I wish I was kissing you
Instead of missing you

I'm not tired
No, not in the slightest

I'm not upset
No, just mellow

I'm not sure
No, I really don't know

I'm not smiling
No, my face is straight

I'm not empty
No, there's emptiness to me

I'm not together
No, rather I'm apart

I'm not sane
No, try insane

I'm not saying it
No, I've said enough I think

I'm not done typing*
*No, I have plenty more I could give...

I now lay my head to this pillow
Curled up
In your top
With your stuffed toy
Thinking of you dearly

But you're not here...
*...Oh how I wish you were

How can I prove my worth to you,
Live up to the words in which I gave you,
If im not given the opportunity from you..?

I used to think that love
Meant doing anything to be with someone
So it would make sense after all
To do anything to get someone back

So why am I afraid to go to you?

If I am the romantic I used to be
What is stopping me from being by your side now?
Perhaps its the fear that all may not be as I hope
Or that I may leave more alone than before

Is this why Im afraid to be with you?

Three simple words hardly spoken
Is all thats needed to fix this
Why won't you say them...

Rest your head my child and sleep.
Dry your eyes, there’s no need to weep.
Oh! How exhausted you must be,
Come now rest my sleeping beauty.
~
You know deep down I understand.
I guess I fear how much more ye can withstand.
The body needs rest and yours has been broken,
It shows in all the things you leave unspoken.
~
Im sure one day you will see this and feel bad,
Know there is no need, and that in no way would I ever be mad.
I forgive you before anything even happens to occur,
I will love you forever, I am your good sir
~
In the end we simply want whats best,
We want to put your aching heart to rest.
You're brain hurts, your body numb,
The people around you, no help but plagued with dumb.
~
I wish I could tell you what's on my mind,
I assure you my intentions are simply kind.
Perhaps if i had courage, perhaps if I could,
I know in the end I’d’ve wished I would.
~
My fear is misplaced, and I know this to be true,
All I know is that i love you...
I love you as you are, you mean the most to me,
Cause even in darkness we have the ability to see.
~
You are in essence my ray of light,
I love you my dear, with all my might.
I am grateful for a wish was fulfilled,
With luck shall be more, and I will be thrilled.
~
Through the tears and the sadness,
Through the anger and madness.
I will always be here, right at your side,
i would traverse the distance no matter how wide.
~
Your smile is soft and pure of joy,
The sweetest and sincerest, if ever a ploy.
You are beautiful both inside and out,
Forever my dear, know this without doubt.
~
Whenever you call, i shall endeavor to answer
Consider me, as a simple advancer.
You shall not, and will not ever need be alone,
I can’t describe the honor of calling you my own.
~
Tomorrow is a new dawn, tomorrow is a new day,
My only wish is for things to go our way.
Its been rough, to get where we are,
We need only look back to see we've come far
~
Be it now, or forever and after
I will do my best to cheer us with laughter.
You needn't fake smile, not even for me,
Know that hiding emotion is never the key.
~
Feel free to do and be who you want,
I will love ye for ye, my debutante.
I hold no judgments, I love ye as ye is,
You need not listen to what anyone says.
~
Take my words as they are, and all that I am,
For what others say, I haven’t a ****.
You are who you are, and it is who i love,
Upon all others, I place you above.
~
I know this is cheesy, it know it is cheap,
But I hope it’ll soak up the tears that you’ve weeped.
The tone has changed, the topic diverted,
When emotion and thought is all I've exerted.
~
To know I have you, is all that matters,

Till death do us part
You'll forever hold my heart
Just listen to it slowly break
From devastation in our wake
○◘○◘○
As each day goes past
Our personalities differ in contrast
We were once so enraptured
Now my soul has been captured
○◘○◘○
There is no more you and me
I refrain from any duplicity
I just gotta have you back
**Get my life back on track

Perhaps it is not of custom to do such a thing,
But I wished to thank everyone firstly:

For 250+ likes on my poems.
Not once did I ever start posting expecting for people to take notice
But this is the beauty of Hello Poetry.
I still remember that first like and the warm fuzzy feeling you got
Hell I still get it now with every like I recieve.

Thank you for 8k views
That in itself means alot to anyone, whether it be 10 views, onto 100, 1000 and onto 10k
8000 poem views, its truly special to feel valued for what you enjoy
Or just spilling out some emotion onto a page.

So thank you,
From one writer and poet (if you will)
To another
Heres to all of us
1 view or 1 million
We share a mutual understanding

Try if I will,
Try if I might.
No matter how far I venture,
Theres no end in sight.
~
Try if I will,
Try if I might.
Theres nothing left in me,
With in which I can fight.
~
Try if I will,
Try if I might.
Wish there was someone here,
To save me from the fading light.
~
Try if I will,
Try if I might.
No matter how loud I scream,
*Theres no one to hear my plight.

I thought I knew pain
**Then I looked at you...

Lend me your ears and hear me out

Have you ever, just stopped where you are?
To gaze at the sky and be taken aback.
To find the beauty in every star,
Relieve the moments on our data track.
~
I looked up to the sky in awe
~
I found happiness in what i saw,
The beauty in the simplicity of it all.
A genuine smile crept from my jaw.
The perfection in something so small.
~
I looked up to the sky in awe
~
The deep blue contrasts these pure angelic clouds,
My shirt and hair flow about the breeze.
I feel alive, that darkness now no longer enshrouds,
The opportunity in this moment I am to seize.
~
I look up to the sky in awe*

I feel *alive

Loved you yesterday
Love you still
**Always have... and always will

I fell in love with you
Not for how you look
But for how gorgeous you are within

Music stars with Doe Rae Mi
~ But love ~
Starts *You and Me

These tears have since turned red
From the wounds I'm bleeding out from

I love you
Why can't you see...?

**Just how much...

Roses are red,
Violets are blue
I'd give anything
Just to be next to you
~ ♥ ~
Daffodils are yellow,
Daisy's are white
I'd give my arm and leg
To have you in sight
~ ♥ ~
Cherry blossoms are pink
Carnations of green
I can no longer remember since we met last
How long it has been
~ ♥ ~

The bravest thing I've ever done
Was continuing my life
When I wanted
To *die

It's been so long since I've written,
It's almost like I've forgot.
It's been so long since I was open,
It's almost like I'm not.

I really dont know how to say that,
I am not okay once more.
I really dont know how to say that,
I am not quite sure what for.

Perhaps it's because you're gone,
Perhaps the fact it's all over.
Perhaps it's because you left,
Perhaps the fact I'm a leftover.

It hurts trying to accept the that,
It really is the end.
It hurts trying to accept that,*
It really isn't "boyfriend".

Theres something about the way,
Something so perfect and pure,
Can simply cease to exist,
Just you left, nothing to say.
~
You're free, spread your wings,
To somewhere unknown you fly,
With no direction you're lost,
Just getting over the little things.
~
Hurt by that which was once ours,
Struggling to stay above,
Each breath dissipating,
This butterfly flew with *scars.

In silence I suffer, drowning.
Losing the fight, falling.
~
On the surface, calm.
To everyone else, happy.
~
Beneath it all, hurting.
They know I'm lying, breaking.
~
I want you to see I'm okay, even if I'm not.
That way things'll be better, even if they're not.
~
Convince myself over and over, even if I don't believe it.
Tell myself everything will work out fine, even if I don't believe it.
~
I'm fine, no I'm not
I'm happy, no I'm not
I'm grateful, no I'm not
~
I don't accept this, yes you do
I hate you for this, no you don't
I don't blame myself**, *yes you do

She says she's fine,
"But she's going insane"

She says she's feels good
"But she's in a lot of pain"

She says it's nothing
"But really it's alot"

She says she's okay
*"But really she's not"

Having it
Means doing what I should have done
Along time ago

Dark as night,
Cold like ice.
You've never once said,
Anything nice.
~
Fierce as flames,
A finer art.
Word like needles that,
Pierce my heart.
~
Right of way.
You left me be.
Never thought you'd break,
My heart in three.
~
Words of venom,
Said with a hiss.
Everything now I,
Begin to miss.
~
With break of dawn,
We finally see.
Just keep walking, dont,
*Come back for me.

You just simply
Dont
Know