You are the reason can't you see?
I am begging you please stop crushing me
I am so tired of this
I can't remember the last time I woke up feeling ready for the day
I must let you go
you don't even want to stay
This is unhealthy and I know it so why am I always coming back?
I thought I was stronger than this but I guess I was wrong I am just a hopeless wreck
I think I fell for the idea of you and I find it hard to believe that the things I thought about you were just a beautiful lie, my deepest wishes projecting onto you
Now all that's left for me is to cry
You filled Me
You left me
But hatred.. Yet,
I remember you.
Even in Hatred,
I remember you..
Am I? Am I
good enough? Looking at my reflection through this broken mirror. Maybe it's just showing me what I really am on the inside.
I don't know... I never did. Slowly sliding down this brick wall, the coldness cooling down my heated flesh, Curling up into a ball wrapping my arms around me like its a life line.
I mumble to myself "am I? Am I good enough?" for you to hurt and betray me then I must not be.
But that's ok, I can never say no to you no matter how hard I try. Your touch, your breath, your words... are like poison that runs through my veins.
But its alright because for a moment I felt alive, not anymore, no those days are over. I'm dead inside. It's just an endless void of darkness swirling all around me that I can't seem to get out of.
It's all right, I take last glance at my bleeding wrist and say to myself "I was never good enough anyways" slowly my vision fades I'm starting to feel free, then...it goes black.
A product of peace and propaganda
God of nothing
Hope, but don't expect too much
Chewed up and spit out
Like a favoured gum
Acknowledgment is lacking the knowledge if passion
Binded by free chains
I hope there is a lesson learned in all this *******
A vision of greatness
Despite arousing statements
We man hear then our trouser snake lifts
My heart beats fierce when I see your face or hear your name
I try not to let it, it just happens,
My brain has forgotten
But the memory or stored in my loving apparatus
Ever picture and caption
I remember what happened
The better I make you feel the more you ignore me
The **** is annoying
Patients is a virtue it won't hurt you a little bit
Practice the preaching
It's still all simple ignorance
You just want the reassurance
That you're beautiful
That you're smart
That you're awesome
Things aren't that bad
Then you ignore us and that
Isn't really a heavenly match
Say hi to the sunrise
And For mercies' sake
Let it die if you knows it's bleeding
-My loving apparatus
— The End —