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somebrand Mar 2019

Unfamiliar familiar stranger.

Pierce through me like a plane through the ghostly clouds.
Dark echos of your laughter overcame my simple glass of white wine.
Are you gonna cry? Are you gonna whine?
You smile so soberly as drunken nights flash through your tormented mind!
Honey, we have all the time in the world.
You're drunk.
Oh ****!
This is it, isnt it?
I can't wait to see you.
And I swear to god, I cant wait to beat you,
In this game you call love!
Get down, get down, run for cover.
We both know we werent there for each other.
(At all! I was just a doll to you.)
Defeating yourself at your own game is such a waste of time and space.
****, but if I were you, I'd do the ******* same.
Despise popular belief, there are no rules to this game.
Unrelated twins, we know how this ends.
Similar in wits, but we both want to win.
You smile so evilly as triumphant days flash through your tormented brain.
You weren't always this kind.
Darling, what have you?
Darling, have you kept track of time?
Midnight is already daylight.
You always know my type of fight!
Oh ****!
This is it, isnt it?

Please, please throw away your keys to my heart.
Leave them in the dark.
As Im writing this, im dreaming about your cherry lips.
Your firm grip on me.
I want you to hold me.
Baby, just leave me be.

If only i could outsmart the outsmarting.
Youre ******* ****!
If i didnt know any better id be talking to a mirror.
Youre too ******* familiar.
Or maybe youre just a stranger in my bed,
but id know you from anywhere without even looking at your head.
Unfamiliar familiar stranger.
This is it, isnt it?
Im still the only one sleeping in our bed.

a song about two people who don't know how to love each other, or themselves.

#love #stranger #sad

somebrand Feb 2019

diary entry #17

am i supposed to cry for you?
that evil grin, your ice cold skin.
you've got me hooked on you.
how long has it been since i broke in?

your cut wrists are tied to the wall,
no fear, other than when you realized you've lost all hope.
and i smile at the sight.
no one cares if you scream at night.
your pretty grin has faded over time.
where's your battle cry?

tick tock, tick tock.
look at the clock.
reverse.
what does it say?
666, baby I'm on my way.
sorry if i'm moving too slowly for your taste.
and if you need something to help you,
feel higher than the sun,
i suggest myself.
i promise it might help.

shoot!

knock it's head clean off.
why is the television so ******* loud?
no, i can't hear a ******* sound!
the dysthymia won't turn it off!
cut it out!
i beg you.
i wish all my demons would listen to me.
fastidious.
signs of symptoms.
they all go back to you, even if you don't want them to.

your diligent ways to make me suffer.
you don't quit until i am no longer continuing to breathe.
spending all my days, reticent, hesitant.
the world would be better without me.
that's it diary.
entry, number seventeen.

basically the speaker in this song is arguing with themselves as their depression is getting worse and taking them over faster and faster.

#depression #sadness #pills #imsorry

somebrand Feb 2019

the ball.

good god!
your enchanted red dress looks so beautiful even if you're dead!
in the ball, there's a brawl.
even in the chaos, in it all,
he asked for your hand.
your withered red dress into the big forest.
barefoot, pandering and calling out!
there's no way you're going to make it out today.
good god!
now baby, how will this play out?

answer me this, are the clouds upside down,
or am i just now figuring out,
this isn't home!
i'm on my own.
and this is war!
watch me soar
into the ocean!
as i hit the ocean floor,
breathing in and screaming out,
"you're not escaping me!
this walking definition of your dreams, now honey!
listen, i'm all you need!"
(alright, is there still time to join in the fight?)
time out!
there's no doubt, this may be getting out of hand!
please, ladies and gentlemen,
go about your day!
nothing to see here,
only demons and fear.
as you dance with your prince, you're also heading out the door.
waltz in the underground of my new crown.
behold my ritual, so invisible.
love, exceed my miserable hometown.
good god, get down!
gun shots are the sound.

pick yourself up, save yourself.
maybe save him as well.
i think im losing touch.
your withered red dress into the big forest.
i cherished you like a planet needs its orbit.
my princess, i watched from afar.

your enchanted red dress looks so beautiful even if you're dead!
in the ball, there's a brawl.
even in the chaos, in it all,
he asked for your hand.
your withered red dress into the big forest.
barefoot, pandering and calling out!
there's no way you're going to make it out today.
good god!
now baby, how will this play out?
being alive does counter my duty.
now that i have you, i see you up close.
there is no doubt that i know you, but i don't think you knew me.
being deceased doesn't counter your beauty.

#fairytale #love #twistedfantasy

somebrand Feb 2019

exit

Evacuate to the nearest exit.
I can wait baby, don't you stress it.
Your lips on my lips, a soft kiss.
I'm not pleading for a teasing, so darling
Don't you test me with your freezing
Lips!
I'm obsessed with your theft of my undressed chest.
You messed me up, made me fall in love.
I could've guessed that, though.
Sort of.
I can hear you breathing, am I dreaming?
Kiss you again?
What're you scheming?

Evacuate to the nearest exit.
Run, run, run, coming undone.
You're driving me wild with that award-winning smile.
Why don't we hang out for awhile?

****; will we make it?
Hitting the pavement, making a statement, I heard it was pretty terse.
My black boots and your muddy Converse.
Hold my arms down, now.
**** me softly with your love, now.
At least you can do what you want!
I'll let you do anything, haunt me, taunt me.
Darling, I'm the least bit interested in letting you go.
I'm in your arms, my insecurities will not show.
And baby, call me crazy, but the party is over, no?
Evacuate to the nearest exit.
Anything else you'd like to say before we go destroy the human race?
No?
Thought so.

Baby, lay your sweet little head on my chest.
Lay down and go to rest.

**** that.
Let's get this show on the road!
We all know with you by my side, there is no resting.
If that were the case, I'd need a blessing for my untamed hideaway.
With you, I'll wait until the party's over.
Downtown in the clouds, we're screaming loud.
So loud.
Let's make a poisonous raincloud, how does that sound?
Now hear me out.
Again, let's be crystal clear.
You're so near.
The atmosphere can't handle us tonight.
Ear to ear, let's peer into the moonlight as it flips us off, but we'll laugh it off.
We're the boss.
If you want, we can ride a satellite.
It just depends on how you feel, alright?
Come here, my dear.
One last cheer.
One last beer.

There's no more ringing in my ears.

#love #anger #melancholy

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