our canvases were born
from chaos at midnight.
colour spilling with the smoke
of cigarettes waiting
patiently in the tray.
we wove them in
with the brushstrokes
then let it breathe
so the magic would dry.

'darkness is coming',
dark blue across white
a bird slurping
rainwater from petals.
or something like that.
art is supposed to
make you feel something.
ours wasn't there to be nice.

one day,
it wasn't there at all.

i came home,
and found them gone —
shredded and torn.
the reminder,
that hands crafted them
that wouldn't caress you,
was unbearable.

i'm sorry.
that i shouted at you.
that i couldn't respect
you needed space,
a clear head
away from the clutter
that came with me.

i would have done the same.
we don’t get to choose
who we let in,
and who we love.
the only choice we have
is whether to erase it
slowly,
or all at once.

Crush cut **** flip
**** guns **** kids
Sharp knife dig into the blood honey spread thick

It’s a mode it’s a *** shoot show it’s a stitch
Everyone will grow in his heavenly dome ring

You’re already less eternal than I...
By killing a kid in the blink of an eye
I don’t need to believe in a heaven you see,
I just feel the breeze in the arms of the trees

You’re a smudge on a page
A pen that’s exploded
Not like the kids who’s blood will be moulded

What will you do when your wind-up stops working?
Your teddy bear lurking– its eyes can’t be fixed
It’s too late now, you’re trapped in this -
Where muddy roots mutate your tapestry wings...

One bite of the freshest crunch
Crisp kiss, stolen touch
One glance at the lip. One look in the eyes
Was it sweet, honey?
Or was it sour?

Heavy was the weight
Fallen down, comes clarity
Tartness of the bite
Forbidden, yes it was
Have it in your palm
Eve got her bite, will you get yours?

what is this feeling that i am going through,
i feel pure ecstatic, the world feels brand new.
is what it feels like to fall in love?
or is it just a sign that was sent from above?

what is this feeling that i am going through,
my blood starts rushing each time I remember you.
i am a bunny that wants to hop all day,
im driven by joy that has come my way.

what is this feeling that i am going through,
i want to paint every shade born of you
i am a painter who just found his hue,
for all of my grey skies turned into blue

what is this feeling that I am going through,
i want to burn all my energy on you
there is a warmth i feel beside with your flame,
a warmth that whispers me your name

what is this feeling that i am going through,
a song in my chest that never knew.
i want ti dance gracefully, ill soar through the night,
because i see you as my shimmering light.

i won’t call you the sun.
you don’t hurt my eyes,
or blind me with your light.
you shine spectacularly,
but in a gentler sense—
like cherry blossoms,
ornamental in essence,
never promising sweet fruit
even if i help you grow.
but i don't expect any really,
i just want to admire your beauty
from the shadow you provide.

you’re not the moon, either.
you don’t need to borrow light—
you burn bright on your own.
your dark spots
don’t define your beauty;
your talent, your smile,
your infectious laugh,
your thoughts and care
outshine any flaws—
though honestly,
i don’t see any at all.

you are the nebulae.
beautiful and multicolored,
more than the eye can see,
more than the mind can reach.
you carry galaxies in your eyes—
light green and yellow-brown,
like forests and deserts,
the beauty of the earth
and the wonder of the universe
meeting in one gaze.

you are the stars.
seemingly small,
yet impossibly immense;
seemingly rare,
yet impossibly dense.
the only star i look at
like a sailor looks at the north star—
an essential on the sea,
guiding him home.

you are the mystery
that makes me trace lines in the sky,
connecting dots,
trying to find meaning
in what’s before me.
i want to understand you,
but you are so beautifully complex.
i used to think i was smart,
but you make me want to be better.
you are poetry—
the kind i cannot fully understand,
the kind with a thousand meanings,
and none i can settle on.

i don’t want us
to be anything.
but sometimes i wonder
if i crossed your mind
the way you drift through mine.

why else would you give me
your plushie crocodile —
just in case
i miss you
while you’re away?

we’ve been spending
so much time together.
you keep finding ways
back into my head.

we’re not going to be a thing.
you told me.
i told you.
we shouldn’t work.

but baby —
we do.

Radiohead blasting, can’t hear my thoughts
Pretty baby please give me some love,
I’d give you the world just hear me out,
I can’t love you more I’m so worn out.

I’m working so hard to get you everything
Say what you need it'll be a wedding ring,
I mentioned my favorite band to you
I’m so glad that you like them like I do.

You say you'll undress me sometime,
I think you’re only here to **** time,
I definitely want those cute X-ray eyes,
I pray that you'll love me by moonrise.

You make my heart ache and race
What can I do to speed up your pace?
I can learn to play the drums and the guitar,
I really like the blonde boy that you are.

You're pretty blue eyes say a lot more,
I want to be the one you always hold,
Those times you so gently had embraced me
It’s your touch that I found solace in.

Taking the breath away from my iron lungs
If I collapse please pick up my crumbs,
Ignore and break me more as the days go,
Help me, love me with everything I go through.

The way you covered your smile, Angel
When I glanced at you my heart’s in danger,
I see your insecurity about it
Your smile’s so pretty no need to hide it.

Taking that blue pill we talked about
I don't like his daughter, no **** doubt,
Our worlds colliding and merging into one,
If I would do something, then you might run.

The eye contact that had happened today,
Your greyish-blue eyes turning me gay,
I keep running away from you, Pretty boy
Yet life brings you back to me, Lovely Doll.

Staring at your slurred, drunken, lazy form,
Your eyes like that one nighty storm,
I want to be there for you always, Abby,
You just look like my boyfriend to be.

Looking at your cute features,
In your eyes I see the future,
Taking in those small, tiny quirks you have,
Everything about you makes me laugh.

You're my favorite midnight thought
The reason my heart can't get caught
The one I meet in all my dreams
Dancing in the rain in fantasies

Seen you glance over once or twice
But you never ever looked into mine
Darling you'll never know but I
Crave a death beneath those eyes

The way you giggle the way you smile
The way you become the sun's gold shine
You'll never know but it gives me life
And take my breath away - all the same while
Take my life - darling I won't mind

Know I'll never be good enough for you
A flower that bloomed with the sun's bright glow
They don't live long in the moon's dull gloom
So go find love and fall like a fool

Hope he sees your shine and never lets you lose a ray
Hope he's your happy pill whenever you feel gray
Never a black hole that takes away all your bliss
But a star that fills your sky and never misses a sweet kiss

Hope he falls for you like the moon fell for the stars
The way the summer sky fell for the sea and made it spark
But never the way I fell for you - for all your light and dark
It is only I who'll ever know the secret whispers in my heart