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S Smoothie Feb 2018
Lived 5 lives over

died a thousand deaths

was blinded by the light

and paralyzed by fear

shattered into a thousand pieces over you

and still,
I wait for your eyes to smile in mine.
S Smoothie Feb 2018
Midnight worlds swirled with moolight beams.

Delicate dainty love inscriptions would tumble to the page, aligned in perfection at whim.

But the darkness rising has hooked my soul.

Lillies, butterflies and daffodils died, still hanging off a demonic cloud.

Such was the darkness, I knew i had no other thing to do, but to espouse it all up like spew. A sickly offering of vileness and envy

I struck the worlds of beauty from my head and pulled out the ones nailed to my heart

I still bleed love darker than the darkest dark, I ****** with your mind and tore out your heart

I put it on display for all,  the winning-est ****!

Never thinking at all that my pen was sharper than your knife
And that ******* with pens trump *****.

I wish I was sorry.

Maybe i could forgive or forget and move on

Maybe then the words would come

You stole my pretty words along with the beautiful ones
The stories of my heart all gone,
stuck on a barren rock alone in space and time.

The rest i killed  each with an end stroke - coup de gras.

Now I don't care if it ever revives, because I'm fine just being some ******* with a pen

And I never wrote it for you anyway, not now, not then.

I only ever wrote for myself.
S Smoothie Jan 2018
...

A whisper on the wind
carried news of your impending arrival

even the birds held their breath,
not even a twig deared snap in anticipation.

You were one one of
the 12 great mysteries of life.

But I  saw through you.

You took far more than I was willing to give unwittingly.

I am my own mystery,

so I whistled sweetly crunching on soft twigs
suffering all the hard stares and curses of the woods.

But, these are my woods,
my fields of green and my happiness never depended on you.

I wont hold my breath or on to any false hopes.

I know what there is to seek,
and what I don't want to find,

I know what I am.

Do you?
S Smoothie Jan 2018
silence was a welcome relief
and the darkness seemed like a cosy blanket
stirrings of after thoughts
guilt ridden excuses had plaglued the mind
it has been disowned for a time
knowing only trouble and fast lips
and quicker hands
hot cheeks and tepid tears
feel better away from the light
scratching doohickey things on the wall for a while in the dark
seemed like the perfectly perfunctory thing to do
so it was done.
S Smoothie Jan 2018
Heated tongues had no temperance to spare

Betrayal is a fickle master cloaked in innocence

Eyes held truths with no regards to context

Illusions were never more real that when piercing
The heart left to bleed pounding desperately on the floor
Under the foot of merciless pain

How do you explain the inexplicable?

Some things just end while others start

The resoning was perfectly logical
But ****** if anyone could see it

Off they went onto seperate trajectories
Only to find tge truth revealed in 20 years of wastedness

Because faith seemed a too bigger thing
To hold through this broken prism

It was only when they travelled around it in oposite motions
They could see they belonged together

Far too late,  as other sattlites they collected were now in the way

And faith seemed once again bigger to hope for

And not a thing was learnt.
Hmmmn. ..
S Smoothie Jan 2018
Your eyes keep outlining the shape of your desires

Transposed on to my body

Watching you watching me

No secret, im left exposed

Vulnerabilities exploited

with a mere flicker of the eye

Primed eyes locked

Its the moment

Flight or fight

Zeroed in on my waist,

a triangulation of anticipated pleasures

Eyes drawn up,
the signal fire is lit

a flourish of your jacket like a bullfight

Swaggering towards me

arm raised in another flicker

the resounding crack of a slap breaking

broke the air

Fear panic and dread.

frozen.

And yet,  the kiss left

was soft warm and gentle

Weaving the shape of a homely warmth

that as soon you broke away

left a chasm so cold

i was driven to clamour for it

Only for a second though,

You know what a stubborn ***** i am.

Admitting it was never an option.

Even with my breath in your mouth.

Still when asked what i felt

You know my reply.


First draft

Your eyes keep outlining the shape of your desires

Transposed on to my body

Watching you watching me

No secret, im left expised

Vulnerabilities exploites with a mere flicker of the eye

Primed eyes locked

Its the moment

Flight or fight

Zeroed in on my waist a triangulation of anticipated pleasures

Eyes drawn up the signal fire is lit a flourish of your jacket like bullfight

Swaggering towards me arm raised in flicker the resounding crack of a slap breaking broke the air

Fear panic and dread frozen

And yet the kiss left was soft warm and gentle

Weaving the shape of a homely warmth that as soon you broke left a chasm so cold i was driven to clamour or your warmth

Only for a second though,

You know what a stubborn ***** i am.

Admitting it was never an option.

Even with my breath in your mouth.
S Smoothie Jan 2018
...
Head cupped gently in hands,
rested on her scraped knees.
Gently rocking away
the latest break
in the fabric of her equilibrium
...
Three deep breaths,
a final tear travels the curves of her face
Slipping into the crevices of her lips
A taste of the salt that sustains and drives her
...
Three deep breaths,
a pause and the arch of her neck
drags her head skywards
the blurry clouds and foggy mememories
blend into resolve
...
Three deep breaths,
Arms release shoulders drop,
its time.
...
Three deep breaths,
she slides up the wall
her diamond eyes focused
on a point of light
...
Three deep breaths,
She thrusts herself off
the comforting wall
...
Fists like anchors,
she pulls up the life from the ground
...
One deep breath,
she screams in the name of her reserection
...
Broken in all the right places,
off she walks like a queen
Loving her pain...
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