Its always I who loves more, who cares
more, who would do everything for you
yet when I need you, there is no you.

I feel so blank that i couldn't keep my head up,
because my anxiety starts to build up,
I drank to lift my spirits up,
but it wasn't enough for three cups,

I'm not broken but it feels right,
maybe just sad from last night,
I can't share what's inside,
can't even smile for a little awhile,