I woke up for the thousand time,
- a voice telling me it’s going to be ok -
And knowing that some days
all you need to conquer
                                       is yourself:
that space in you where new dreams are born,
that path taking you somewhere,
- the one filled with the craters of your fallen hopes -
But still leading you
to that corner of your soul
where not historical battles are won,
Just some battles. Yours.

I dreamt of you last night
You were holding my hand as if we were together
The feeling just ignited
Oh it was like a beautiful weather

When i woke up
I remembered that you belong to someone else

I felt broken once again
Thinking if there's a chance for us
I will wait for you but until when?

The question is asked again and again,
Where do we come from? Who are we?
All throughout life men and women great
And foolish have attempted to explain this,
"In a moment all will be explained,"
"If you pay more money you will be cleansed,"
"Not worshipping is the realm of the insane,"
"With these soft spoken incantations you will mend,"
So where do we come from? What is all this?
From rushing water, breath of air, no need for
Recognition, it's all miles away in some deserted
Forest, to be left for later generations to forget,
Let this be an answer, why are we here? I shall
Obtain eternal life if I just hold this vile
Closer to my heart, a work of vain art,
This isn't life, this is the illusion of life,
The answer nestled in a small cave,
The birth of a newborn bird, a ripple in a pond
From a rock that fell during an earthquake,
A vague reflection of a deer in it's surface gleam,
All of this and more, the darkness of night,
Cloaking terrors real or imagined, what is this?
Maybe one day we will know? This is how fools
Are born, clinging to this or that, a drop of water
From a vile, an answer from a simple written text
That proves it's all happened thus far. This is why
Fools are born of this, opportunists, blinded by dust,
The great way of those who gather to take advantage,
This is where the greatest numbers of fools gather.
Far away, the beautiful forest, I may not know what brought
This all to life, but I do know what is worth saving
And what only fools shall save for themselves...

All the answers
Lie within
All the answers
start within
Just listen
Always listen
Simply listen

questions
to which I can't answer
to which I daren't answer
answers
I don't want to hear
I can't repeat loudly
they scare
better one false reality
that a raw real end

When will you see me, dear heart?
Where should I start mending thy love?
When will we know if we have had enough?
When will you forgive me for what I did way back?

When will we be back together?
Without holding back or hesitation, tell me that this'll last forever.
Tell me while cupping my face with your tight hands and clouded face
When will you look towards me without feeling any pain?

When will I hear your innocence and all things you wish to shout?
Your youth and your struggles, will I ever witness and find out?
When will we be beside each other, leaning together as one.
Where should we search together for happiness long gone?

When is my cue if it is right to hold you?
Where should I fix my gaze as we try to start anew?
When should I see you smile without remembering my flaw?
Where and how far should we go, once we've reached the point of no return?

Twisting Turning im all tangeled up.
Hands tied mouth taped thrown and locked in a car trunk.
Crash.
I'm momentarily stunned.
Water fills its dark and cold.
I am drowning but i do not care.
Been here already...
sinking..
sinking...
sunk.
Forget everything everything i thought i knew.
Its all fake and so are you.
**** the world
**** the people.
Were so different so far from equal.
Gasp Gasp..
Im out of air.
The Water fills my lungs
Who fckng cares.
Will i be remembered.
Will you ever repeat my name.
Resting
Rotting
Rotted
At the bottom of this lake.
Forget
Forgetting
Forgotten.
No one will ever remember this day.