do you like it when i crave attention?
is this what you want?
do you purposefully ignore me in hopes that i crawl to your feet begging for acknowledgement?
do you go to bed thinking of ways to neglect me further?
how is it that with everything i do, i'm never good enough to bring up in conversation?
should i starve myself in hopes that you notice me?
does failing a class get your attention?
will you talk to me if i try to end my life?
will i ever be good enough for you?
will you ever tell me if i am? can you spare the heart ache now and let me leave?
how many nights will i go on thinking of ways to push myself farther into your peripheral view so that i am in focus?
i hate bringing attention to myself but i cannot stand being ignored. i got home from my musical (which my parents saw me perform in) and they said nothing about how i did they told me how wonderful everyone else did and then went to bed and left me alone with my 4 hours of homework. this is for you jared and patty.