some times it all comes at once

full on

then later

all goes quiet here and there


there may be a need to take more sandwiches

with butter to keep the energy up

i took a yoghurt only and came very hungry

and fueled up with peppermints in the

afternoon


the note came by post

with no need to answer written

with pencil


in this  eight day period

i will say the same to you

with typing

from monday to friday next week

there will maybe be no message

from me


clean laundry from you to

help the maids

here we call them housekeepers


while the customers regard

things their own way

and my lip is buttoned



window misted

bird on the ledge

you may call them potato chips

in a packet all salty?

my house cat precious

likes mushrooms

a lot

raw and squidgy

she likes the leavings of salad

while the wild ones enjoy

out of date yogurt

from the bus yesterday i saw

a field of knapweed all gone

over

still beauty in the seed heads

the film was about a man who

saw beauty

about his mother abusive, manipulative

about my travelling to see it

about sitting with others

feeling differing things

opposing opinions

the film yesterday changed things

she said even small people can

change the world

i hope it is so

we are  published now

yellow hammer

some still sit quietly at home

and let it drift

a few do not

that ice cream thingy must be a local thing

to you

i cannot think of anything here

like that

only a sweet made with wafer and marshmallow

that looks like one

i used to buy ross’s puff candy

i had 3d on wednesdays to

spend



major decisions what to buy



never crisps

i was not allowed

told

they were a waste of money, only potato

my brother bought them for me

when he worked



it came our secret



i have them now of course

as many as i like



they did not have any logs at the store

not had any all summer either

i think i will find another supplier

local



been trying a more fresh fruit

and veg diet

gave me a belly ache

last eve



serves me right



back to the bread today

then

for breakfast



before a trip to aber arts

for the film



6.44 am

still dark

stomach settled

with latest headlines

it may be a small voice

small talk

strong syllables

rather than shouted blasphemy

is that what you mean by small talk?



or do you mean idle conversation

about nothing in particular



i can do that too



we talked about carrots that evening

prompted by a stranger



how do you cook them or do you

eat them raw and grated



great that one can cut them differing shapes



she said she decides how to cut them  according

to the accompanying veg

or company



you know if you are with friends it is good to

eat them easy

without bits hanging out

of the mouth



is that what you mean by small talk?



or do you mean words of one

part

not too many syllables like

that last word there



or tiny words squeaked like a mouse

very quietly



i can do that too



i can write small talk with voice

unless we are talking of autumn the gold

time which comes gentler with occasional winds

and related sweeping



autumn comes softly so

we fall

rain. two dark birds fly over.

days off are delightful
yours make good reading

i went on a visit
which fed me with delight
and home made
soup

then sadness for he is ill

a particular being
as are most of us
here

the cracked mirror
the wooden box tied with string

full of wood shavings, beautiful
to view another day
if i return
if i return

the cloth by the fire
three radios
each tuned different

splendid cows in the front fields
all clean and brushed

the rusted hook gathered
from the garden still good enough
to use

i walked through town
wet on the way up
dry coming back
hours later

yes i fail in that i see/experience
many things that may be left

aside

he said that maybe there is something
after all, that we are not to know of it ever

obviously as we do not know
and cannot know everything

there is a house below dark
yet somehow welcoming

i tried not to stare in

i like the feel of the town
slate town, blaenau ffestiniog

i woke later today
and that is alright

i shall record the addresses
and make a clean bed and studio later

for now

7.29 am
with tea, coffee in an hour
head full of thoughts and ideas
with no pattern or rhyme
with that underlying
sadness