things around here have become somberly dull since you left. almost as if each day i wake i notice the colors around me are drained a bit more than the day before.

and despite me knowing that someday all hues shall return, when we once again collide like the supernovas we are...i can’t help but feel that for now life has lost all color.

W. Be

“be love” she said
the words rolling off her lips
like sweet honey down a
glass jar

he wipes the remnants from her chin and smiles.

peering
through the dusty window pane
opaqued by the loss of you
i muster the strength to look forward
as i always do

now the cobwebs have begun to clear,
and this glass will shine like
it once did
on a sunny Wednesday
afternoon

your nonchalance was so sheer
it stung

i lay on my bed and peer out the window
frost nipping at my cheeks
the midnight sky consumed my mind
i think back
to the night i met you

constellations filled the sky
that night
their luminescence
casting the shadows away
that romp in the crevices of my mind

when my eyes
fell
on yours
i knew then
i would bury myself into you

we looked up
“what if each and every one is a hole in the sky?”

that can’t be i thought
for i see the stars in the sky
and i see the stars in your eyes

and they are full of life
of desire
they are not empty holes
that carry no soul

w.b.

Touch your lips
to my skin
let me feel
and take you in
wrap your arms
around me tight
whisper sweet words
to me all night

-WB

All I can say is I'm sorry

That horrific day was so long ago,
yet feels like yesterday when your
tongue speaks it's name.
I replay and replay
over and over
A never ending road that I'm forced to travel
as if there is a gun to my head
and a man that says "walk".

Then there's a wave
that crashes down on me
engulfing me in it's embrace.
Dragging me under as I struggle to breathe
I'm scared
Just as soon as I reach the surface
and gasp for a breath
the riptide pulls me under again
And I return to the submerging dark sea
that does nothing
but haunt me.

I keep replaying it in my head
Like a broken record stuck on repeat,
the expression you had
when you looked at me
and tears started streaming down your face.

My heart twisted and cringed
as every tear fell
You pushed me away when I tried to
console you
"Get away from me."
I was horrified with myself.
The complete utter silence dispersed through the room  
when you left me alone.

You did that on purpose
I think
to let me torture myself
with every thought that consumed me
every little drop of hatred,
running through my veins.
Like poison seeping through my blood.
Every second becoming more fatal
every moment deteriorating my insides.

Then the sky started crying
each rain drop simotaneous
with each tear rolling down my cheek.
I despise myself for hurting you.
I'm sorry.

Everyday I seem to fall for you
more and more
into the sweet abyss
that is your embrace.
But you see,
really it's just killing me.
Because as I fall more in love
you're slowly slipping out,
trickling through my fingers
like the cold November rain.
You are my happiness
your sweet smile brings me warmth.
The second you leave
you'll be taking it away
leaving only
the barren canvas of my heart.
*Please don't go.

It's unexplainable,
the miraculous feelings that I seem to
drown in
every night.
When the darkness creeps in
and nothing is left
but the shadows of trees
and the demons of my mind.
I reach for you
but you're too far.
A never-ending cycle
of utter disappointment
and heart ache.

Memories with you
are like little shards of glass,
poking and prodding at my heart.
Each ***** a reminder,
of how you used to feel.
I need you,
but you're nowhere to be found.
I miss the way things used to be.
I miss you.

I wish I could remember the way your mouth tastes
or how your touch felt on my scorching skin.
But for the life of me,
I have forgotten.
Just how for the life of you,
you have forgotten me.

Well here I am
once again.
Sitting here at 3 A.M.
And there's no escape
to the way I feel.
No escape to the way
you made me feel.
You haunt me
in every possible way.