You feel expired
Like the milk in the fridge
It's got a lump or two
And the lettuce is fused
To the drawer
The garbage disposal makes a sound
Like it's grinding steel wire
It might be from that art project you did
When you tried to make a figurine
And got too tired
So you set it in the sink
To forget about it
But that's okay
Ramen noodles take a while to go bad
But those Cup 'O' Noodles
Get a bit crusty
After a few months
The dripping from the faucet
Doesn't really matter
Because the only reason for the bathroom
Is to empty your bladder
And sit
With your head in your hands
Before you head back to the bedroom
And wonder
What am I even doing?
Why does thinking hurt?
It's a lot of work
When your favorite color
Is grey

Of course, I am not okay with it, for it was yours,
And not mine to take,and as it is deemed yours,
How must one feel when you say it was our,
Mistake; that must be it, for I,
Am to blame.

But you nor I will give it no name or a bed from which
It will raise its sleeply head. We open our eyes and acknowledge.
That what we ought to have not let it rest and
Put our heads together for the best.

For it wishes to peep will never been achieved.
For it's silent cries never to be heard,
As it is tossed with utmost care,
In a bin with parts Here-
Nor-there, with gloves
To pat a job well done.

i remember the joking
   the sarcasm
and the solitude

    and your confusion...
   ... with me

and your disappointment
or so you once said
it started and ended there, though
   with that one statement
you weren't hurtful
i don't think you wanted that
and it did make me sad
but it also made me love you all the more

that was you
             one statement
said and then put aside
which had a bigger impact on me
than anyone else has had since

i am you

in my joking
   my sarcasm
and especially my solitude
of which i don't know whether to thank
or curse you for

i do miss you
   your intelligence
         your poise

and your love, dad
i miss that most of all.

do you ever look at a little kid
bouncing a ball
and just want to take that ball
and bounce it off his head?

no, me neither.