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Feb 2019 sian

A year

Feb 2019 sian

دema flutter

A year

It takes a year,
for the pain to leave my veins,
for the memories of you to fade,
for the cuts in my soul to heal,
for the rhythm of my heart to change when I’m around you,
to forget your touch on my mind,
to forgive the universe for meeting you,
to live life like you and me had never happened.

#oneyear #past #movingon #touch #love #relationships #mind #forgetting #memories

Feb 2019 sian

the island

Feb 2019 sian

Shahlaa Medina

the island

the loneliness came in waves,
deep bitter crashes of the blues tide
your beach was my sanctuary,
you kept me safe and dealt with my insanity.

#love #loneliness #insanity #wanting #safety

Feb 2019 sian

Letting Go with Grace

Feb 2019 sian

Alyssa Underwood

Letting Go with Grace

There's a peculiar kind of beauty that can only be experienced
with the innate knowledge that the moment is fleeting
and the most intense beauty can only be seen in
the presence of both light and shadows.
For it’s often in the loss of a thing
that its worth to us becomes
most precious and by
letting it go with
grace we can
best savor
its purest
delights.
Realizing
that the pain
runs so deep only
because the beauty ran
so deep and that without
it having once touched us we
wouldn't now know the emptiness
of its loss, our grief will eventually turn to
thankfulness that it ever touched us at all, and
we will be left awed by the mystery of its haunting.

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#lettinggo #growth #beauty #loss #pain #haunting #gratitude #thankful #release

Feb 2019 sian

RIP to the little Girl

Feb 2019 sian

Lost Soul

RIP to the little Girl

RIP to the little girl that i let die
you left me so quickly
i never got the chance to say
goodbye
i'm sorry i didn't fight for you more
i wanted to protect you
so i lock us behind my bedroom door
but as the days went by
i looked in the mirror
and saw you die a little more inside
the sobs grew louder
your voice grew hoarse
leaving your throat as dry as powder
.....then you stopped talking at all
the world would disappear
through your tears
as you stare at the wall
one day i woke up and you were no more
i screamed your name
but you never came
you died in the middle of this mental war
i'm sorry little girl i let die
you left so quickly
i'm sorry i never said
goodbye

RIP to the little girl that lived inside me

#rip #death #depression #cry #sad #goodbye #mentalillness

Feb 2019 sian

Untitled

Feb 2019 sian

Jayde

Untitled

I'm going through life just barely existing
I know I'm getting bad again
I haven't done anything to change it
Haven't done anything to stop it
I stopped my medicine
I stopped my sessions
I stopped caring
Maybe it's time to just shrivel up
Maybe it's time to let the darkness come
Maybe it's time to give up
Maybe it's time to just be tired
You have to stop fighting at some point, right

#depression #mental #health #illness #tired

Feb 2019 sian

a forgiveness letter (to be continued)

Feb 2019 sian

indigochild

a forgiveness letter (to be continued)

let me try this one more time

i forgive you

for the bright colors you muted to pastels
for the rose thorns creating an unwanted invulnerability
for the forever creases on my once rippleless skin
my neck
my arms
my stomach
my hands
for the rusted barbed wire isolating my heart

they tell me I have your eyes
but, my worst fear is becoming you

- you ruined my life, but at least you tried

Feb 2019 sian

why

Feb 2019 sian

mae

why

why do boys think it is okay

to be in love with someone

while making someone else fall for them,

knowing they will never mean anything

to them.

why did you do this

#relationship #heartbreak #heartbroken #cheating #love #sad

Feb 2019 sian

golden blanket

Feb 2019 sian

tempest

golden blanket

may your tears soak through my skin

                                                                       as your head lies on my chest
may your fears pour down my throat

                                                                    as your head lies on my *******

                           may i steal some of your nights?
                             as you steal some of my light?

                                                                may your pain be shared with me
as your head begins to rest

#intimacy #love #healing #pain #suffering #closure

Feb 2019 sian

Destroyer

Feb 2019 sian

kmr

Destroyer

The petals drift
And lay down
Gently
Beside my feet
And my tears -
That are crashing,
Violently,
To the ground.

The steps you take
Away from me
Are an echo
Of the pulse
Inside my veins.
Your footsteps fade
And with you
Goes my heart.

Leaving me broken
And empty.
Leaving me as only a husk
Of the person
I used to be
Before I loved you.
And before my love
For you
Destroyed me.

#love #heartache #valentines #relationship #depression #anxiety #sad #hurt #pain

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