Do you know the name Sisyphus, 
once a king of his time
Now known for a boulder 
that pays for his crime

His journey was full 
of money and love
But he lived to deceive 
gods below and above

He lied to Death, 
he lied to his wife
He lived long as he could
stabbing backs with a knife

His hourglass of lies 
soon ran out of sands
He was dragged down to hell 
by Hades own hands

****** for eternity 
to shove stone up steep climbs
He tries and he tries
over millions of times

He reminds me of me,
in the way that he's trapped
Lived well as he could,
now his life comes unwrapped

Pushing and fighting 
for a glimmer of joy
Being mocked and played
like a hand-me-down toy

Day after day
he tries to get out
Night after night
his dreams lie in drought

Just as I too
combat real with the dream
I see that my path
is flowing downstream

I keep her content
to avoid making waves
Although all I'm doing
is digging our graves

Unbeknownst to Sisyphus,
he can never succeed
He starts each day over
with hopes to be freed

So although we're both stuck,
perhaps he can cope
Knowing, unlike me,
he's been ****** with a hope

Numb.

Yesterdays pains
Gone.
I lie awake and try to grasp the truth.
It's not real.
I can't see it.
I only hear it.
It's not real.

Numb.

Blank stares don't bring you home.
We've not been close for years,
Yet,
I've never felt so connected.
So taken back.
So uncertain.
So...

Numb.

It's as if your still here.
But your daughter,
That sweet child,
A year old,
Will never know you.
The love you had for her,
The way you looked into her eyes,
The smile she brought back to you...
She'll never know it.
She'll never know you.

Numb.

I count those I so often take for granted.
I want to cry,
Tell them I love them,
Tell them they are important,
Tell them I'm here,
But you didn't get to.

Numb.

We all are one in your loss.
Try to fill a gap,
A hole in our world.
An unexpected,
Unfair,
Unbelievable,
Bottomless
Hole.

Numb.

Nothin­g can replace you,
Soften the blow,
Bring you back.
Nothing can be what you were.
A friend.
A father.
A joy.
Nothing can bring back the feeling you brought to life.
Everything lies still,
Motionless,
Broken,

Numb.

There are haystacks without needles
Take the pain, and lose your pride
There are rainbows that don't end with gold
Beauty led, but beauty lied

There are hills that just aren't worth the climb
In the pits, though you're at the top
There are stories better off untold
You beg, but they don't stop

There are final shots that just don't fall
Fight to the end, with no avail
There are souls that don’t move on to heaven
Broken spirits in personal hells.

There are problems with no solutions
Try every way, no answer's found
There are innocents 'proven' guilty
Kept locked up, put in the ground

There are faces even moms don't love
A true self hides from the light
There are wounds that even dads can't heal
Defenses down, an unfair fight.

There are seas with not so many fish
If you're a 'catch' you'll be thrown back
There are smiles that never knew of joy
Fake it well, keep up the act

There are sunsets that are clouded over
Rays fight, but can't get through
There are frogs who can't transform
Kisses fail, even from you.

There are some things too good to be true
It's no figure of speech
There are those who don't mean what they say
Cannot practice what they preach

There are friends who aren't there at your worst
In words unsaid, there lies the proof
There are soul mates that are lacking soul
They're all illusions of the truth

There are promises which cannot be kept
Like that I'd always have your heart
So I guess there's not much difference
In falling in love and falling apart

He can't see how it’s over,
He sees her face fade away.
He tries to hold the memory,
But her blue eyes fade to gray.

Hold back the pain from what he's lost,
And try to forget what they once were,
But every person that he meets
Takes him right back to her.

So now he counts his lesions,
And he'll cringe as they all burn.
He's removing all the bandages
From what he's failed to learn.

Their time apart only infects
The courtesies once seen.
She sees his heart falling apart,
But she fails to intervene.

Like a stone, she'll watch him fall;
She'll toss him to the sea.
At 3 a.m. she's who he'd call,
But now that slot holds empty.

So now at 3, he tries to sleep,
He sees her face fade away.
He tries to hold the memory,
But her blue eyes fade to gray

In a desperate hope, he calls her name,
"Let me help you understand."
He collects his thoughts and opens up
and goes in with all he can:

"Be mine now, or make me wait,
All I want is an answer.
Be my love or fear/My joy or tear,
Be my savior or my cancer."

"Ignore me now, all that you can,
And put memories in the past,
Or come back to me and you can see
That I can make us last."

"My feelings take control of me,
And I can't help but say,
Whether you love me or hate me/Ignore me or face me;
I'll love you everyday."

"I need you girl you are my world.
I'm sure that sounds cliché,
But until you're mine, I'll pass the time,
Watching blue eyes fade to gray....."

The Music swims past my ears
To get you off my mind
But the fact is what I’ve always feared
That we've run out of time
This song was ours, or so you said
But now who can claim it theirs
For our relationship has fled
And this song needs a new heir
Whoever it is that dances slow
To this song that’s in my heart
I only want that guy to know
How quickly it can fall apart

Well, my Dear, What can I say
I've thought of you this Valentine's Day
But this should come as no surprise
You brighten my day; You're my Sunrise

There's rarely a day you don't cross my mind
When I close my eyes, it's you I find
So I know it's not much, but it is a start
Accept or Decline, you have my heart

When God made you he must have smiled
At the beauty confined in this confident child
And the big man sure must like me too
Since I was clearly blessed in meeting you

He sent me an Angel, for when times get rough
But for a girl like you, I can't thank him enough
And I know if I need you, you'll be there
Accept or Decline, I know you care

It's been too long since I've seen your smile
But when it comes to you, the wait's worthwhile
It's been too long since we spoke last
But the feeling it gives me is unsurpassed

Over this time our friendship has grown
So I'll throw my request into the far unknown
I send this on an arrow, to my sweet Valentine
Accept or Decline, Would You Be Mine?

It may be true that I've known you
For only a short while
But in this time I've come to find
You'll always make me smile

I try to hide how I feel inside
But you put me to the test
Something you do makes me want you
To rest your head on my chest

Let's take a chance, let's slow dance
To a song that we don't know
Please come near my darling dear
And let's put on a show

I look around, and feel so bound
These walls won't let me stray
I ask God how He could allow
Us to be so far away

I get no reply so I look to the sky
And his answer shines so bright
A hope in the stars says there's no distance too far
For us to connect tonight

I need your hug, it's like a drug
My system needs its dose
So at night I dream to make it seem
That girl I need is close

We may talk too much but its never enough
With each goodbye I miss you more
When it’s time for bed you're in my head
You've become part of my core

It hurts like hell to say "Sleep well"
For I have lost you for the night
I count my sheep but I can't sleep
My closed eyes keep you in sight.

You’re too modest to know how much you glow
You're as precious as can be
What your future holds could break the mold
If you would just break free

You're my inspiration, my strong foundation
In times of need you help me cope
I starting to stand with the help of your hand
You've given me Reason to Hope